MONDAY EVENING
i felt so good this morning, now i feel blase about it all, i got to work on something else
i cant not be working on something, something i can knock off in a weeks time??????
MONDAY
well, i did it, sent it off to my agent this morning, im rather pleased w/myself, couple of times there
i didnt believe i was going to make it, now i dont know what to do w/myself, i believe the 1st thing
ima do is collapse for a couple of days, a week maybe
take care of all kinds of business been put off, then dive back in, will have to be patient now, the industry
moves slow, says he who took 10 years to get back to them on this, still needs work but i feel like its a
clean text now, so rest of the summer will be enrichment drafts, hopefully w/editorial input
enrichment drafts are fun drafts, may god make it so
but for the moment im done, its a very strange feeling, i dont know what to do w/myself when
im not crunching it, crunching is my default mode, best i enjoy the next week or so, chilling
like a civilian
SATURDAY 9:33 pm:
reeling in the saddle, halfway thru - question: will i put it down for the evening and gratefully
collapse, or will i go for another 5 pages - answer: always go for another 5 pages
reasonable dont get no novel wrote
SATURDAY 12:14 pm
ok, its reading, a rough patch here and there but its reading, im about a 3rd of the way thru and its reading
only problem is some points it read a little too well, damn emotional rollercoaster and im tired of the ride
but if i push it i might be able to turn this on in monday like i planned, its gon cost me
cause rollercoastering hard on the soul but a writer got to do what a writer got to do
WEDNESDAY
yesterday i was feeling groovy, i thought i had finished a draft, i was really really groovy
then today i made the mistake of trying to actually read it, a readthru before turning it in
to dot Is and cross Ts, what was supposed to be a victory lap is once again a slog
of making many drafts there is no end, and of much study a weariness of the soul
whats w/these congressmen sexting women, dont they know there are no secrets these days
everything comes out eventually, esp if you a public figure, best not to do nothing you cant handle
TUESDAY
done, finished my 1st draft of the summer today, will do a readthru, turn it into my agent monday latest
dont matter how i feel about it at that time, i will turn it in, had to do an amadeus to do it, remember that last
scene amadeus where he worked himself to death, i can relate, ive had about 4 hours sleep in the
last 2 days, pushed myself to the wall on this one, cant do that regular, not these days, but the 1st thing i
think when i finish a draft these days is, i can live with this, if i die tomorrow, i can live with this one
when you in the middle of a draft you have this fear you will die or be incapciated and leave a
mess behind - so when youve almost finished a draft but not quite you push it a little
so, it took me about a month, means i can expect about 2 more drafts before my summer woodshed
is done, i envy folk who spend their days doing things, all i ever do is struggle with the page
all i ever do
Get some sleep!! Man I glad that stage of the rewrite is over at least until I have to start pushing on the new novel next year!!
Posted by: Karen L. Simpson (lafreya) | May 31, 2011 at 06:17 PM
karen, ive started on grace, got about a week downtime before i pick up next draft, its reading real good
Posted by: arthur flowers | June 02, 2011 at 02:12 AM
Thank for the complement. Thanks for taking time out your busy schedule to read it. Hope you make your deadline.
Posted by: Karen L. Simpson (lafreya) | June 05, 2011 at 04:13 PM
Bravo
Posted by: nanakwame | June 07, 2011 at 01:26 PM
thankyou my brother, my understanding is that you got a production victory coming on soon, or did i miss it while i was down under
Posted by: arthur flowers | June 09, 2011 at 02:32 AM