magic or fantasy: today im voting fantasy: its always showtime

FRIDAY  424 pm

hello world, bee off the grid, stonewalling
everything but novel

totally quick commentary:

america drawn into shiite struggles for power and influence - iran
the puppetmaster in this struggle

defense dept hires 21 year old contractor to deliver defective ammo to afghanistan
this is the government that couldnt shoot straight

neither hillary no obama can take advantage of mccains weakness
because they still on the bataan death march of 2008

im clocking page, only thing you
can do when the world is falling apart

rdoc

TUESDAY MORNING  334 am

hello world, figured out my problem, had written myself past my understanding
had to stop and reassess what im doing, redo my outline, no problem

invest a couple of days in outline i be good to go
it feels good to be moving again

schoolhouse got me running and gunning

summerwoodshed coming and i need to hit the ground running

quick commentary: hillarys misspokement is too juicy to pass up

bill say its all good, let the blood flow

obama look a little weary these days
hang in there brother

cant handle hillary what
can you do

rdoc

MONDAY MORNING

after all those wolftickets last post i did about an hour of novel
rest of the day went to palf and some schoolhouse

im under the gun - had to dump the fancy fonts
just aint had time to play - life got me

quick shoutout to rod jackmon - he be regulating
appreciate his help on rest, occasional admonitions

to buck up
rdoc

SUNDAY

hello world, i been off the grid, palf and schoolhouse got
me rolling - squeezing noveltime here and there

and this endgame got me spooked, got to reconcept
primary thread - this sorceror who would be prophet

im feeling a little humble today, running scared
and questioning my game, magic or fantasy

today im voting fantasy, today reality is winning
today i wonder if this just a juneteenth fakeout - the wouldbe

greaat novel that never seem to be great enough

will this novel ever be viable - or am i in truth just the footnote
the literary world claim me to be - do i simply not have the chops

to be true voice

focus rick, keep the faith - ignore anxieties, ignore internal pressures
external pressures, anything that depress discourage or distract me

just Know one day this novel will be the work of
wonder i see in my head and it will all have

been worthwhile - i tell folk 20 years cause i once found a draft of this novel
from 1990, but ive actually been busting it about 8 now, long enough

feel like ive given it my youth

suppose to be a bigtime conjureman
bending reality to my will is what i do

well this reality has not bent and I wonder
sometime why the gods have cursed me

why give me the power/vision/need
and not allow me to manifest

they want to keep me hungry, keep
my nose to the grindstone - so be it

today we work that spine - focus rick
its always showtime - and im always behind

masterpiece or farce, make it happen
let the generations decide

in struggle
rdoc

FRIDAY

obama speech successful in deflecting some of the pastor wright heat
but its a vulnerability no matter how it plays

impressive that obama didnt throw wright under the bus, i wouldve -
that oldschool rhetoric is terminally marginal and counterproductive in

the 21st century - we dont want to bring america down, we want to claim
and guide her, maddog rhetoric dont put blackfolk in a illuminated state of mind

dont nothing stres the old conjureman like weak longgame - but
some strong and pertinent folk still stuck in that mode

i have to work them to, try to get them on the good foot
been a struggle to break free of it myself

i am a die hard black nationalist but i am not the angry
black militant i was when i was 20 - radical purity is for kids

obamas campaign been repudiation of that oldschool idea of struggle
cant be running yesterdays game in tomorrows struggle

have to figure out how to be black in a multi culti world,
a comfortable part of the mix - players instead of victims

i spec boy obama wove thru that one about as deftly as could be done

wright gon still cost boy obama but such is life - cant fault a man for allegiances -
my understanding is that there is more to him than soundbites portray

this campaign been as much a wakeup call for black america
as its been for white america, hispanic america et al

speaking of which timely move by richardson - good looking out mi amigo -
wouldnt that be a nice ticket - but it would totally freak the nervous whitefolk

o what a tangled web - ima leave it alone
have not done any novelwork lately

let me get serious
weary but still struggling

rdoc

Comments

[nanakwame]

Obama by a nose in the General Election

Got To work That Crossroads, it is but a pause, a sweet cool water

Conservatives/Liberals both going to give "socialism" to the money players, proven.
Recession that is for us.

Two markets now those who bet on future money and those w production and service.

Bigger fight coming up the years, a bigger fight. A Black Man May Win That Scares America, Get Over It; Lady America Waits LOL

[rawdawgbuffalo]

Now that was some week. How have u been folk? I have a new book out.