5 am sun
woodshed over, back in the world
think im going thru and edit this weeks work to the bone
think maybe i was a little obsessive, woodshed you know
546 am sat
hello world, last day - wasnt my best woodshed
but it was okay
this blog has gotten mighty personal lately
getting tired of putting my business in the street
was reading latimes article how talking points memo guy
played a role in the prosecutors firings
noted an article in local arkansas paper about fired prosecutor
asked his readers to send info about firings in their states
noted the pattern - inquiries picked up by majors
now bush admin ducking and dodging - now thats blogging
im drooling w/envy
just dont have the time to muckrake and write novels too
but i think ima chill the me me me for awhile
if i dont have commentary i will restrain myself
from just talking about any old thing that come to mind
i get to wailing and dont know when to quit
i been telling way too many secrets
later
rdoc
4 am fri
been a weak woodshed, world - didnt do my 4 last night
2 days and its back to the world - did i bring back power
or did i journey for naught
did i find redemption
or didnt i
8pm thurs
weak day, worked sporadically, didnt crunch
still not over, got 4 hours till midnight, that would
make it a strong one - lets at it rick
opening epigram always 1st to hit the screen
and you o mythmaker, o teller of tales
o weaver of lies, o fool of a trickster
is there nothing you hold sacred
is there no boundary you will not cross
in search of a song . . . .
yeah i done wrong, take the money, it
was a helluva opening line
and the novel is my god
what it need it get
looking for a 4 today
my love to you all
8 am thurs
damn - slept 5 hours, thats way too many
probably mugabes fault
boy gone king of scotland mad
a movie i by the way refuse to see
a little too hollywood darkest africa predictable for me
ran across a darkest america washpost article (subsc) about
a slew of recent books bursting founding of america at jamestown myth
'a genesis birthed in hell' said one
cannibalism, murder et al and slavery too when
the decision was made to make some of the 1st africans
slaves instead of indentured servants - incorporating a mortal
flaw in the earliest vision of what america could be
best i get back to work on my counterspell
4 measely daze left but im crunching pages - this what i live for
once read a discussion about whether frederick douglas
wrote his own books or if they were ghostwritten by white
abolitionists and one researcher made what he considered
a telling point - there is no paper trail of struggle he said
as to if there is or not i will not testify, i dismissed the argument
because i prefer to believe fred wrote his own accounts - all of them
my apologies for lnflicting my trail of struggle on you dear and loyal surfer
but that whats be on my mind a lot
getting Work done in the face of lifes demands
what separate the writers from the civilians
one of the threads im weaving in is making the narrator as storyteller voice
more conscious of itself, want to play with story and the act of story
probably texacos influence - mama day next ball up
looking forward to consulting w/a master of intertext
im outta here, another 5 hours gone - like i aint serious up in here
like im just playing at being true force
3 am thurs
clocking pages and in the zone
dizzytired - i hate sleep when im in
the zone but sometime you just gotta . . .
worked a nice little brer rabbit riff in today, brer rabbit pondering the ways of humans and telling stories on them, o i enjoyed that - tomorrow working in some riffs from gem of the ocean that will influence two major characters, give them more texture - that 285 year old conjurewoman spoke to me
took me 5 days just to get the zone, half my woodshed gone,
ohwell, cant fight the flow - needed the rest i guess, but im in the groove now
in the zone and clocking pages - and its all good in my world
bope its good in yours
12:58 wed
wouldnt exactly call it clocking pages
but i am clocking hours
1OAM wed - hello world
rickydoc limping, rickydoc lame
aint crunching pages - been laying about doing this and that
okay, today is the 1st day of my woodshed,
now to sun will be 5 days, i will consider that a good woodshed
mean i will be behind the gun that week
playing catchup like rickydoc do
but i got to clock some serious woodshed days or i will feel like a fool
throwing my life away and at 56 i dont have life to just throw away
so anyway some commentary - the Justice 8
whats interesting to me is that the bush admin is so use
to a compliant congress they making silly mistakes now
whats even more interesting is that i had a lot to say about it all but now
that im sitting here all i can think about is my empty woodshed
im gone, maybe later
rickydoc running scared
all my love to everybody
rdoc
Arthur,
You are sure as hell not throwing your life away - no matter how short you may fall of the ambitious targets you set for yourself.
One thing that stood out about you at SLS and Litfest was how generously and completely you gave of yourself to everyone who approached you for help, guidance, or encouragement. You truly modelled what it is to open doors and mark the trail for others. And every internal struggle, including the moments of apathy, lassitude, despair, is an integral part of building our total humanity - teaching us to show up as we are and offer what we have. None of it could be edited out without something being lost.
Posted by: Shailja | March 26, 2007 at 03:15 PM
shalijah youve embarrassed me
the feeling was mutual, i was very
honored to share the stage with you
loved watching you do what you do
was impressed with the science
and i recall with particular warmth
encounters on the streets of lamu
a fellow outlier
off in her own world
working and watching
fellow traveler
and keeper of the faith
Posted by: rickydoc flowers | April 13, 2007 at 08:51 AM