this where rickydoc get to be rickydoc

TUESDAY

hard to explain the space im in, the novel is reading fine, its just about putting the hours in now
and i hope to be thru tomorrow sometime, ima send it on off because if i try to hold on till

the 20th i will do another read thru and im thoroughly sick of this novel, ive literally read this
novel thru about a thousand times, and as i read it clean im reminded of all the different ways

ive tried to tell different sections over the years before chosing what i got now, ive got about 10
different versions of every passage in this novel, but i guess whats most wierd about it is that

im almost done with it and will be putting it out there in the world soon, folk will be judging me
already my feedback squad judging me, and i miss the old days when i was the only one judging this work

ohwell, its all process, and way too much thinking, i got to get back to the grind - all my love

 

MONDAY

halfway thru, hanging in there, poetry rewrites are cool
still got to drive yourself but its mature manuscript, makes

all the difference in the world, less wear and tear on the soul
all you have to do is endure, put the hours in, just discipline

 

 

SUNDAY

 
hello world, not really in a posting state of mind, doing a poetry rewrite, slogging along, i kinda like poetry
rewrites, when the text fairly tight and all you doing is working the poetry, when one word, one phrase,

can add layers of meaning to the text - and you cleaning up the muddy passages, making them sharp
problem is that im thoroughly sick of this novel, i dont want to read it, i dont want to think about it,

dont want to work on it, i just want to be done - one more week of focus, rick - you can do this - then im
taking a break, a real break this time, im tired, thought i had enuf energy to knock off another draft but

if i do its just barely - doing a novel rewrite is more than just putting the hours in, in itself a challenge
but you got to have a mental & spiritual toughness to face your vision one more time and struggle

somehow to make it greater

THURSDAY

been reading about china & agribusinesses buying up african farmland,
according to this article the west doing it too, just another african landgrab

with the world divvying up africa again, they got the longgame running on us again,
article say dont you for a minute think they about feeding africa, this all about profit

locking down african farmland leases for hundreds of years and african leaders
once again clueless - this means a future w/more starving africans in it -

de ol hoodooman dont like that at all, how the hell am i going to finesse this

addendum: interesting, bascially what i do these days is work something out here
post a condensed version on facebook, and even more condensed version on twitter

its like an exercise in compaction, essence extraction, but what ive noticed is that im more pc on facebook
here i changed 'how am i going to finesse it' to 'how are we going to finesse it' on facebook

because im more reluctant to expose my true arrogance on facebook, rootsblog
the whole point is me being truly me, the cosmic player i aspire to be

this is where i openly conduct myself as the high hoodoo i envision one day real

this where rickydoc get to be rickydoc

2 questions you have to ask when you want to transform/finesse a social/political/destinic dynamic
1st where is the root, there is always a root that can be worked, maximal impact minimum effort

ie something even you can implement, and i believe the root here is working thru un efforts to ban this practice
the 2nd question you have to ask is how important is it to me, am i willing to do what i have to do to affect this

in this case am i willing to do the research, am i wiling to invest the time and opportunity costs
to identify and attempt to influence the primary players and instutions

and the answer is probably not, i will tell you what needs to be done, but i dont have the time to actually do it

maybe you do, dear regulators, basically my role is to sound the alarm, provide vision & strategic options
cause my primary role is novelist & i consider my novels as impo as any other institution, any other

instrument of social/political/destinic transformation

its got to be really critical for me to come out the armchair for it, right now id say obamas reelection is the

only thing that might get me off the gun, i gotta go, my agent said she wont be getting to the novel till last
week of the month so you know what that mean, another draft, an enrichment draft, a work the poetry draft,

a clean up muddy narrative draft, a 2 week investment toward a much cleaner novel

when i told bonnie i was going to hit this novel again in this two week window she was like you must be kidding

you just passed out on it, when do you rest - & i was like ive been here before, you got time to hit the
product one more time before its a done deal and you tired and you burntout on it & you say ima pass

but ive always regretted it when the novel came out and i hadnt take that one last opp to make it better

ima keep hitting this sucker till they tell me i cant hit it no more, cause its typeset and ready to go

im gone, this post has gone on too long, when i get a minute ima have to go back in & cut it down to the essence

work the poetry - like im about to do on this novel

im out

 

 

WEDNESDAY

promiseland just chosen 10 best ya nonfiction by pennslyvania library school association,
interesting how that book has landed between adult and ya - i wrote it adult but if i

had known how strong the ya market is id probably handled it differently,
best i didnt know i guess, best i please who i please doing what i do -

like rickynelson say in garden party about being an artist - cant please everyone,

got to please yourself

 

Comments

[Karen L. Simpson (lafreya)]

Yea!!! Your book is great YA Non Fiction because you wrote if for adults. There is great hunger among young people for books like yours and teachers love books like it because teens eat it up. So Congratulations.