its amazing, you put the hours in, you see the progress, i just fixed a longstanding hole in the heart of the
work, if i dont do anything else today ive had a damn good day, but im going for a 12 hour shift today
what else is the point of being in the zone if not to drive yourself to the wall
thing about being a writer, a novelist, is if you just do whats reasonable you will never get a novel done
you have to be obsessive and driven and unreasonable about it, take it further than anybody esle would
if all you do is work reasonable you might as well forget it
THURSDAY
got my groove on, in the zone, struggling w/the page, seeing a little progress
been listening to dinah washington and gloria lynne to help me thru, oldschool
WEDNESDAY
novel kicking my ass, reconcepting endgame (reimagining chanelle calls it) just sitting there thinking, pondering
trying out new narrative progressions, moving them around, reimaging point of maincharacters/novel
and getting nowhere - o i know i will win this battle, ive won them before, but this is a very frustrating phase
i do a couple hours of it, then im wore out tired, i go sleep/passout a couple hours, wake up, try it again
for coolout i been reading scifi, this one called surface something by iain banks, and he doing some
serious viral reality speculations in this work, some serious progressions of civilizations speculations
the kind of work open my mind to think in giga ages, cause me to recalibrate my future(s)prophetic sequences
which is cool but like ulysses contribute to frustration, it raise my bar, not in a specific manner
but it make me that much more determined that rest for the weary will make the grade
that it wil be in truth the literary masterpiece i dream it to be, that i need it to be, need
for that i will fight my way thru frustration of any sort, i will drive myself to any length, i will live a life of discipline
and focus, i will tell the world to kiss my ass, im busy - and i will give it however many years it take
this a battle i refuse to lose
my mentor, babajohn killens used to hammer that into us, he say future generations wont care about your problems,
you were broke, needed tenure, impatient, losing respect, all they will have is the work. do it strongheart
to all the folk who have been concerned/asking, my people in memphis are fine,
all my folk live on the bluff, or miles away from the river - appreciate the concern,
i grew up next to the mississippi, literally, in a community called riverside, high on the bluff and
above its whims - my blessings on all the folk inconvenienced by my old friend
TUESDAY
had a distraction last couple of days, handled a communication w/potential student badly, felt bad about it
next thing i know hes sent a detailed email to dept ccing all the admin folk, obviously trying to bring me
down, to cause me harm
i feel like obama and trump, this kind of distraction i dont need, he could have handled this so differently,
i understand his frustration and as it was i would have been an advocate, but declaring himself my enemy
was counterproductive, he has an elevated sense of his importance to me and my world - ohwell,
ima put him behind me, i got so much work to do, struggling w/the page and loosing there too
MONDAY
clocking sentences - i had forgotten just how frustrating the wooshed could be
makes me wonder why i was so eager to get here - 24 hour immersion just mean 24 hours of
daily frustration - reminds me of that quote, i love being a writer, its the paperwork i hate
i hear the river is wide down home, i grew up on the banks of the river, riverside it was called
high on the bluff, the river was my playground as a kid, still is as an artist, every once in awhile
it remind us not to take it lightly
FRIDAY
well, it looks like im going off the grid
both here and facebook, ive passed on
a couple of commentaries as i focus down into novel
finally started working yesterday, we shall see if i get
the groove, one day does not a groove make
still got a couple of novel manuscripts to get thru
knocked off 1 today, 3 to go, traveling spirit booted up
and ready to go - showtime
Oh you will finish, my warrior friend, I have a small spiritual memoir ready for publishing, gathering the funds; working on a bigger project Faith and Consciousness – a driving force for human. Into Wizard of the Crow now, dag a long book, reading is good, so far. Got to keep up with my literature, what we see today proves that literature and poetry develops a smarter brain. Techies have hurt our children too, meandering has its positive
Good books are using collage approach these days, that is interesting, given that was our Afro-American style in the first place? The writer from Arkansas is using it to tell her Civil Rights story – C.D. Wright if I recall
Posted by: nanakwame | May 13, 2011 at 08:52 AM