THURSDAY
hangingtough
took a couple of punches today
sometimes it seems no matter how hard i try
i just keep coming up short
it takes a village
well im certainly not fool enuf to support bill cosbys
quixotic campaign to address community dysfunction
my radical comrades already think im questionable
and i agree his analysis lacks the depth of a more
accomplished player such as myself
much too much you and not enuf we
but the old rootdoctor admire a man w/the courage of his convictions
a blackman who could kick back w/his riches
out here doing what he can - trying to make his contribution
to the condition and destiny of blackfolk - saying what he think need to be said
21st century yall, no more games, we got to do this
almost prophetic what he doing, using the media attention celebrity commands
as delivered in front of the notorious convention center in new orleans:
"It's painful, but we can't cleanse ourselves unless we look at the wound. Ladies and gentlemen, you had the highest murder rate, unto each other. You were dealing drugs to each other. You were impregnating our 13-, 12-, 11-year-old children. What kind of a village is that?'
WEDNESDAY
rickydoc in the zone
i wrote the most wonderful scene this morning
its the memphis riots of 1866 and i have this slave child who was
"apprenticed" after the end of slavery and is using the riots to try
to get to her real parents on another side of the city but she doesnt
know where they live,
she has not been allowed outside since the last attempt years ago
she doesnt know where they live and the streets are full of rioting yahoos
killing colored folk
on an apparently empty street she almost runs up on a mob
when i have this old black woman suddenly appear beckoning her to safety
basically trying to show blackfolk helping each other survive
but i had this segment elsewhere of somebody calling on harriet tubman in a ritual
and harriet herself leading a bunch of slaves to freedom suddenly doing her sleep thing
then i thought what if that beckoning oldwoman is harriet and im saying
that when she did that sleep thing she was helping some escapee on another plane
so i put them together and god it feels good - now im playing with it to make it work
and i think maybe i will have the conqueror have played a role in this
maybe setting up a crossroads moment
so now i have to make this little girl escaping a significant historical crossroads of some sort
damn im in the groove, i live for these moments
of revelation
i been bad this weekend - generally i take the weekends for rest and pay the cost,
playing academic catchup, manuscripts to be graded/critiqued, class prep, etc
but this weekend i been bad, i been working on this impo scene (idas escape, the husharbor, the gathering/mission) and when monday came along i was unwilling to quit, if i stop now it will take fri and sat just to get my groove on again (if at all)
so i squeezed the schoolhouse, woke up early tuesday morning crunching it to get thru my tuesday class straightup and now i got to prep for thursday and got studentconferences today and should be schoolhousing but instead this morning i got right back on that scene, fuck everybody including me, i got to get this novel done
what im doing now is inputting the longhand pages i did over the weekend but thats always something of a rewrite in itself and so i was back there on my writing porch trying to hustle thru this when bam, this narrative revelation came down on me and now im off to the races and so excited i had to tell you about it (bonnie muttering i should get off the internet and get back to work)
so i got to get back on it, try to get thru it in the next couple of hours so i can get my schoolhouse work done - this spose to be my day off anyway - well actually its a prepday but closing down the semester you dont get no days off noway, its catchup catchup catchup
not only have i squeezed the schoolhouse i have also allowed some impending lifecrises to fester
got to get on those real quick - but i tell you dear surfer, a scene like the one im working on now
for that i will pay my dues without a whimper
amiri baraka was here day before yesterday, brought up by the Black Artists student organization, and i hung out with him some, that was inspirational - didnt want to come off my game, found out about it the last minute, the day of, but hey it was amiri, one of the great destinywarriors and one of my few remaining mentors in the game - im rolling today in amiris name
im outta here
rdoc
TUESDAY
crunched all weekend and still crunching
will have to pay schoolhouse dues - this gon be a catchup week
holding on by the skin of my chinny chin chin
i works for the conqueroo
hello world
spose to be working so ima just hit it real quick
set up the sermon for this week - on an african american way
i have been most of my hoodoo life a devotee of lord legba
but i also serve highjohn the conqueror
there is therefore some question in me about the conqueroo/legba relationship
i still believe i serve lord legba but i works for the conqueror now,
i believe the conqueror is an afroam manifestation
of that trickster force, some kin to legba and that i can serve them both
i dont have much choice in the matter, i do not serve the conqueror of
my own volition - i have been called
its seems that the conqueror is a specifically afroam context
an african american way
some folk question my looseness w/legbas rules and imply a retribution of sorts
but since i first devoted myself to legba i have been given a dispensation to break the rules
even legbas own
long as i do his bidding and enlarge his space
that dispensation is even more so under de conqueroo
i believe de conqueror reaching for his own
i believe its time
word by
rickydoc flowers
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