TUESDAY
well i finished the draft, i told a couple of folk i finished the novel
thats the way i felt yesterday, done, kaput, fini
man did i feel good yesterday, but now ive put it aside, i will pick it up
in a couple of weeks and see if it passes the cringe test
but now i recall that i thought the same thing back in june, finished a draft
and thought i was thru, dug back in and found myself wading thru mud
so i guess this time i will hold off on the party till i do
was reading where the supreme court ruling has gendered a 6 to 1 funding
advantage for republicans thru outside orgs that dont have to show their sources
this is really bad, thats a imbalance that will only grow more poisonous
and no way to change it because the republicans will never vote that one out
im gone, i got to do manuscripts
rdoc
SUNDAY
hello world, never guess who i ran up on yesterday, that scene i fudged when i was longhanding, it still needed longhanding, some scenes you can halfstep thru and the novel dont fall apart, some scenes they dont work and the novel fall apart, this scene got to work - but its like im fresh this time, been doing it all morning and i like what im coming up with - process, you got to love it
was thinking of some interim piece to send tbr, some commentary, show i think about things other than my work
but i dont have time for research or real thinking, maybe a quick string of commentary as blessings, maybe even get off some of my prophetic thing
did a presentation for the panafrican committee central newyork yesterday, had bought his medicine man cloak last time i was in the city, medicine packets, mirrors, the whole bit, i was going to give it its maidenrun for this presentation, i was nervous about appearing in front of an african audience in my medicine man coat but i figured it would be can i back it up and i knew my game was tight
and i like showing african audiences that african americans havent lost their licks, that we just putting some new moves on it
- if i do say so myself i threw down - and at one point was calling on the ancestors to come down with blessings
so im in a blessings state of mind, ima do a blessing for the blackworld
- rickydocs blessing on the sudan, in its coming refendum, see them through the rough times they are to endure
- a blessing on brother obama,, may his vision improve, may his game . . . something something somthing....
the congo - something something something
somalia - something something something
mugabe - something something something
haiti - something something something
what else, what other trouble spots in the blackworld, what about economic pain here, harlem - something something something
what about the blacks of india, europe, iraq, and cuba, where do i draw the line, i see this gon get twisty
you know what, i was just thinking about my last post, instead of a blessing for the blackworld, i need, from an evolutional perspective, in terms of widening my purview and deepening my power, do a blessing for the world
thats the strong move here, the critical blackworld issues will also be world issues
ima have to go w/the strong move, will have to do this later, im supposed to be longhanding, just get it started now, work it up over the next couple of days as free time allow, send it to tbr - then send them my piece on representing for my last post and thats a done deal
of the last post shaped this post so they will be out of sequence
whatever
rdoc
SATURDAY
clocking pages, slow but sure
that tbr guestblog thing is coming into a closure
got one more thing i want to do for them, a piece
on representing, being a black writer in the post racial 21st
ready to close down that shop but i been intending to leave them
with that high note, best i start working it out here
polish it up before i send it in about a week
first full disclosure
ima child of the 60s, blackpower, civilrights, blackartsmovement
a year of blackinization in the nam, studied with babajohn killens
and i come out of the militant wing of the southern black bourgie
where i come from racial custodianship a family tradition
taking care of blackfolk a sacred calling where i come from
i come out of that we all in this together world of pre civilrights -
that belief we are only as strong as our weakest
its just what i do, no if and or but - my understanding is to life life to its
fullest is to life a commited life, one of service
but in the postracial reality of the 21st century i often feel out of touch
when i speak out for blackfolk people look at me like im unsophisticated
like i didnt get the memo
i did get the oneworld memo, i acknowledge it the stronger reality
the reality of the future and every day i strive to master a oneworld
sensibility, to speak in my works for all humanity
when i was a young writer my whole constituency pretty much was black
but in my literary maturity my constituency is all over the place
thats my evolutionary track, universalizing
the tribal voice
but that dont mean ima leave blackfolk leaderless - visionless
all over the world blackfolk suffering, still last in every quality of life matrix
everywhere in the world that you got blackpeople they on the bottom of their respective society
cant blame everywhere on nobody else, somehow someway we must transform into strengths
the weaknesses that have crippled us in global oompetition
i got to work the tribal soul as only the high hoodoo can
accepting the oneworld reality as given mean statusquo, blackfolk as eternal bottomfeeders
that dont get it - not on my shift - o no no no no, im flipping that script, it is the
geas of rickydoc - aint gon never walk away from the plight of blackfolk in this world
so i had to figure out how to work with both hands,
how to take care of both my families, blackfolk and all humanity
i have addressed this ideological quandry by attempting to illuminate
and empower african american culture, make it a culture to which others
aspire and emulate, the magical negro basically
make sure that its one of the cultures that makes the oneworld cut, that it
is a substantial contributor to the common culture of the future
that way as i work on empowering and illuminating african american culture
im also empowering and iluminating all humanity
i know, its weak, its dicey, but it works for me, thats all i need
it dont have to work for you, it work for me
i can speak for blackfolk without being apologetic,
without feeling like the game has moved on w/o me
it is this attitude i have tried to bring to my time on the tbr stage
it has been a point of honor for me to do right by you
i am a sturdy voice of african american literature, the griotic wing
african american lit has been since its inception the voice of a
culture which has felt itself under mortal seige
determined to use the power of art and the word
to empower and illuminate, to function as guide and guardian of
the tribal soul and destiny
we have sent generations of warriors into this struggle
we will prevail
in the name of babajohn
all my love
rdoc
THURSDAY
good morning world, hope its as good in your world as it is in mine
i been doing my redpen and its turning into a quasi poetry draft
get thru this 30 pages or so and i will do the whole thing poetry
i love the poetry draft, the story is told, all you doing now is
working the poetry (and a couple of rough spots probably)
this is when one word, one phrase, can add layers of meaning
to the text
this is when weak passages repoetized become startling strong
this the draft i love, this when the 10 odd years of investment pay off
this the draft when it sing
got today and tomorrow strictly me and the work, may get the 30 done may not, depend on how fast i move and i generally move slow, but it is what it is - everything
good in my world - today i am blessed of the gods
rdoc
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