handling souls and testimonials: my spell worked perfectly thank you

WEDNESDAY

hello world, seems danny glover will be directing

a film on toussaint louverture, the 18th century haitian revolutionary, in a film produced by venezuela/chavez

danny glover been an interesting force has he not
might as well annoint him roving ambassador of black america

might as well make it official

least he wont have a white lead like upcoming bury my heart at wounded knee film

which told the story of the displacement of the nativeamericans, right - so hollywood continues that displacement by casting a white lead 

everyone felt very strongly that we needed a white character or part white/part indian character to carry a contemporary, mostly white, audience through this project" says scriptwriter daniel gait

actor adam beach is ojibwa so its a nativeamerican faking white in an ahistorical character
whose only purpose is give white audiences a narrative they can relate to

on what a twisted weave we web

reminds me of that old story about the lion and the hunter and
how the story go depend on who tell the tale

just read this fascinating nyt article, at least fascinating to a writer whose work engage storytelling,
that talked about the impo of personal narration to the formation of character

talked how the way you tell your lifestory shape your evolving personality

how telling your story in 3rd person appear to be psychologically healthier
than telling it in 1st person because it gives you the distance

necessary to finesse the hardtimes instead of wallow in them
(instead of you got the demon the demon got you)

and all kinds of fascinating such tidbits that will work themselves into
rest for the wearys narrative structure (sorry ec)

specially since a large part of rest is riffing the slave narratives, which were all 1st person

was thinking how i could have chars working their way from 1st to 3rd as a healing dynamic
and all sorts of such like riffs that i will keep in mind as i do this draft (sorry ec)

will have to read the article closer and ponder on its pertinence but right now, im trying
to get my groove back on, i been slacking with the pages, minnowbrook threw
me off my game - i was clocking pages before i went off those 3 days, i got to

chain myself to the sacred desk

this personal narrative thing also goes with my little mantra on the construction of self identity
as conjuration - conduct yourself as you aspire to be and you shall

wonder how glover fancy himself,
a contemporary louverture of some sort id say

him and chavez both
21st century revolutionaries id say

a luta continua
rdoc

MONDAY

hello world, you know i never trust website testimonials
its like yeah right, how long did it take you to write that one

but this one i received recently warm my little hoodoo heart
had a client recently, youngster, 17, 18, im not sure

was having trouble with her wastrel boyfriend and ask
me to take the case - make him love me, make him true

i ask her for the details, i consult the conqueror
and tell her i cannot do it, i will not take this case

he didnt sound like somebody worth keeping, he was treating her badly and abusing her, i advised her to let him go - walk away

but she was insistent, told me she had tried other hoodoos that had taken substantial amounts of money & left her feeling used

and if she didnt get right with him
she was just gonna die

she sounded so young to me, you know how it is when you that age
like it was this man or nothing,

and he was a young knucklehead not ready for love
didnt appear to be a bad guy, just wasnt ready for love and commitment

i told her be patient and the right one will come along
never take bad treatment from anybody -

she was preparing to go to college and all, had all these dreams

i told her spend this energy you using to chase/hoodoo this man
making yourself into the kind of person who will draw a good mate

concentrate on your life for a minute
told her its a world of choice still out there for you, this one is not it -

but she so young and desperate and by this time
i cared about her, had already taken on her case

and i was moved by her faith in the tradition to help her
thats what butter my bread

so i told her i would take the case but only if i was allowed to
construct the spell to do what i thought it should

she agreed

this is one of those situations i was talking about earlier
where you really have to be careful w/folks lives

folk ask me for life advice all the time and im very conscious i
might tell them to do something they shouldnt have

i often give life changing advice - advice that affects their destiny
and expect them to follow it with almost blind faith in me

if i dont feel that faith i dont take the case

and you really have to be careful when you have that kind of power over folk
when you handling souls

but at the sametime as a hoodooman, thats what i do, give life advice
handle souls

and im good at it, my heart is right, im sensitive to empowering folk and i aint
in it for the money - or the power - im in it to help people

i turn down the great majority of cases that come to me
its a big decision to take on responsibility for a troubled soul

dont make enuf money to justify the emotional expenditure or loss of noveltime
even if i were charging abusive money it still wouldnt be worth it

i charge 9 dollars or 99, depending on what i think folk can stand
only reason i charge anything at all is cause folk dont take you seriously unless you do

even then i often give folk the option of paying me only if you satisfied w/the results
and just as often give the advice for free during the consideration process - but if you actually

want me to Work for you, then you got to pay

for a desperate 17 year old still in highschool i tell her 9 crisp new dollar bills
but i dont tell her where to send them - i make it difficult for her to pay me even that

but i have to help her, in the course of consideration ive become fond of her
and i cant have her out here naively giving her soul into the care of charlatans

so w/a degree of trepidation, i design a spell that would bring him back & hold him if
that was to be but designed more to give her the strength to walk away if she so choose

designed to force her to decide what she wanted out of life
what she want out of a man - and demand it of both life and men

so anyway i recently receive this email from her,
edited to remove personal information:

Hello again sir,

First off I wanna thank you so much for helping me. I tried the spell but in the end it did not work for long but surprisingly I am not really upset. I tried to make things work but at the end of everything I couldn't make (   ) change his ways so he must see his mistakes on his own. I feel as though the work you did for me has given me the confidence to stand up for myself and I realized when doing my meditations the man I wanted,(   ) was no longer capable of being and it was in my best interest to really take a stand for myself and move on. I guess it took a little bit of ancestor magic and religion to pull the curtains from my eyes and I thank you dearly. I even think that the spell sent me someone else that matched what I was asking for in my meditations but all i'm worried about is doing well in college this fall. I do miss (   ) but now I understand what you meant when you said you wanted to give me spine and believe me I have a lot spine now. I remember you saying when I contacted you a long time ago something about nine dollars, if you charge anything I'll pay it because I have gained so much from this experience.   Again a huge thank you

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i write her back and tell her au contrary
sound like my spell work perfectly thank you

in the name of the conqueror

o im so good at what i do
soulwork by trickmaster

wouldbe prophet of the hoodoo way