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got destiny on my mind - fate, fa and struggle

TUESDAY

between reading that obama didnt fight for the public option or the medicare buy in, personal issues
and not getting any work done yesterday, rickydoc has got the blues - straight up blues

rdoc

MONDAY

well i been living in a world of political fantasy
apparently the conference bill will also need 60 votes

which means the final healthcarebill will be closer to the senate than that of the house
which means that the fat lady has sung - and i dont particularly care for the tune

but i read that the repubs have been reduced to praying that 92 yr old byrd either dies or is incapacitated
so the democrats wheelchair him in and and when he votes 'aye' he 'pumps his left fist in defiance'

well i guess if an old kluxer like byrd can step up i can too, anything that unanimously freak the repubs

out like this cant be all bad - thats why im a political theorist instead of a politician, i can afford principles, they cant

but leiberman say he never got any whitehouse pressure on either public option or medicare buy in from obama, man, feels like obama turned his back on us with this one, like the only folk getting love from obama are skip gates and goldman sachs

if the dems are in trouble for 2010 its because theyve turned off that enthusiasm that got obama and congress in

i have to say i no longer feel the love, such is life, i will concentrate on getting my own work done

a luta continua (which translate as clock some pages)

this outcome is a disappointment but i will respond as i do to everything, good or

bad, more pages lord, more pages

all my love

rdoc

SUNDAY

spoke with an old new ren companero the other day, rod jackman, rod a real focused kind of guy

he told me to slide obama some slack, say he believe the boy got longgame

i would like to believe and so i will - right now im hoping he running okeydoke on that healthcare bill

and that the conference bill will be more to our liking, and if he disappoints me again well ive learned

not to be too deeply invested in politicians, you hope you pray you game, you endure

you take your punches you keep on struggling for the common good

speaking of which i been working again, clocking pages, or rather paragraphs, takes awhile before

those paragraphs start morphing into pages but i feel good because this last week i was putting the

hours in but the pages werent clocking, i wasnt moving forward and thats frustrating, (i dont care if im moving forward step by step, inch by inch, word by word, as long as im moving) basically what im

doing this stage is going over each paragraph, each sentence, making sure its right before moving on

to the next one, cause its real lyrical  - the stylee riffs i be doing here on my blog are like narrative leakage of my novelvoice, dont know if this novel works or not but i got the unique narrative voice part covered, dont nobody mack it like me - its like this big narrative poem, and getting each word right is a torturous process but im leaving viable manuscript behind,

and not accepting anything less than a moneydraft this time but

what happens is deeper you dig into the novel the messier it gets, the more threads to be properly woven,

im about halfway through and ive have given up on finishing draft before end of the year,
if i can just finish this middle 3rd, the holyground section, i will be satisfied,

then i will have that last 3rd, the cosmic destiny 3rd, to do, hopefully over
spring semester, do a cleanup draft over the summer and its a done deal -

done deal - gloriana & jubilation

meanwhile 3way tensions between me, bonnie and evan still playing out and
got to head for the delta soon, which means more family drama, but such is life

you just got to wall off all the standing turmoil of life and get your work done no matter what -

no matter what

thats the difference between being a writer and a wannabe - the no matter what

dont care what im going thru in life, im always struggling to get my novel done, no matter what

been working this novel 10 years, that frustrate me, and it look like the literary world has written me off, that distress me

but i dont care nothing about all that either, all i want to do is make this novel exist before i die, no matter what

best i clock some pages before i get all maudlin on you

been thinking about destiny, fate and fa lately - its a longstory, mostly this novel, tell you

about it sometime - but not right now  - too busy enduring -

take all you got sometime just to hang in there

i am rickydoc trickmaster - i am a novelist born

i dont care what reality got to say, dont care what the literary world say
dont care what my pitiful work to date say, dont care what you say -

i am a novelist born

rdoc

off the cuff

SATURDAY

youd think with ben nelson trying to step on women that olympia would step up to

defend the sisterhood but she talking about holding off till january, which is just the

republican plan to stop momentum in hopes something will derail bill over the holiday,

maybe the republicans have replaced her with a pod person - me im just trying to get

my momentum back after taking time out to do research, getting back up to woodshed

speed always a rough row to hoe

im out

rdoc

FRIDAY

so mildred barya telling me about this statue in senegal supposed to be taller than the statue of liberty, say its a glory project of the president thats very unfortunate

because otherwise she say there is much to appreciate about senegalese culture and dakar is an african wonder, even has nightlife she say

but the statue, very unfortunate

she tell me what it looks like i say send me a link and so she does, its all she said it was,

this horrifically heroic social realism vision clutching a well built little woman, who seem to be stumbling in the wind or something, and carrying a baby on his biceps - built by north koreans (big surprise), w/no african artists or aesthetic, very oldschool socialist, very unfortunate

all its waiting on now is the head, i shudder to think

even more unfortunate, the president say since its his design (a drawing from one of his early books) he say he deserve 30% of any revenue it generate, this is unfortunate on many levels - mostly aesthetic

if you must give me white elephant foolishness, at least make it graceful, wouldnt nobody
but a wobbly consider this aesthetically pleasing, or is it just me thats grouchy today

forgive me dear regulators, slow day, im out, all my love

rdoc

WEDNESDAY

im reaching a point where i might have to draw back from obama, he letting too many folk
walk over him when it comes to protecting the people, just saw where the irs gave citigroup et al

a tax break worth billions behind repaying tarp payment and im just perplexed
billions on top of the billion they have already gotten and they got profits and bonuses to spare

then obama came out against reimportation bill which would have cut drug prices because he
didnt want to irritate his partners over at big pharma and its like okay man afghanistan i will go

along with you under protest but i cant tolerate too much more of these giveaways to big (fill in blank)

how far does this we need them so bad play out

obama, when you gon stand up for me, man, you losing me man, you breaking my heart

and im thinking that w/o singlepayer/publicoption/medicare, this is just a mandate to force
people to buy insurance at insurance company prices subsidized by government

im susceptible to deans cry to start over and then again

im susceptible to the argument that we do what we can now and leave trapdoors in it to be expanded later
but i no longer have confidence that obama will take care of business when it come time to do so

buju, whats up ras, untold stories and not an easy road raise i man up, then came the homohating charge and now cocaine - cocaine? that aint ras - buju man, you breaking my heart

fortunately this nyt review of new book of reviews out by achebe is a balm for broken literary hearts

rdoc

TUESDAY

well say it aint so joe did it to us again - killed the public option and the medicare buy in too

w/o these this bill is just a give away to the insurance companies, just like the prescription bill

turned into a giveaway to big pharma

once they get lieberman off their backs they got to deal w/nelson

i believe we will be in even worse shape 2010 because the base is frustrated and the repubs on a roll

me, i have been buried in forrest/fort pillow research, read devils dream by madison smartt bell and realized i had to step up my game

now you know dear regulators how i feel about forrest - im determined to take down the devil

me and smartt bell got a little friendly competition going behind that oxford piece i did on forrest and when i read devils dream i knew i had to step up my game

we kinda working from opposite sides of the forrest fence and madison smartt bell do not play when it come to historical fiction

strictly catch up on my part

been awhile since i did my forrest research and devils dream made me realize i was slack - i dug back in and found a gem - river run red by andrew ward - boy brought the detail that make historical fiction come alive,

found some other new work too but river run red nailed it,

i got it from the library, so i went onto amazon to get my own copy and found another one by him, dammit, slaves war, so i ordered that one too, meanwhile they had it in the university library so i dug in - boy 2 for 2

ive read a lot of slave narrative work researching this novel but this one i actually enjoyed the read, mostly because of the way he worked the narratives into a narrative, so it became a story rather than block text,

ie boring, what that did was emphasize the poetry, i enjoyed the read

but thats it, between devilsdream, riv run red, slaves war, etc, i been stuck in research mode now
for about 4 days now - of research it seems there is no end, got to be ruthless w/research, deadline it -

end of year woodshed push, cant afford more than 4 days off the gun,so, no more research, tonight and tomorrow
incorporate notes into manuscript and its back into clocking pages - speaking of which im outta here

let me leave you w/this youtube of lieberman calling for the medicaid buyin he now swear he against, 3 months ago he was for it before he was against it, whatever

rdoc

THURSDAY

im rolling, last class today, closing down shop
just run some quick riffs

that tiger something else isnt he, i believe the count is 13 now, and
whats interesting is that none of the women are peers, apparently he used intermediaries to solicit them -  boy just a dog, got serious issues

as always its the commentary to articles i find most interesting, specially
the articles claim blackfolk not supporting him cause women white

im gratified to report that many blacks feel about tiger like i do, he cut himself off when he claim
to be cablinasian, let the cabilinasian community come out to support him in his time of need,

i certainly wont

now what about those kids got caught in pakistan, 5 american kids went to pakistan to do jihad
now the authorities trying to figure out if they went to pakistan to do jihad, i hope we not going pc w/this

that kind of thing need to be discouraged - i find it interesting that their families and the american
islamic community played a part in exposing them - that must have been a hard call for them

seems they got radicalized by internet, it was stupid of them to go to pakistan to jihad, would have been
much more dangerous if they had become a subversive cell here, kids, what do they know

lets see, anything else, guinea has opp to turn back that military coup behind falling out of principals
one can only hope

southafrica has resolved to treat all its AIDS children, one can only hope

whatever happened to sudan, bashir and darfur (and south sudan for that matter) they fallen off the political screen - thats not a good thing

nor is pending ugandan legislation of death penalty for homosexuality, perhaps even for not turning them in

obama has gone to oslo for nobel right after escalating war in afghanistan - not good timing

what else rick, probably think of stuff before day is out, oh, the biggie - weve lost the public option, that compromise they
have come up with will have to do but its not the public option - best hold your fire until the details have been clarified

folk been calling them the centrist democrats, the ones that killed it, what i call them you dont want to know

okay rick, what else, thats it, let me focus, last class and i will be a freeman, had a student in my tuesday class ask me if he could give me a story and im like man didnt you hear me say i dont do stories after the last day of class - he must have been kidding, im thru

all my love