just trying to make a better world - so sue me

MONDAY

i been dug in, tryng to fix as much as i can before tuesday, though im likely to squeeze wed in - been enjoying
myself, basically fixing glitches, lets say i got 10 and ive fixed about 4, which pleases me, but now im dug in

on one thats kinda pervasive, im burning the creative fire, getting a couple hours sleep a night, i will pass out thurs
but for right now im dug in, off the grid and in the zone - bonnie out of town, just me and the novel and every

hole fixed makes it a better novel before i put it on the market - this what i call living - good thing im
supposed to turn it in wed because i probably couldnt sustain this mode - in fact i know i couldnt

i can feel myself burning up mojo & shortening up my days

 

FRIDAY

so yesterday i got a call from ellen, shes read it, she thinks its ready to go, she gave me a list of who she wants to send it to
you of course will not be surprised dear regulators, to hear that i asked her for another week to work on it

i had just broke it down and detected some flat notes, had a couple of passages i want to work on
told her i would send it to her next week, she said anytime before thurs, i told her tuesday

then i got this fan email today, ive taken the guys name off but it encouraged me, thats what im talking about - spiritwork
i come thru for him when he in need, he come thru for me when im flagging, regulation, me and you dear regulators:

Dear Mr. Flowers,

Earlier this evening I was at my school's library trying to find a place to sit and read MLK's 'Where Do We Go From Here?" All of the seats are the same, but I chose a seat that was a few feet away from a shelf containing graphic novels. I read MLK for a few minutes, but started to deal with a bit of readers block. My attention drifted toward the aforementioned bookshelf, and settled on a novel with a spine unlike the rest. It read, "I See the Promised Land." I recognized the phrase, and was instantly curious. I grabbed the book, eyed the cover, and immediately began to read it. I read it in one sitting, and delayed my supper to do so. If I would have had to go without supper to read this book I would have done so. Your book basically expressed how I feel about Dr. King. I see him as a spiritual leader. That's why I was reading 'Where Do We Go From Here,' in the first place . . . to guide me through a difficult valley that I find myself in now. Your book let me know I have an ally, even if it's a distant one. Your book let me know I'm not crazy for looking at King with religious eyes. Your book lifted my spirits.

 

 

THURSDAY

olddraft dead, newdraft in my head, im back in panicky - what if i step in front of a car today - mode
came up w/some great ideas yesterday, sat down to work them into the text and let myself get distracted

so now im nervous, now i feel like im losing, like life is kicking my ass, ima have to get started today

no if no and no but

did you hear: obama offers socsec/medicare cuts to contrast repub wall on taxes, so he can say i
tried, drop the 14th and walk, you go boy, scared of you

course if the repubs do say its a deal i guess its another ballgame, i aint trying to hear that, but
i guess it doesnt really matter, obama fighting his game, im fighting mine, and if i dont

get busy today, im losing

 

 

WEDNESDAY IM SURE

have not dug into novel yet, taking care of backed up business, starting to feel a little nervous - clock ticking and woodshed will be over in about a month and a half, need at least a month for a good draft,

right now letting internal computer process the breakdown while i finish TCBing - get back in the saddle this weekend

im in total agreement on this article saying obama should go rogue on debt deficit talks - drop the 14th amendment
on them - article says current 2 options between the unthinkable (give them what they want) and the

unimaginable (let them drive the economy into default) which would cripple obamas reelection chances
and put the repubs even more in charge than they are now (and we see what thats got us) come on obama

we cant help you if you wont help yourself - drop the 14th on them and walk away - showtime

MONDAY 4th of JULY

hello world, provocative article here on obama by frank rich in his new longstylee:

"To differentiate himself from the discredited Establishment, he will have to mount the fight he has ducked for the past three years. The alternative is a failure of historic proportions."

im doing an op ed that ima try to place in the nyt op ed, a spoof of the repub future - as you know dear regulators, i am

irked that all this pain america is going thru is the result of conscious repub policy of defunding america they
are trying to turn the clock back, send america back to the stone age when minorities and women knew

their place, a simpler america while the rest of the world leaping into the complicated future, they want the
american government to be crippled to the point of not being able to provide basic services, its just wild, and

the america voting public is going for the okeydoc, and obama is parrotting their rhetoric in an attempt to
outflank them but we cant let this no taxes thing continue to be validated like its been, its madness, political suicide

and i aint saying america dont have to tighten up, just want the effort to sincerely be about a better america
a more viable america, instead of a cripple america and exploit the weak strategy

so ima write a spoof, the world republicans see, one in which teachers have been demonized, one in which america cant afford to provide the most basic of services, one in which the elders no longer have socialsecurity or medicare, one in which nobody has healthcare, so forth and so on

got my usual fear of not being able to pull it off, ive come to expect that w/pieces that are impo to me, but im very excited about trying, and if i can make the point so that folk, well some folk, turn against this defund america strategy

this piece just might make a difference in our world and that of our generations, i know, not likely, but
thats what drive me as a literary man - trying to make a better world, through the power of the word -

so sue me

 

Comments

[Karen L. Simpson (lafreya)]

Yes the MLk book is very special. Glad to hear that it is reaching people.
Glad to hear your new novel is ready, can't wait to read it. And thanks for asking about Grace she's doing pretty well out in the world so I'm a happy debut author:)