FRIDAY
been working on rest finally
took me a minute to get my groove
first real session yesterday, god its a relief to be working
now i can take care of new ren and hoodoo way business
cant do nothing else less the work getting done, including rootsblog
gotta clock some pages
its do or die
be well we wary be safe
rdoc
MONDAY
mr im gon work so hard didnt do diddley
over the weekend, very nice conference
very provocative, put some things on my mind
but that dont get me to the promiseland
ima have to dig in - once i get in the zone im okay
but the next couple of days/weeks will be critical
seems my boy nagin made it to highground
mostly cause landrieu fought a clean fight
heda had a better chance in the gutter
im impressed w/the both of them
i hope they can both pull together to keep
new orleans safe, to rebuild those communities
did do a little hoodoo way work this weekend, that felt good,
that initiative is probably my biggest concern beyond novel
reluctant to post on the listserve unless i got
evidence of some progress
tired of just talking to be talking, got great ideas
all i need is followthru (ie time)
but i get discouraged so easily these days
dont have the faith in myself i used to have
takes more internal peptalk than it used to
and it will be hard to do anything (inluding rootsblog posts)
until i got my novel groove on, otherwise everyday everyhour
is a struggle to focus on rest for the weary
cant do nothing else till i feed that jones
and on that note i think im going to go by the library
thats always the first line of offense
first it removes me from the temptations of home
like eating, sleeping, reading, tv, etc (and internet)
also i surround myself with the fruits of other writers
the fruits of other solitary labors
i figure if all these folk can get their books done
so can i
in struggle
rdoc
FRIDAY
2 oclock in the morning and im clocking hours
well actually im on the computer in the lodge lobby
but im about to clock me some hours as soon as
i feed my news jones
didnt bring no books so as not to yield to temptation
didnt bring no projects so as not to yield to temptation
all i brought was novel,
schedule says breakfast at 8,
hell i can clock a full six hour work day by 8
course that means ill be wandering around in a daze during
the day - thats my usual mo, my work in the morning
everybody else gets whats left
(probably sneak a nap in between panels, no wonder im always tired)
hangingtough
rdoc
THURSDAY
responsibility is in the eye of the beholder
im outta here again, be back next week
hopefully get some work done at departmental retreat
last time i was at minnowbrook was very productive
got up early in the morning and clocked hours
big lake outside your window very good
for that kind of groove - that quiet gurgle gurgle
is good for the literary soul
you can tell im getting my energy back cause
im posting more - 1st step in getting my groove on
ran across this article recently about beating death
of black kid in florida boot camp
columnist received many disturbing replies about how black
dysfunction is responsible for black crime, poverty, etc (and apparently
for this kid getting beat to death)
folk claiming racism no longer a factor and blacks responsible
for their own condition
one letter writer said the guards did the black community a favor
now anybody knows me knows black responsiblity
for our condition is my thing
self determination is my political bread and butter
distresses me when folk accuse me of buying into the black pathology
position because such is not the case
i do however believe crying about racism is like a sailor cursing the sea
because its wet
surely by now we have factored racism
into our strategic posture
but this column speaks about the glee with which certain whitefolk
climb upon the racial responsiblity wagon
their blissful insistence that racism no longer plays a part in our
condition
au contrary and
easy for you to say
columnist drops facts about incarceration and other matters
that reek of residual and institutional racism
but im not going to go too deeply into it because
i believe complaining to or about whitefolk is pretty much
a waste of time
blackfolk are my primary audience and strategy my turf
(and reparations? - give me a break blackfolk and get real)
but even though the primary struggle now is the struggle within
that dont mean it aint still a luta continua - its a dual track and
both trains running
21st century stylee
this particular 'thug' was in jail for taking his grandmothers car
on a joyride - i remember sneaking my daddys car out the driveway
letting it roll until it hit the street so nobody would hear me start it up
- for that this kid got beat to death
official autopsy claimed it was sickle cell complications
more like whitefolk complications
whitefolk smirking how the guards did the black community a favor
by beating him to death do not come from no love of their fellow man
in case anybody missed it
thats racism
alive and well
in struggle
rdoc
situation in darfur getting twisty
rebel split contesting land and power
starts replicating janjaweed tactics
two african tribes, the fur and the zaghawa
minnawi of the zaghawa has signed the peace treaty,
nur of the fur has not
apparently the fur are the most numerous tribe in area
the zaghawa, more militarized and w/support from zaghawa
leaders of chad were more effective in keeping janjaweed at bay
so fur took hammer blow of the cleansing
the two factions initially fought together but
split maybe a year ago - a split nurtured by khartoum
the zaghawa are spread across the borders of sudan chad and libya
and the fur suspected an attempt to dominate the area
a suspicion nurtured by khartoum
the zaghawa took most of the fighters, but the
fur have the largest support base
thats bad enuf but recently minnawis troops raided a fur village
w/murder most foul and rapine janjaweed stylee
what a revolting development this is
not only because historically blacks in the sudan have lost to
arab conquerors mostly through an inability to unify in the face of
conquest and genocide - time and time again - and again
but also if the rebels lose the high moral ground
and the global support it engenders they are toast
and it just feels bad to see blackfolk turning on blackfolk again
clownishly aping the methods of their oppressors - my people my people
will we ever learn
all for one and one for all
together we stand, divided we fall
rdoc
WEDNESDAY
1 gigabyte of data cost $20 dollars in the usa
1 gigabyte of data cost $1800 in africa
mostly because african traffic even to other african states
is routed through europe or the united states
there is no infrastructure
the kenyan minister of information bemoaned africas predicament
we are behind almost everybody he said
so what else is news
in struggle
rdoc
TUESDAY
the geas of rickydoc
i have this vision of
the hoodoos of the future
destinyplayers all
with a sense of responsibility
for the well being of tribe and
all humanity
and the prophetic skilz to
manifest that responsibility
i will maintain stumbling attempts
to manifest that vision
in spite of almost inevitable failure
for i am mythmaker and this is
what i see
rickydoc trickmaster
wouldbe prophet
of the hoodoo way
rest for the weary
hello world
im tired
the old rootdoctor bone tired
im weary unto my soul
seem to have just collapsed
happens every end of schoolyear
burnout collapse in prep for woodshed
so im just laying there reading scifi and just barely that
i read i sleep i turnover and read some more
throws off my juggling act to take week(s) off like that
nothing worse than the sound of responsibilities and
initiatives thudding to the ground
responsibilities and initiatives i will have to work very hard to put
back in play but im just whipped and the game aint in me
and this diabetes thing got me learning how to keep
myself alive, hale and hearty - thrown me off my groove
and been running the road every weekend
supposed to be gone this one too, usually the road warrior thing
dont bother me but im on fumes now, just barely holding on
hopefully a week of burnout put me back
in gear - so much to do, so little time
so many things i should be doing at any given moment
they sometime overwhelm me
maybe if i felt more successful at what i do
if i didnt always feel behind the curve and
coming up short
listening to that damned clock
driving me to distraction
tick tock tick tock
dont get me wrong, i aint whimpering
i know how to count my blessings, im just tired
im always tired, im weary
aint no rest for folk like me
always something i should be doing
always something im coming up short on
always folk depending on me
only rest is when you just kinda collapse
only rest is the pleasure of knowing you got your work done
got to assume death and the afterlife
gon be struggle too
struggle come so natural you generally dont count it
struggle is a state of being
but sometimes and i know yall feel me on this . . .
sometime just got to say lord give me a minute
just let me sit down here a minute i be right back on it
i hope i pray my novel gon be rest for the weary
a great spell that renews and transforms
everyone it touches
pick them up and dust them off
whisper a few words of encouragement
i hope i pray rest for the weary awakens the sleeper
protects the weak and guides the strong
hangingtough
rickydoc
tick tock
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