THURSDAY
hello world, im feeling good today
one of the criteria for having lived the good life is who did you see
and who did you miss
i missed bob marley, i missed jimi hendrix
but i seen marvin gaye do distant lover at the long island coliseum and i was in highschool when i seen james brown throw his cape off at the fairgrounds
i was once walking thru prospect park brooklyn and followed the sound of a blues guitar to john lee hooker - that was a memorable moment
i seen bb opening night of his club on beale, him and bobby open air in l.a. and taj mahal on a circle line blues cruise
once swore i would never again pay good money to endure nina simone cussing out the audience at radio city musichall (but i sure do enjoy telling folk how she cussed us out)
missed bill withers drunk in a greenwich village nightclub (i heard he was toredown drunk that night, still sorry i missed that one)
was late for a samite concert at a local college
and missed randy crawford by hours at radio city, just didnt know she was there (randy ima run down, thats my girl)
and for some reason i dont remember i didnt go to the one time performance of big man - a folkopera of john henry by cannonball adderly w/randy in her debut role - ive since hunted down the rare lp and transferred it to cd, i consider that a coup
but it wasnt performed but one time and for some reason i just didnt go, man how could i have missed that - i tell folk i was there cause i almost was, ive told that lie so many times i sometime believe it myself
i did see gospel at coriolanus at the brooklyn academy of music w/the 5 blind boys of alabama playing oedipus and morgan freeman as the preacher/narrator
during a staged storm the set caught fire and freeman stayed in character, preachertalking folk out in orderly rows while standing in the onstage pulpit w/the backdrop on fire behind him - that was deep
and one snowy night in nyc me and my daddy seen mingus at the downunder - sometime i think i musta dreamed that one - he applauded by tapping his glass on the table, when i try it i look pretentious
and i seen cassandra wilson and ali farka toure in central park - picnic in the park w/cassandra & friends after - i made a fool of myself, it was the drool out the side of my mouth gave me away
and last night i seen ali farka toures son, vieux farka toure, in a funky 200 person venue in the basement of the student center -
wasnt but about 6 blackfolk in the audience which was unfortunate, i remember reading that used to bother marley when no blackfolk come to his concerts here
proceeds went to fight malaria in niafunke
farka toures homevillage in mali
between the tshirt and the cd i done my part
he got a remix coming out, thats what i want
bonnie got the same red tshirt, i told her dont get no ideas - dont think we gon be doing no matching tshirt thing partner, that aint gon happen
but who knows, it was a good night, one of the legendary ones, sorry yall missed it
me and bonnie was there the night vieux farka toure done his daddy proud
in the conquerors name
rdoc
TUESDAY
hello world
did a little novelwork, just a little, just enuf to prime the pump
note: next step on hoodoo book of flowers effort is to transform the generic initiation concepts that provide its structure
to black folkloric ones
might be able to use prime the pump
i assume the kids know what prime the pump mean
even if they never ever saw a pump
also i think im going to start throwing daily divination for the world
see if that help me evolve/refine/manifest my holybook/divination concept
maybe see if i can get some clarity on that situation in mogadishu
look like they decided to do that the hardway
i had hoped they would work it out
(i got an 8:7: prophecy:mythwork - i dont get how that work on that condition)
oh i made a mistake, i got a 1:2: invocation: consciousness
my system entail 9 cowries and 9 small highjohn roots
the 9 cowries provide the designated reading, the roots for perception of totality
i do 2 throws, one for the flow (?) one for the movement (?)
i threw 8 open 1 closed for 1st throw, 7 open 2 closed for 2nd
already this is special, most tosses fall in the 4/5 5/4 - 6/3 3/6 middle
but i read it wrong, i read it 8 closed, 1 open which put me in prophecy:mythwork
and im all perplexed how prophecy mythwork apply to mogadishu
when i realize ive read it wrong, 8 open, 1 closed is invocation:consciousness
still dont know how that apply to mogadishu but it make more sense
than prophecy:mythwork
but what does it mean - invoc:consciousness - do i need to grow, acquire more knowledge, what
the roots are supposed to give me nuance but this one perplex me
im still refining system so maybe invocation:consciousness dont work for 2:1
maybe i just dont know how to read invoc:consciousness, or maybe its just not clear to me now
or maybe this something need years of programming . . . .
dont really need highjohn roots in the mix but i like a little highjohn in everything i do
also im wondering since i want to build a sense of responsibility for the whole world
for the destiny of the human race, i should throw for the world rather than some hotspot
but that might be so broad as to be useless
what would invocation:consciousness mean for a world divination:
(i dont know, some possibility for that interp maybe . .)
ohwell, i will figure it out as i go, stumbling fumbling walking blind
so now i need to go to my holybook and use this reading to play
w/1:2 invocation:consciousness
see if maybe there is some folkloric translation i can apply to that toss
(finish moving raw text from old manuscript into new format is what i need to do - the question is will i put raw material up as i work it, what i like to do with online projects is use the embarrassment of having half baked work up to force me to get it done - and to show you dear and loyal surfer that i dont just talk big talk i walk the walk - i tell you im writing a hoodoo holybook im writing a hoodoo holybook - its just all my projects take forever - im such an overachiever you know - aint satisfied with just writing a novel i want to write a great novel - aint satisfied with writing a spiritual/self help book i want to write a holybook - lifetime project:evolving redacted version online, sell text versions? - right now i just have the outline up but ima use these daily tosses to refine my system and force myself to work on it - whatever i can use to trick myself into getting Work done thats what i do - i think ima give an hour to moving raw text - who am i fooling, to do that i have to invest a weekend of my discretionary/creative time and just get it done, since novel cold anyway now is the time to do that, that project been stuck on that level a long time now, bout ready to move that, one good weekend ought to do it . . .)
in the conquerors name
im outta here
rdoc
MONDAY
hello world
finished phase one of app process, i can see daylight again
you know what that mean, that mean im back on basic everyday overextended
instead of major task overextended - im getting back to work
im doing a 3 today, just to get my head right
lets see, any commentary of significance rick, anything worth my time - obama seems pretty significant, like i said i wont sign up
because politicians are heartbreakers but i notice glen ford
over at black agenda report has decided obama is bad news
he expresses many of my own reservations
to be president you got to make compromises
glen say it will just put a
blackface on us imperialism - bad obama
i can see his position but i think its maybe a little rejectionist
glen dont approve of nobody but in your face warriors
but we need sincere players on different levels of the game and obama seem to be sincere
cant be afraid to play the game just cause you likely to get outplayed
got to give it a shot, who knows, you just might win it
im willing to slide obama some slack, just to see
i aint signing up but im not gon cut him down either
show me what you got son, let me see how well you dance
shame if he dont know how to walk that line us black overachievers learn to walk
that how do you know when the player getting played line
and while im on it i been hurt glen didnt give me a link on black agenda report
felt that way about black commentator, they never gave me a link either - hurt my feelings
either he dont approve of my iconoclastic approach
or i just dont rate on his radar of significance (same thing)
felt the same way when i fell off rudys listserve
(at least he left my link)
but being out here on my lonewolf own do allow me
the freedom of not following the party line - which is cool, once upon a time
i parroted radical positions just to stay cool w/my colleagues but now i dont care
once never would have admitted approving of obama - or disapproving of reparations
now i just dont care, too old to play games and i just dont care
but i got that purer than thou tendency too and i have to fight that cause
its a new day and i got to be about new ways
of struggle - cant just keep on doing whats been done
my radical buddies likely be down on obama for doing what he do and ima challenge him too
but ima judge him as a politician and ima give him some slack to play his game
so far i dont rate him w/condi or colin, and i dont rate him w/the harold ford type either
boy seem to be looking for a new groove, im willing to see how it play
i remember once a friend of mine made a comment, we were talking
about some politician and some questionable moves he had made and
she said it makes me glad im a theorist
that has always stuck with me
we have the leeway of being principled in a way folk in the arena do not
samesame a writer, if you tell me your secrets
expect them to be told - thats what i do
and im supposed to understand people and the
human condition w/a little more nuance than the purists do
on that note let me go tell some secrets and clock some pages,
the work is cold and i got to get back in the groove
wish me well would you
all my love
rdoc
FRIDAY
hello world
ol rootdoctor in a strange space
got a lingering cold, deep in applications
and aint no Work getting done
see stuff going on in the world but
just not feeling it
dont nothing feel important enuf for me to focus on it
everything a big so what - do your little commentary and it
dont change nothing - whats the point
i wanna speak in words of power - words that resonate in the world
words that change things
let me do some quickies just to keep my hand in
french court say paul kagame of rwanda ordered the killing of the
hutu presidents that started rwandan genocide for precisely that outcome
makes strategic sense because it set him up as the savior - french african politics likely play
a role in this finding, but if he did it thats some mighty coldblooded strategics
the old rootdoctor do not approve of coldblooded strategics
dont be offering up my people as strategic sacrifices
gon have to come up w/some fatwa concept to express that level of disapproval
in my wouldbe role as the tribes strategic and spiritual advisor
something along the lines of i will not abide a thief of souls
which is how i express disapproval of abusive magical practice
its a ritual pronouncement for me
kinda funny you know, i make these cultural pronouncements in spite of their delusional quality
it seems i have taken it upon myself to model the hoodoo future
i just assign myself cultural responsibilities and powers and then strategically act out on them
here in rootsblog, my personal little hoodoo fantasyworld
reflecting this drstrange comicbook vision of myself as the high hoodoo
and somehow seem to equate that w/seeding them in the world
in the hopes of conjuring them as reality (forcing reality to adjust
to my will and let me tell you reality dont adjust easy)
and its like im working out this afromology
in your face and as i go
this is magical thinking, also art - you conjure the reality and hold it in your head, manifesting
until its real in the world -
aint all just conjuration, the game entail conjuration, organizing and ideological orchestration
magic just put you in the right state of mind
for the more practically minded: if/when i do pull off this novel and its all i hope it is, then folk will start paying attention to what i have to say (and have said) - samesame holybook - thats why im frustrated when aint no Work getting done, everything dependent on that . . .
in the interim i got to speak in words of power, so when folk finally do start paying attention there is substance there . .dont matter if i dont get no respect for what i do, i just got to be real and wait for the world to come to me . . .i aint coming to the world, im the conjureman . . .okay, enuf secrets, it amazes me how much of my trueself i put in this blog, my sense of literary authenticity driving me now
i got to be real, i got to keep going deeper, each week i pull out one concept from the previous weeks meditations that lead me deeper, next week ima play with that high hoodoo thing, that was a revelation to me when that came up, ima look at that . . .okay what else rick, this spose to be tight . . .
bush - samo samo
iraq - samo samo
darfur - same samo
haiti - samo samo
blackfolk everywhere - samo samo
america - samo samo
the world -samo samo
the destiny of all things - samo samo
that give anybody the blues
rdoc
THURSDAY
hello world
ol rootdoctor bummed out
and aint got nothing real to say
just posting cause its been most a week and i havent
doing applications night and day
which is kinda sad, all these dreams of being part of
a strong literary community and when you choosing
6 of 300 applicants you saying no to a lot of worthy
young writers - i wish i could help them all - all my young dreamers
reminds me of my own youthful strivings, hopes and
dreams - and that i aint done a lick of novelwork 2 weeks now
this week/weekend strictly applications
thesiswork and classprep nextweek
i am so frustrated you just dont know
no novelwork mean life is kicking my ass
what w/family issues and slack on all my strategic
initiatives - sometime you on top
of your obligations and responsibilities
sometime you behind on every front
2 weeks down w/a cold and everything suddenly in a crises mode
thats what come from living on the edge, rick - got to do better son
and no noveltime till next friday earliest - novel gon be cold by then
old boy gon have to get back in the groove - old boy have got the blues
and i know my struggles kinda existential
and i think sometime other folk in the world really struggling, rick
got your nerve whining
all you got is the blues
but that dont make them no less
the blues, and the blues is what i got friend
ohwell - nothing a little noveltime
wont cure
hanginginthere till friday next
stumbling and fumbling thru like i do
always willing to dust myself off
and get back in the game
all my love
rdoc
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