TUESDAY
hello world,
whats with innis of core and the bond folk, rightwing black organizations that never do
anything for the race, now coming to the defense of dog the bounty hunter, who was recently
taped in a nigger rant by his son
telling his son he cant work for dog if he dont break up with nigger girlfriend cause we say nigger a lot around here and he doesnt want a take a chance on "some fucking nigger hearing us say the word nigger" and losing my show - (whew it was some seirous niggering up in there)
dog say "if we use the word nigger, we dont mean you fucking scum nigger without a soul"
but thats what the world might think and his show would be in danger - (whew it was rough)
but lo and behold his son taped it and sold it to the national enquirer and now his show,
as he figured it would, has been suspended - a&e just suspended it trying to let it all blow over
for their biggest moneymaker but advertisers jumping ship on them, not only just this show but all a&e
shows and now dog is making his obligatory tearful apologies and claiming he didnt mean nothing by it
these two rightwing black organizations, innis of core and some outfit called bond, that dont
do nothing for blackfolk have suited up for dog, doing book signings and running interference
for him as he tries to get his show back, innis swear dog been misunderstood and he is
actually trying to bring the races together ????
listen to the tape yourself and decide if you think his apology is sincere, then you tell me
what you think about his colored support, aint never done nothing to help blackfolk but
gon cry tears over dog, one wonders what kind of paycheck that entail, i feel you dog
on your own son turning you in, dont know who you can trust these days do you
on a more pleasant note, bonnie gave me permission to give some props to my favorite actress,
gabrielle union, she got a new christmas movie coming out, i just wanted to use this promotional photo
yall support her new movie now, industry want to ghettoize her into urban movie roles
i want the industry to give her something challenging, let her show us what she can do
you flow girl
rdoc
MONDAY
hello world, had the strangest dream last night
i was the conqueror and i was evading legba
so
i was flying, right (flying dreams are my favorite) and i believe i was leaving a newyork street fair trying to get back to my hotel/apartment?
for some reason legba attacked me, trying to knock me out of the sky
and so im evading legba, who moves in great leaps and was angry with me
for some reason trying to bring me down and cause me grief and mishap,
but the power of the conquer root kept foiling him
legba kept throwing items representing various mishaps my way and i was using the power of the highjohn root to deflect them
and i was perplexed as to why legba was after me but not panicky about it
and i kept getting aided by civilians who were somehow part of my
support network, including one time i was resting in an apartment
when my scouts/pickets informed me legba had come and when he knocked/entered
the front door i went out the window - then as i was traveling (lets say over harlem)
i note a couple, a man and a woman, diviners telling fortunes as street vendors
i see legba down the block but i take the time to land and ask them to tell me what is to be
while im there and keeping a wary eye on the approaching legba, ogun shows up
and i greet him joyously, old friend, and thats when i realize that war is upon us
when legba arrives i tell him i aint got time for his foolishness, war is upon us
and then we somehow merge. me/the conqueror, legba and ogun, and basically i wake up at that point
im not really a dream rememberer but this dream is still vivid in my head
poet colleague of mine, bj ashanti, used to write poems based on his dreams, ive always
thought that was cool tech, when my dreams have story quality ima write them down
even when i dont quite know what the point is
finished a phase of rest for the weary yesterday, is that pertinent, still dont have
that page turning quality yet but what i got will have to do, today i start my redpen
pray for me
rdoc
SUNDAY
hello world, been clocking pages, well at least clocking hours
been trying to figure out how to get a page turning quality in the text it dont have just yet
have to confess i went to see the golden compass yesterday, bonnie remembered it
from childhood and i "let her drag" me to it, but i confess i enjoyed it, what can i say
so anyway im sitting there and im actually taking notes about having highjohn attempting
to be the high hoodoo and have the kind of spiritual authority that suggest cultural changes
and folk really listen, like AIDS, when it became clear that AIDS had a particular affinity for
blackfolk it would have been nice to say: okay everybody, no drugs and needles, and monogamy for
the next 3 generations and have the culture actually do it because i said do it and they trust me
to give cultural guidance, thats what i been working at all these years and it aint been working
nobody listen, im just wailing in the wilderness and hoping if i establish the historical role that the hoodoos of the future will
have that kind of cultural authority, where folk trust them to have the vision and the concern
and the love of the people and give them the prophetic authority, im not really expressing this well
hopefully i do a better job in rest for the weary, and what i have happen is that this effort to be
a big boss man conflicts with his personal ethics and hostility against soul stealing
which i saw as the message of the golden compass, anti authoritarian, which is my message
while at the same time im trying to set myself up as some sort of tribal shaman that folk give
a certain authority to because they believe in my prophetic ethics, im not explaining this well
maybe because im so confused myself, and a certain part of me prefers to fail in this effort
basically im looking for a fatwa type ability but when you see how that power is abused
in islam it make you wonder, spiritual power is such a two edged instrument, which is why
spiritual and leadership ethics of all sorts is probably my most pressing concern
and a certain part feels that i have to try for this, have to try to gain the prophetic dispensation that
will give me a certain authority of cultural vision or something, while another part of me is conflicted
about spiritual power, a power ive always had, but the ethics of charismatic power is what make
me come up with all these injunctions against soul stealing, and thats going to play a major part
in rest for the weary, whereas this attempt to express it here i floundering and ima let it go
sometime i feel like harriet tubman: "If I could have convinced more slaves
that they were slaves, I could have freed thousands more."
but then harriet got her work done didnt she, didnt waste no time crying about how hard it was
back to work flowers, i have just got to get this novel done, dont think about nothing
but todays pages rick, dont think about all you got to do, just get
todays work done, let tomorrow fend for itself
let me give you a couple more harriet quotes while im at it harriet
definitely one of my 101 talismans, ima call her The Conductor
first she reason it thru:
"i had reasoned this out in my mind, there was one of two things i had a right to, liberty or death; if i could not have one, i would have the other."
then she cut it down to the essence:
"be free or die"
upon successful escape, she take stock:
"i looked at my hands to see if i was the same person. there was such a glory over everything. the sun came up like gold through the trees, and i felt like i was in heaven."
her service during the war: guided a union raid on the combahee river: 700 slaves freed
babajohn killens use this quote to title his big novel: and then we heard the thunder:
"we saw the lightning and that was the guns and then we heard the thunder and that was the big guns; and then we heard the rain falling and that was the blood falling; and when we came to get in the crops, it was dead men that we reaped."
not satisfied with saving herself, she come back for the rest of us:
"i was the conductor of the underground railroad for eight years, and i can say what most
conductors can't say; i never ran my train off the track and i never lost a passenger."
strategics by the conductor: when you work it, work the root:
"never wound a snake, kill it"
the one that move my soul, i could have freed thousands more:
"if i could have convinced more slaves that they were slaves, i could have freed thousands more"
she claim a thousand, a thousand it is:
"i freed a thousand slaves i could have freed a thousand more if only they knew they were slaves"
and i would you be a race of dreamers:
every great dream begins with a
dreamer. always remember, you have within you the
strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.
im outta here
my love to you all
rickydoc trickmaster, wouldbe
prophet of the hoodoo way
SATURDAY
hello world, not feeling rootsblog today, so many life problems im overwhelmed and dead in the water
cat died, car died, computer died, some new health issues look like ima have to carry, family issues in the delta & everything cost money i just dont have
school out finally but i got so many obligations i cant woodshed - newren, palf, the hand, blurbs, recs, manuscripts i owe critiques on, house maintenance, etc
sometime you got so many issues going critical you get overwhelmed and all you do is sit there moaning the blues,
then i look at my work, how slow it go and how hard i work at it for so little readership/respect and im just
tired - im weary, im weary in my soul im weary - wondering when do i get to rest - i suspect even death aint no resting place, i suspect its a struggle too
ohwell, buckle up rick, singing the blues is one thing, whining is entirely another
problems overwhelming you, line them up and knock them off - 1 2 3 - deal w/it
occasionally i go on i tunes and put in some favorite word and see what songs come up on it
did prophecy a little while back and a bunch of reggae songs came up, prophecy is a big
thing in reggae culture, im envious of that - other day i did struggle and a whole bunch of african american
songs came up, blues, r&b, hiphop, one southern rap group talking about living in the south say -
we know struggle - i felt that
blackfolk and struggle, if there is a word intimately identified with black culture its struggle
i recall once fellow traveler keith gilyard said to me 'the primary trope of african american lit is struggle'
guess i will see if i can more consciously work a struggle trope into rest for the weary
and on that note, best i myself get back to work, clocking pages best cure for the blues i know
in struggle
rdoc
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