FRIDAY 424 pm
hello world, bee off the grid, stonewalling
everything but novel
totally quick commentary:
america drawn into shiite struggles for power and influence - iran
the puppetmaster in this struggle
defense dept hires 21 year old contractor to deliver defective ammo to afghanistan
this is the government that couldnt shoot straight
neither hillary no obama can take advantage of mccains weakness
because they still on the bataan death march of 2008
im clocking page, only thing you
can do when the world is falling apart
rdoc
TUESDAY MORNING 334 am
hello world, figured out my problem, had written myself past my understanding
had to stop and reassess what im doing, redo my outline, no problem
invest a couple of days in outline i be good to go
it feels good to be moving again
schoolhouse got me running and gunning
summerwoodshed coming and i need to hit the ground running
quick commentary: hillarys misspokement is too juicy to pass up
bill say its all good, let the blood flow
obama look a little weary these days
hang in there brother
cant handle hillary what
can you do
rdoc
MONDAY MORNING
after all those wolftickets last post i did about an hour of novel
rest of the day went to palf and some schoolhouse
im under the gun - had to dump the fancy fonts
just aint had time to play - life got me
quick shoutout to rod jackmon - he be regulating
appreciate his help on rest, occasional admonitions
to buck up
rdoc
SUNDAY
hello world, i been off the grid, palf and schoolhouse got
me rolling - squeezing noveltime here and there
and this endgame got me spooked, got to reconcept
primary thread - this sorceror who would be prophet
im feeling a little humble today, running scared
and questioning my game, magic or fantasy
today im voting fantasy, today reality is winning
today i wonder if this just a juneteenth fakeout - the wouldbe
greaat novel that never seem to be great enough
will this novel ever be viable - or am i in truth just the footnote
the literary world claim me to be - do i simply not have the chops
to be true voice
focus rick, keep the faith - ignore anxieties, ignore internal pressures
external pressures, anything that depress discourage or distract me
just Know one day this novel will be the work of
wonder i see in my head and it will all have
been worthwhile - i tell folk 20 years cause i once found a draft of this novel
from 1990, but ive actually been busting it about 8 now, long enough
feel like ive given it my youth
suppose to be a bigtime conjureman
bending reality to my will is what i do
well this reality has not bent and I wonder
sometime why the gods have cursed me
why give me the power/vision/need
and not allow me to manifest
they want to keep me hungry, keep
my nose to the grindstone - so be it
today we work that spine - focus rick
its always showtime - and im always behind
masterpiece or farce, make it happen
let the generations decide
in struggle
rdoc
FRIDAY
obama speech successful in deflecting some of the pastor wright heat
but its a vulnerability no matter how it plays
impressive that obama didnt throw wright under the bus, i wouldve -
that oldschool rhetoric is terminally marginal and counterproductive in
the 21st century - we dont want to bring america down, we want to claim
and guide her, maddog rhetoric dont put blackfolk in a illuminated state of mind
dont nothing stres the old conjureman like weak longgame - but
some strong and pertinent folk still stuck in that mode
i have to work them to, try to get them on the good foot
been a struggle to break free of it myself
i am a die hard black nationalist but i am not the angry
black militant i was when i was 20 - radical purity is for kids
obamas campaign been repudiation of that oldschool idea of struggle
cant be running yesterdays game in tomorrows struggle
have to figure out how to be black in a multi culti world,
a comfortable part of the mix - players instead of victims
i spec boy obama wove thru that one about as deftly as could be done
wright gon still cost boy obama but such is life - cant fault a man for allegiances -
my understanding is that there is more to him than soundbites portray
this campaign been as much a wakeup call for black america
as its been for white america, hispanic america et al
speaking of which timely move by richardson - good looking out mi amigo -
wouldnt that be a nice ticket - but it would totally freak the nervous whitefolk
o what a tangled web - ima leave it alone
have not done any novelwork lately
let me get serious
weary but still struggling
rdoc
Obama by a nose in the General Election
Got To work That Crossroads, it is but a pause, a sweet cool water
Conservatives/Liberals both going to give "socialism" to the money players, proven.
Recession that is for us.
Two markets now those who bet on future money and those w production and service.
Bigger fight coming up the years, a bigger fight. A Black Man May Win That Scares America, Get Over It; Lady America Waits LOL
Posted by: nanakwame | April 04, 2008 at 08:09 PM
Now that was some week. How have u been folk? I have a new book out.
Posted by: rawdawgbuffalo | April 14, 2008 at 11:34 AM