WEDNESDAY
rockyroad , nothing but drama last couple of days, this been a rough woodshed, perhapsthe roughest i recall, but then i suspect the current crises is always the worst ever
until you get over the hump, then it wasnt quite so bad, this parenting notion seems to
be nothing but a litany of regret and inadequacy, w/fleeting moments of satisfaction
in struggle
rdoc
MONDAY
ive hit a rough patch, slogging thru the narrative mud, not feeling very sociable right now
SUNDAY
after all these years of sweating this novel, worrying about whether it will ever work, wondering if i had a good, okay, a great
novel, in me - to finally be happy w/it, to enjoy working on it, it is a blessing that i dont take lightly
still might not be the great novel i would it be, still a struggle but this time im not leaving anything but good manuscript behind me,
before i would patch a narrative hole if thats what it took to keep going, this time its good manuscript that satisfies me
may not move anybody else but it moves me, makes all the difference in the world
rdoc
okay, did a decent days work yesterday, today i got to throw down
get some real momentum, in the zone momentum
found this interesting article on the value of rewrites, wrote earlier that mfa programs
dont teach how to write but how to rewrite, how to edit, saw that jeffersons 1st draft
of declaration of independence refers to americans as subjects, which he erased and
replaced with 'citizens' major change in thinking there, apparently he was so determined
to erase subjects that he literally tried to while other words he just crossed out, document folk
reently revealed the erased word under it, this is interesting to my literary soul on many levels
including the value of keeping drafts, ive got to get in touch with the computing folk at the job
there is no way for me to archive my emails on the job software and that wont do, writers dont
do letters any more, i got to archive my emails, hook or crook ive got to figure something out
i keep everything, every scrap of paper, you never know what will interest the little graduate student
circa 2050 or 3050 for that matter, i just throw them in one of those big plastic storage tubs and
stash them in the attic, okayim gone, i suspect this is not of interest to anybody but other writers
except for changing that word, subjects to citizens, that affected us all, god i love being a writer
the director of spiderman was asked was there anything he would have done differently, he replied
S.R.: What would I have done differently? I would have done everything differently, every single shot. I think in every picture that I’ve ever made. Everything that I’ve done torments me. I really would like another chance except I’d be too embarrassed to ever really try to do them again and no one would want to see the same movie just done differently.
i cant read earlier novels, if i cant make changes i dont want to read it, ive often fantasized about
rewriting them but i just couldnt stand the pain of rereading them, i couldnt take it
i look back on previous novels and its like damn i wish i could rewrite that thing, torment is the operable phrase here
in many ways this novel im writing now is just a better version of
my 1st novel, de mojo blues - this time i hope i got it right
look at the time, i got to go, one days work does not momentum make
in the name of the conqueror
rdoc
FRIDAY 12 noon: clocking pages, its all good
okay, enough fun and games, time to get back to work
if i was one of my students i would be looking at them askance now
okay, your mother died, i understand, she been dead what, a week now,
wouldnt she want you to get back to work, are you a writer or aint you
write about her if it bother you, thats what writers do
thats what i did
otherwise get back to work
i wouldnt actually say it but thats what id be thinking
i picked the manuscript up yesterday and looked at it, thats a beginning
im seriously behind now, i got to start kicking literary ass right now
its just a matter of focus, sit at the sacred desk and dont get up for 3 hours
yesterday bob gates call himself nudging me, he thought he was being subtle - not
he say you will get a substantial raise when that novel is done, that
was a very compelling argument, but no more than my own desperation
okay let me give you something so its not just me me me, you know i hate that
that graphic novel i got coming out w/the indian press got me looking at real graphics
ran across this one call bayou by jeremy love, its like a dark delta black alice in wonderland
or something of that sort, you can actually read it online but about halfway thru i put it down
and ordered it, reading it by page will be eaiser than online panels, but check it out, tell me
what you think - wow, just went to get link for you and its no longer up, absolute bummer,
it was deep reading - heres a promo blurb:
The year is 1933. Lee Wagstaff is a young African-American girl living in the racially tense town of Charon, Mississippi. After witnessing the abduction of her white playmate by a mysterious swamp creature, Lee finds her father accused of the kidnapping. To rescue both her friend and her father, Lee embarks on a quest into a frightening fantasy-filled world alongside Bayou, a green swamp monster with plenty of stature and plenty of heart.
if they put it back up i will let you know
it is now 8:30 am, there is no reason why i cannot give you a good report in 3 hours
none whatsoever
all my love
rdoc
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hello world
want to thank all the folk who have gotten in touch about my mother
been trying to get back in the groove, spent last couple of days just drifting
trip is that i knew family or health concerns were likely to throw me off my game
mama not doing well made it all the more likely
hopefully ive had all the hammer this summer can carry
now im seriously behind, and not feeling it
got to get back in the groove, get back to work
now im searching for that kick that will knock me back into the groove, that light in the darkness, something
to get me home, found this little gem on on a blog called sojourner in the 21st century, it just might do
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"Sometimes, through no conscious effort, I find myself in paradise. I am suffused with an awareness of the miracle of life, the richness and wonder of human endeavor... I feel lucky and strong and hopeful. Smile and song enliven my lips. My posture is perfect. I feel blessed.Earth Day 2009 was almost such an experience. The weather was gorgeous in New Orleans. I put on a favorite dress, grabbed some reading material and bicycled up to catch the streetcar, on my way to the French Quarter to work for/with the Crazy Lady I love. En route, I read the most recent issue of Oxford American and discovered Arthur Rickydoc Flowers' powerful article, "Race Man". Such great writing! In a magical fantasy world, my mind would have melded with my closest friends' in the moment, to allow them the enjoyable privilege of consuming this work. And I would have been embracing the friend who gave me the magazine. And I would have been pregnant with Flowers' child."
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now, thats what i call some damn good writing
you feeling me?
id like to get in touch with her, she sound like somebody i need to know
but id have to approach her delicately, wouldnt want her to think i got agendas
even w/o the honorable mention i was enjoying the read, i like her corn she like mine
the honorable mention put the icing on the cake, she a regulator, one of the folk on the planet
operate on the same wavelength, its not that many of you, i treasure each one i find,
its the regulators keep me going, keep me regulated
also they of a sensibility that regulate the world on a higher plane or something like that
my kind of people - rickydocs regulators
got that from starship troopers, where all the fighting units had such names
im a big believer in dubois talented tenth translated to my purposes, i figure
dont but 1 out of any 10 folk respond to your work on that harmonious plane,
the other 9 range from it dont move me to i hate your work and you too
but 1 out of 10 times all the folk on the planet is still a pretty good number, to ask for more is pure greed
just sent off another piece for oxford american that i enjoyed doingthey asked me to speculate on the future of the south, 2050
hoodoo prophecy, thats my turf, i came strong on them, sent if off this morning
w/hope that getting something off my plate will get me back in the writing groove
but im not feeling it, not at all, the power aint w/me,
guess i got to go with the flow for another day
maybe this evening i will get back to work, i sincerely hope so,
one never knows when the power switch will come back on
surely no more than a day or so, in the meantime rest for the weary,
of which there is none
all my love
rdoc
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