back in the game

FRIDAY

i thought boy obama handled himself well with that healthcare summit, i judge it good game

what we need is single payer but since thats not politically feasible we will have to go for what we can get

folk who have fallen for republican scare tactics about government run socialism ignore how medicare
and social security, both government run social programs, have benefited elders

who used to grow old sick and destitute

even to point of defending medicare as under assault by government run socialism, the very same
medicare they fought against when it was implemented using the same scare tactics they using now

the bottomline is that the social compact is only strong when those of us who
have been fortunate in the dog eat dog dont forget those who havent

when the social contract is strong, when we care about each other, then america is strong

morally its just not right that people die because they dont have health care,

my understanding is that america is the only industrialized society that doesnt provide for its citizens

my understanding is also that im wasting my time talking to folk whose minds are closed on this issue

who so determined to take obama down they dont care what it cost america, morally and fiscally

theyd rather eat their generations than show some christian charity

so, reconciliation it is - bush did it with the tax cuts and other laws designed
to hurt regular folk - now the repubs want to whine

they need to go sit in the corner somewhere cause we about to do this - its showtime

all my love

rdoc

STILL WEDNESDAY

okay, so im wondering, cause i got to stop my show and reconcept these last 50 pages
i got so much more understanding during this last push of what this novel about

last 50 pages or so are now counterfeit, they not up to current game, i got to reconcept them

whenever i run up on something like this i have to seriously assess if im bullshitting myself

stalling, avoiding, basic lazy - assessment: got to do it
narrative strategy require it

if i was doing conventional scenebased narration it wouldnt be necessary

this get me to thinking about how im always trying to walk folk thru production
process, rah rahing them thru, telling them what ive figured out,

1 write the whole thing

2 forcemarch thru, if some sections not quite right so be it, finish the draft, dont let nothing stop forward motion toward finishing the draft, until you got draft you got nothing, you not in the game

dont care what it looks like, get it out of your head and on
paper, (or digital, whatever) then we can work w/it

i beg your pardon? what? its hard, its tough - no shit sherlock
if hard scare you, you in the wrong game

3 work off an outline, arranges novel in your head, and its just a rough path, not written in stone, it changes everday you work, roughly follow it until youve written yourself past your understanding - recalibrate

production coaching been based on that process

i been flexible, some folk just dont work off outlines, edward p jones carried his novel in his
head x years then wrote it flat out, folk have different styles that they have to find

this as a starting place, to be refined as folk come into their own

coaching is designed to interface w/personality, production styles
and material they working on

another question level of monitoring, would close be
counterproductive - distractive, how close is close

answer always come back to personality and production style
adjusting to the individual, need to think this out per student

im gone, this been on my mind,
cause of that class

folk this dont interest i apologize

i hate boring folk

i got to go, feeling so pressed
so under the gun, so lord i got to

get my work done

all my love

rdoc

WEDNESDAY

awake pulled my coat on this one

so the missionaries are at it again, first they stealing babies because they know best of course what blackfolk need

now they trying to determine who eats and who doesnt

huffpost article about evangelical haitians being encouraged to attack voodoo ceremonies

by christian missionaries doing 'charity' work down in haiti

for folk who dont feel like reading the whole thing this is the money line:

"There's absolutely a heightened spiritual conflict between Christianity and Voodoo since the quake," said Pastor Frank Amedia of the Miami-based Touch Heaven Ministries who has been distributing food in Haiti and proselytizing. "We would give food to the needy in the short term but if they refused to give up Voodoo, I'm not sure we would continue to support them in the long term because we wouldn't want to perpetuate that practice. We equate it with witchcraft, which is contrary to the Gospel."

who are they to decide who eats and who doesnt

this narrow minded charity is reflective of an arrogance that thought stealing kids was the answer
to haitis problems and as yet doesnt understand why haitians are unhappy with their 'charity'

this take on christian charity strikes me as evil

i ask you, what would jesus do

as you know i have devoted much of my life and work to being a champion of afrospiritual practice

as for this assault on voodoo it has happened everytime the west has come calling, we will endure

my concern is not that voodoo is evil but that its weak and archaic, in need of reform

what i have been trying to do with my life and work is bring afrospiritual practice into the 21st century

make it a useful instrument of development, evolution and redemption for future generations

i aspire to prophecy - o wouldbe prophet of the hoodoo way

incidents like this focus me, work harder work smarter

i have in fact been working on my holybook this week
the hoodoo book of flowers: the great black book of generations

been trying to wait until i finished this novel to do that
but this novel taking forever and i just cant wait no longer

i could die tomorrow

so whenever im burnt out on novel and just cant do no more
thats when i clock an hour or so of the hoodoo book of flowers

for some reason, maybe because i worked the hoodoo book of flowers last night
im feeling my prophetic coming down on me now, im feeling the love

for everybody, i want to save the world

as some of you know, this novel is all about a failed hoodoo prophet - sound famliar?

still trying to manifest before he dies, resisting what i call the prophetic curse

the tendency to believe i know best, the temptation to take souls

just because you can (and always of course because its to their benefit to do what i tell them)

his task would be a lot easier if he allowed himself to take souls, to unleash his charismatic power

what those evangelicals doing, i consider that an abomination

i will not abide a thief of souls, especially me

on that note, best i clock some pages

all my love

rdoc

TUESDAY

okay, now we talking, apparently obama aint backing down

he put his healthcare proposal up monday and its basically

the same its always been -  strategy now seems try to get the house

to pass the senate bill then address house issues w/reconcilation

folk were afraid after scott brown obama and the dems would back down
and go for peanuts but obama a black man walking

thats the obama im willing to go to war with, im proud of him (today)

ima have to start reading those org for america emails again

thats nina shope sitting front row right at an obama benefit, nina one of my ex students and she been on it, remind me of myself back in the day, committed to working w/both hands

i been fussing at her not to let the politics subsume the work but im not really worried, nina serious
she gon get her work done, i just fuss at her cause thats my job, keeping my students focused when

they get out there into the big bad distracting world, just jacked up my boy clarence lai yesterday, i enjoyed that
clarence one of my special ones, like nina, that i refuse to let drift off the path

but i really respect what nina doing, she been steady, building that infrastructure of support that operate
24/7 instead of responding willy nilly in time of need like i been doing, she remind me of myself back when

i had discretionary time, she really excited about meeting the president, shaking his hand, all that - if he
knew how much power nina shope bring to the game he would have been excited about meeting her

also im likely to opt in for the overdraft fees thing, unfortunately im of the
overdraft brigade and if i do overdraft i want that covered but the thing

to do obviously is dont overdraft ever no more, thats going to be my goal this year, one of them
at least, not to overdraft ever more, always keep a couple hundred cushion in that account

i hate being blatantly taken advantage of by the banks like this, it offend me they
making so much money off me being slack, and that they enjoying it so much

im taking this personal

im out, im in the last 50 pages of this novel and its the worst narrative mud i can
ever remember slogging through, each para takes me a day or so looks like

god help me it takes mental toughness to just sit there struggling with the same para for days
but its no more than i ask of my students, whenever im faltering i remind myself of that, if they

can do it i can too, its hard to believe after almost 15 years of work im moving into closure
last 50 i might have to reconcept, just read thru them and they feel like junk, but still its progress

also my afroam novel class digging new forms course format, we gon get some drafts out of this
my wouldbe novel seminar, i drool at the very thought of making this work

got obama throwing down, novel coming into closure and enjoying the semester

i am really feeling the love, i am feeling the power, im full of good vibrations

let me leave you with a little fun: dont get mad at me now, im just the messenger
what do i know about sororities and step offs: but i do recognize irony when i see it

apparently zeta tau alpha won the sprit step off competition, took out the deltas
and the akas et al, i heard it wasnt no contest, folk had to give them their due

what is this world coming to

all my love

rdoc

Comments

[BuffaloSoldier]

THEY WERE TIRED OF THE HURT. BuffaloSoldier salutes Henrietta Lacks. Coming Soon: why I insist on calling Barack Hussein Obama the LionKing. Hint: I found the entire process, using the legitimate aspirations of BlackAmericas, to move a nonhistorical BlackMan to the forefront of the struggle, a Disney production. But a word on the Vodun. Haiti is under the gun for a very basic reason. IT BEAT THREE GREAT WESTERN POWERS and never, never apologized. FRANCE/SPAIN/ENGLAND. Think of a tiny country today beating AMERICA/CHINA/RUSSIA Then have the gaul(Yes,pun) to rub it in their faces by continuing to exist. After the quake, for example, the Haitians picked themselves up and there was the extraordinary scene of an outdoor barber. Let's not mention the number of people found alive two or three weeks later. This nation of the Vodun, a people who haven't copped out by trying to legitimize themselves by pretending only the BigThree religions can civilize, continues to impress And they're not demanding anyone other than one of their own to lead them. (Yes, slight dig) I'm BuffaloSoldier and I approve this message.

[nanakwame]

I will be waiting big brother finishing up something myself not a novel- Shay at BR justed posted a victory for Africville, Canada. Bravo Afro-Blues Folks