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if you ask me, obama snookered them right on into the briar patch

MONDAY

feeling kinda strange, sent manuscript out to ellen, to folk been waiting to see it

been a couple of weeks now and havent gotten any feedback, so now im freaking

is everybody embarrassed to tell me ima fraud, that my novel is a joke

i know it takes time to dig into a novel so hopefully im just freaking

ive had folk tell me its good so i shouldnt be freaking, but my fear is that they are my friends and didnt know how to tell me it stinks

to keep my mind off it i been doing all these backedup projects and thesis manuscripts

but yesterday i just couldnt take it anymore and i rewrote the final 3 pages based
on some of the feedback that i got in workshop, that felt good, had planned not to

get back onto novel until new years but there some things i know need to be done

and fixing problems will help me ignore these fears that i have finally proven for once and all that

i am not a contender, that i dont have a great even good novel in me, now everybody knows - ima farce

whats become clear to me, farce, is that ima have to hit it one more time (he hopes) one more summer
woodshed, so i might as well chill on the feedback question, its all process, rick and if it aint working now

i will make it work, just chill my brother, i will make it work, i will not take a no in this matter

and anytime you do anything, anytime you step out there and try anything, you embarrass yourself

only a few folk like your moves, everybody else think you a joke

so, might do a little touch up here and there, as the spirit move me, but mostly ima be working
other projects and chilling, this will be a time out for me, and i will try to restrain the freakout

the only thing thats certain at this point is that i have embarrassed myself, but better i embarrass
myself with folk who care for me than with the whole world, its all process, rick, hangtough

i will be in fact embarrassed with what ive exposed in that novel until the day i die

comes with the territory rick, this what you asked for, to be a player

i have been immersed in the blues lately, listening to like a 24 hour diet of new blues
couple of weeks now, its been kinda amazing and remind me how much i love

the blues, been working on this mlk presentation w/my kalimba, im going to write me 3 or 4

blues songs and learn them as part of my repertoire, ima get into that, and you know one thing

ive learned, whenever any musician of any sort does something funky and soulful, they call it a blues

their something something blues

im out

rdoc

FRIDAY

this what im thinking, im thinking the the dems playing it, that if the repubs decided obama
has snookered them, which i believe he has, they would revert to the party of no and wreck

the deal, the dems by playing hurt gives obama room to play his game, thats what im talking about

he needed a stimulus for the economy and he got it by dangling one of the repubs sacred cows, protect the
rich, in their greedy faces, now the left need to keep howling like they doing until we got the repubs full on

into the briar patch, game is on

THURSDAY

okay, so this is whats happening,

im finally starting to feel how to perform that book, i told you they sent me a scroll version right, they were saying use this in performance arthur and im saying i cant do your thing i got to do mine, thas what im thinking but then i think well send me the scroll because im realizing i would have a piece of traditional art that was my book and thats real cool, so they sent me the scroll

and its some kind of beautiful

and i say im afraid to tote this around and they say art its stronger than it looks and thats what the traditional artists do, they use it for decades, pass it on even, and tara books trying to get fullbright to send me ot india for a booktour and i know they expect me to 'use' that scroll so anyway

they also sent me these links on how its done

also a link about their other patua book - tsunami

this got me to thinking, and im thinking promotion of that book and tara press setting up all these book launch readings and im talking to a bengali woman from calcutta yesterday and she telling me how the patua are at the calcutta book fair (which ive been to by the way) and something i been perculating in my head went off

sing the book

this is deep, ive never attempted something like that in performance, sing the whole thing, storysong voice

so i start working on it this morning and as im working on it i realize what im really doing here is singing a story of african american struggle culminating in king and the civil rights movement, singing it thru vehicle of kings life but its really about africanamerican struggle and i get to get off all my little destinygames i play in the text

and i will use how the book came about and what it means to me and to tara press and manu

as the audience patter, also tell what being part of the struggle means to me, o this is going to be good

this is going to be real real good

i suspect you recognize cassandra wilson, delta songbird

all my love

rdoc

WEDNESDAY

hello world, my 2nd year critiqued my novel, i suspect they went easy on me
didnt want to see me crack under pressure, that would have been unseemly

they put a lot on my mind, addressed some problems
i knew were problematic and some that i didnt,

i knew they would help me get to higher ground, make my novel stronger

thats worth a little embarassment anyday, thats good looking out, damn good crew

ellen has had my manuscript for a couple of weeks now, that means she digging into it
suggesting changes, neither a this stinks, arthur, or this is the greatest novel ever, wouldna took this long
abolutes they get right back at you, no questions whatsoever

unfortunate but im already understanding ima have to hit it again full court, workshop made that clear
so now i guess we looking at the end of next summer, same as always, but ima leave it untouched until

next year i believe while i digest all the feedback i will be getting, catch up on a couple of projects

im inclined to accept obamas tax cut deal as the best we can get under the circumstances
im inclined to accept the backdoor stimulus argument as the best we can get

i hope the dems are able to jack up the estate tax a little more, and to demand rise in debt ceiling
as part of the deal otherwise the repubs will be jacking obama up again in about a month or so

im wondering why the dems freaking on him, they know the deal, im thinking maybe they pulling the
old martin/malcolm trick to give obama enuf room to cut the deal, and maybe jack the repubs a little

im disappointed but one thing obama has made abundantly clear is that he will play this his way
his game his way, might not be the way that id play it but ima have to accept him for who he is

i believe obamas heart is right and he will do what he can for the cause under fierce constraints
ima call him out when i think he wrong but ima give him room to play his game, go on player, do your thing

that criminal up there is rosa parks, a menace to society wouldnt you say

all my love

rdoc

 

WHO KNOWS WHAT DAY THIS WAS

hello world, sent that manuscript on off to ellen, chilled her out, so now im waiting
really enjoyed delinearing that novel, just the first of the narrative games ima play

now that i got room to play, been taking care of business cause i feel freed up

look here, i love this piece by andy bey, called celestial blues, my mystic thing

on a heaping plate of blues, whats not to love

 

 

 

SUNDAY 9pm: took all of 20 minutes to do the mix: ima skim it to check the logic of the new flow, but my agent was unhappy w/me when i told her to wait, well maybe disappointed is a betterword, ima send this off 1st thing in the morning so its at her desk when she arrive

SUNDAY 9am:  so, ima spend the next couple of days just throwing that novel into the air and seeing where it fall, ima enjoy this

ashwin thoughts from kaylas blog: what stories do

two su mfa alum: ashwin and kayla, were conversing on her blog, what stories do

this what ashwin had to say:  (i reallly have to do a su mfa facebook page)

 

I think you've said something in that good fiction - or any art, really - teaches us how to see. It's for that reason it's difficult - or perhaps futile - to assign criteria (as Gardner does) to any art form. Because the criteria is always external to the inherent need of the artist to express himself. No one can fit his world, his inner life, into the categories or options offered to him by the external one already consuming him. The true artist is always under assault. If the external world - and what it has to offer - was satisfatory, there would be no need, no inherent need, that is, to create. Every man and woman should be free. To express themselves in line with their conscience, which is their inner life. Gardner's code of conduct is the most undemocratic, damaging, set of instructions offered to any artist, anyone striving, within themselves, to be free. Listening to him, or anyone like him, is falling to the selfish need to be heard, instead of engaging in the more worthy pursuit of discovering how to speak. Or as one of our professors once said, sing. How can anyone teach you how to sing? Gandhi once said, "All true art is thus the expression of the soul. The outward forms have value only in so far as they are the expression of the inner spirit of man." Gardner's guidlines are merely suggestions for outward forms" of fiction. But what you've said, in that flipping open a book to see the prose, IS, to me, the search for the inner life of the author, and how that inner life is expressed. That's just what I think. I may be wrong. One of the damaging things about the professionalization of writing, or fiction, in our country, is that we often forget that fiction, while containing it's own techniques and logic, is a form - a true, open, liberating form -of freedom. And that freedom, when the individual is left to his own doings, his own conscience, discovers it's own logic and technique in the pursuit of something not yet known. You've mentioned that you don't know EVERYTHING. Well I second that, and find no value in knowledge sought for the purpose of ownership, or even worse, power. There is no power in knowledge. There is only freedom. The acquisition of knowledge gives us - should we listen to our conscience and the inner life in the process of obtaining that knowledge - the license to express it in accordance with our own, individual, path. Gardner is for the birds man. And so is any false prophet who claims they may teach you how to be your own man, your own woman, your own artist, your own liberated soul. Faulkner once said, "I never know what I think about something until I read what I've written about it." I think anyone fortunate to have been born free - as most of us are, in America - should understand that we have the very rare gift of expression, thought, and creative license. What a tragedy it is, I think, to sell that to anyone who has a very narrow understanding of what moves the soul. Usually, in our day, those people are called publishers. But that's a little too dramatic. You've mentioned the importance of the sentence. Now, who can teach you how to write the sentence you MUST write? Well there's probably a few deluded nuts who'd raise their hands at that one, but I think that it's always the last thing we'd ever really say which is what we need to say first. The final cry. And what prescription can you give me to mend that wound? I'll have to make it with my own hands, digging into myself, until I have nothing left. That's our gift, I believe, in America. To be able to do that unapologetically. We compromise our birthright from the moment we lend ourselves to taking guidance from those who offer solutions in nuts and bolts. Forms. Figures. Prescriptions. There are moments of clarity offered us, however, by those who haven't succumbed - and never will - to the dictates of false prophets. Some of them, you've mentioned on your blog. They aren't saints. Better yet, they're human. They choose the inner life - messy, raw, unnamable - over the very static laws offered to them by lesser men. These writers - or any such artist - or no other reason than being in possesion of the need to express themselves in accordance with their own vision, allow us - as you've said - to see.

Sincerely, Ashwin

holding on

LATER SUNDAY

so, now waiting for agent to get back to me, serious trepidation, got to do what i tell my students, dont wait around, do something else, keep working

just came up with idea thats going to restructure novel, basic narr strat before was to let the novel get more intense as it went on so i got this historical riff that starts about halfway thru but i was just thinking why wait

why think linear when so much of novel doesnt, ima start the historical riff earlier, weave it while i weave the contemporary riff and just let the connection become clear later on, this will cause novel to be a little more challenging but whats wrong w/challenging, it will keep the interest up, i want this work to be riveting

this what im thinking now, might be thinking diff tomorrow because right now im not doing anything, im just thinking

SUNDAY

okay, finished another draft and i need to look over those last 10 pages and clean them up but you know what, im not going to do it, im done, ive done about 5 full drafts this year, they are coming quicker now

and each time i think im done, then i read it and what i think will be a touch up becomes a real rewrite

each time it makes it a better novel so its all good, in fact i think the key next phase  is to get as many rewrites as possible in while its going through feedback/editorial process,

this next rewrite ima concentrate on narrative games, now that i got my storyline down, story is always primary with me, now i can play games,

but the question of the moment is will i start reading thru it again and end up holding onto it till the end of the year - one more rewrite, it will be a better novel if i do

or will i just send it to ellen as is, and the answer is as is, im tired of it, just tired of it

got to close down the semester, take care of work/obligations i been stonewalling all year

so in the name of zora neale, dont she look sassy here, im pushing the send button RIGHT NOW

. . . .

DONE DEAL  11/29/10  12:05 am monday morning

 

 

SATURDAY - man i am just burnt out, down to last 7 pages or so and just cant dredge up the focus

im just tired of this thing, bone weary tired of it, ima keep struggling to get thru but whatever not done

by monday dont get done, ima send it off, im tired of it

so a little while back i was on the bus to campus, standing room only, im standing and this cuddly little coed sitting in front of me is staring up at me w/acute fascination and im thinking alright, old boy stil got it, when

she finally gets her nerve up, leans forward and says, excuse me sir, would you like to sit

so thats what its come to  -  im out

rdoc

 

 

MONDAY, still working, the endgame is always rougher, always harder, im wading thru mud, but its a
much better novel, i got no complaints, what i need to do is stop wolfing, thats what i need to do

SUNDAY, hello world, ima finish this thing today, by god and all thats holy i am, im tired of this, im tired of this space, i been crunching, airplane, airport, every spare moment i been crunching, got home last night crunched some more, woke up this morning crunching, i feel like wulfie in the deathwork scene amadeus, aint nothing stopping this partyrock, do or die im done

SATURDAY

afroam music and vietnam panel yesterday was momentus, was on stage wth local percussionist stubbleforth and memphis soul legend, william i forgot to be your lover bell,

i spent half my allotted time gushing, i offered at one point to do his autobio for him but later i came to my senses and thought to myself have you lost your mind

i did so much gushing i suspect he dont realize im as diffident in my world as he is in his

and i sincerely hope he decides not to follow thru on my offer, i will not push it, i will do it if he does but i will not push it  -  was prepared for

presentation but the format was casual conversation, i was kinda the odd man out, they were older guys and before 68, which was a point when the black experience in vietnam hardened, also they were entertainers who went in for shows, though bell was also a medivac (61-62) based in germany who spoke of picking up wounded so im not clear his role, stubbleforth was drummer for jamesbrown tour in 66

so im talking about blackinzation and the tensions between black and white troops, between soldiers and officers and how the black music of the era reflected the new assertive blackness of black culture at the time and provided the blackinization soundtrack and they were takling kumbaya, how the music brought everybody together and that wasnt necessarily

the case, also there was a lot of war never solves anything coming from them and i ventured that actually
war often solves things, would they suggest we never warred with hitler, or the north w/south in civilwar

it distressed me to come off like a war monger but i was trying to say something like war there are nuances
and you cant just prattle what sounds good if you making serious analysis, i said you try to ensure just war

and i said i consider war a failure of policy, a failture of game, game should be designed to make actual war unneccesary

but as you know dear regulators i consider myself a warrior, a righteous warrior of course but still a warrior
and a pragmatist willing to look at the darker corners of the human condition, but then ima novelist

and my geas is truth always truth, the place where the symposium is being held, the wisconsin veterans museum, is an interesting institution, that kept making distinction they about soldiers not war

and our panel was held in this hall jutting out over the lake, ive had some really good meals, indian, nepalese

been hanging tough with craig and his u mad crew, cosponsors and where i did the gig

i like this town, but im ready to be back in the cuse, i have pretty much lost this weekend for the crunch
im really enjoying this enrichment draft because its making the novel cleaner and i like that, will not read

it thru no more, when im done i will just send it off, (or will i, should i wait until i have that session w/2nd years, i dont think i can, may have to just file their responses until i get all my feedbacks then do the next draft but i know they will point out things ima want to incorporate right away, it just never ends . . . .)

i believe on that note ima get back to work, i will cross those other bridges when i get to it
but i need to get as far as i can this week so next weekend for sure (damn, thanksgiving, i just

cant get a break, ima have to throwdown, i need to be damn near thru by monday, im out

FRIDAY

hello world, well here i am, univ of wisc madison, did my gig, and kicked that colds ass
it kinda amaze me sometime when i do the will power thing,i love having a magical will

i cant move everything but i can move a lot more than most folk can

the symposium has been much more interesting than i anticipated, the music of the vietnam war

talking about taking me back - had a presentation of nam music yesterday and im like 18 again

talking about we got to get out of this place by the animals, joy to the world i remember singing on a convoy
a line of trucks as far as you can see and me sitting guardduty on top of one of them in the open air

and everybody in the convoy was singing joy to the world, and you could hear it all up and down the convoy, must have been 100 of us, it was an otherworldy moment, and i dont remember how that came about

but everytime i hear joy to the world i remember that moment, and the, well, joy of it, ah youth, so my panel is later today

africanamerican music and vietnam, dont have the faintest idea of what i will say, i remember i had an 8 track in nam and 6 tapes, ocsmith god didnt make little green apples, the temptations in a mellow mood, a glady knight, a bill withers, the chambers brothers and a nancy wilson - that 8 track got me thru nam, but the

album that most speaks to me about that era and time im my life is whats going on by marvin gaye, i had just got out the army and was in knoxville w/brenda burns, stretched out on her dormroom floor ut knoxville blasted out of my mind when those initial strains of whats going on came on and marvin gaye asked me personally, whats going on, brother

it transported me

and you might remember how innovative it was then, how utterly different, how utterly committed it
was and how the songs sequed right into the next so it never let you go and it took me on a magic

carpet ride from which i have yet to deplane, ive always regretted the premature death of marvin gaye

but whats going on was the piece that makes an artists life and struggles worth it all, long live marvin

well, best i get some work done on my own wouldbe masterpiece
if my novel can kick it like whats going on i will be satisfied

 

all my love

rdoc

WEDNESDAY

working hard on novel, woodshed focus, clocking pages, got the world on hold cause i want to finish this this weekend

supposed to be going to this gig at univ of wisc tomorrow, have had a bad cold and my body/will (& memphis medicinal magictea) is at war with it because im very oldschool theatre when it comes to my gigs, the show will go on and i will not be hacking and coughing thru my act and typhoid marying folk, i will not -  god, you got to speak to whoever it is you got to speak to because i dont have time for this, trying to do your will, lord, work with me - please

(i added that please because i decided talking shit to god wasnt very smart before i got on this airplane, i can hear god now, you talking kinda tough to me aint you boy, i tell you what about i bring that plane down in those cornfields, then your problems be solved right, will that satisfy you mr flowers - well perhaps i was a little hasty in my phrasing, did i forget to add, good lord willing and the creek dont rise - my bad)

done deal: i can live with this, or die w/it as the case may be

TUESDAY

got about halfway thru novel last weekend so im in a good space
supposed to be going to univ of wisc madison this week for a symposium

on vietvets and music? im not quite sure what thats going to be, craig werner
is the convenor and craig does good academic mixes so it should be interesting

he asked me sometime back for a piece on what music has meant to me as a vet and i wrote
how the first thing i heard coming back to the world was the album whats going on by marvin gaye

and it blew my mind, it was like he wrote that specially for me

was reading about this blogger who got beat almost to death in russia for skewering authorities
and was reading about this blogger on the west bank who got arrested for thinking online

and it once again makes me conscious of just how hard it is to be a writer in so many places around the world
only penalty for thinking here is not getting paid, or low readership, same thing

im out

rdoc

SATURDAY

hello world, im feeling kinda mellow, working on what im now calling the enrichment draft
and its kinda a fundraft, just cant cut the time because of schoolhouse but such is life

got a new book out that is strange and perhaps luminous like i like my work to be
and finishing a novel i been working on for 10 brutal years - im in a fair to middling space

i have decided to ask my 2nd yr workshop to critique my novel, that will severly embarrass me
but they a sharp bunch, i respect their literary opinions, it will make my novel a stronger work

and you know what i think about that - i am however going to wait until the last class
this will be an inevitable loss of gravitas, they will see the professor is not quite as

infallible as i like to imply - the inevitable cost of grace

they will enjoy jumping the old man, other day i nuked one, asked him in workshop what does your
novel say about the human condition - he say he very eager to return the favor, i like my students

they so sincere

i grow as much in my interactions w/them as hopefully they do w/me
its unfortunate i dont give them the time i should, what can i say, ima

desperate man, god help me i got to get my work done, im the slowest writer in america

was thinking of whats likely in new political dynamic: defending the healthcare reform is one
for what it cost us that weak little reform is under major assault, its unfortunate isnt it that the

repubs have latched onto this defund the government thread as a major part of their ideology
weaken the government, that appear foolish by definition, the world will not be kind to a crippled america

i feel about this like i felt about blackfolk and reparations, who thought of this

reparations was a distraction, i remember being excommunicated when i suggested that back when
and im glad to see reparations has faded away, whoever came up w/begging whitefolk as a strategy

ought to be shame

longgame strategies should be designed to transform you into the people you want most to be
all reparations did was teach us to be better beggars, what kind of strategy is that -  for shame

when it come to shaping generations reparations was just a diversion
that wasnt the kind of generations i need my people to be

im the name of the conqueror im out

all my love

rdoc

 

 

THURSDAY

sorry to report still working on this novel, doing one last read thru before i send it off

hope to be thru with this this weekend, good lord willing and the creek dont rise

im comfortable with this, its the outside world pushing me, but im of the line of o killens

and john o used to hammer into us, future generations wont have anything but your novel
they wont care that you are under financial pressure, tenure or ego pressure, your novel is eternal

be patient, give it whatever time it takes  -  i live by that understanding, two weeks will make it
a stronger richer novel, and i will pay any cost for a stronger richer novel, thats how i roll

this is like the enrichment draft,

but the novel itself a done deal, i just want it to be stronger, but at this late point in my career/life when i
start a novel project that i know will take a decade or more your big concern is dying before its done

ive reached that point with this one where its a done deal and thats a big relief off my soul
there are some things i can do to it to make it better, and i will after feedback/editorial discussions

but ive finally reached the point with this novel where i can live with it as my legacy as is

or rather die with it as the case may be

in the name of the conqueror, its a done deal

 

just voted, who the man, you the man

MONDAY

ima assume that obama is going to back pelosis play, she certainly backed his

and in doing so lost her historic speakership, he value loyalty so much he
wouldnt support the dem over the repub who supported him doing his run

well pelosi went to the wall for him, ima see how much loyalty he got when it cost him

far as im concerned its pelosi do or die

rdoc

 

SATURDAY

so im at the reading, standing room only, in walks adam with his cronies, eric and yagoda and my heart is full seeing them in their maturity,

they no longer the boys they were when they were here, they men now, full grown literati, adam handled the crowd like a master, he brought honor to the unit - the cuse mob was in the house

eric was updating me on becky and torday and tebordo and it was good catching up w/them

i have for sometime now been contemplating doing an mfa su alum facebook page because it distress that our cohorts dont know each other, parker dont know adam, adam dont know kayla and none of them know mildred and so forth and so on

they only know the 2 cohorts ahead and behind and we got so many strong folk out there now a little crossfertilization would be a very good thing, ima have to move on that

then of course the questions come, open to all or just su mfa folk being the biggie, i will think about it

some more, ie stall its the hassle of getting all those names together that cause me to hesitate, exhorting folk to be part of it, and i assume it would be a maintenance forever thing,  and i will be chargrined if nobody responds to the call - but i been saying ima do this for a couple of years now and everytime we get a new cohort in i think about it, sometime this week ima move on that,

rdoc

 

 

FRIDAY

okay, i think ive recovered enuf to start pontificating again
supposed to be doing that last read thru of rest for the weary and have not started,

hopefully i will focus today, want to run down to the city because my boy adam levin
is reading in brooklyn, but i should work instead, have to decide in next

couple of hours, i been back and forth with it, im going im not going, im going im not going

okay, the election, i just dont know, so much of how we finesse this depends
on what obama does and its difficult to call obama, he is being pushed to

compromise with repubs and im thinking compromise more than he already has?
so he talking compromise and they still talking implacable opposition so i kinda

dont know what the short run is going to be

dont know what the longrun is either, the old wouldbe prophet is stumped
i know what i want but i dont know if that is how it will play, the american public

is in a strange space, economic recovery is critical, but how to do it if the repubs
are determined that obama admin be a failure, and if we do get economic recovery

in next couple of years it will entrench the 2010 cohort, also redistricting has been given
over to the repubs, hard to see the silver lining in this one, i have to remind myself when

you lose an election it feels like the end of the world but weve lost important elections before

and survived them

one good trend is that hispanics stood firm in the west, all that demonizing by angle
and assorted arizonian played off in hispanic resistance, what else, usually im pretty

confident in my projections but maybe im still shellshocked or something, the old conjureman

dont like not being able to see, perhaps its a sign i should concentrate on finishing my novel

i think too that im going to the city, i want to see adam, i want to see the su mfa contingent
in the ci ty, which i assume will come out for adam, and i think i need a break, i need a nyc break

ima roll, and when i get there i might find some of my old haunts and get started on this read thru

im about two steps away from the blues, nyc run might be what the old rootdoctor ordered

rdoc

 

 

 

THURSDAY

so this what it means to have a grown up president

 

 

i been so discouraged i havent been looking at the news, which is deep because ima news junky
but if obama can take the punch i guess i can too,

was telling nana that i am even more determined to support obama now than i was before, its like we been thru the fire together and i like the way he handled himself

feel like im back in the nam, me and you brother, against the world

a luta continua

rdoc

WEDNESDAY

so on facebook a buddy of mine, adam banks, was defending the black vote
preemptive calling out the pundits who are going to diss the black vote today

i replied that i dont know thats helpful, i havent seen the stats yet but if blackfolk stepped up i will be surprised, i suspect we did better than past throwdowns but not by much,

rather than defensively rail about perceptions best we focus on the consciousness raising we all know is crucially called for when it comes to blackfolk, an ongoing struggle, best we resolve to start shaping up for 2012 and beyond, this was just the preliminary round

i should clarify maybe, there are so many issues that we have to address as blackpeople that we have to first ackwnowledge are issues, and kind of face facts unflinchingly if we are to flip them, blackpeople dont vote and if they did it would make a huge difference in our condition and influence on american policy in the world,

thats something we got to systematically attack rather than try to beg for it in the crunch, and i feel like in order to address that condition we 1st got to acknowledge, somehow we got to facilitate and institutionalize electoral consciousness, got to add it to the long list of we gottas

that said if folk try to dump on black voters i would support making the case otherwise, as a strategic move, not a passionate one, not one we actually convince ourselves to believe

i got to go, i got manuscripts to read
and i would like to start that last read thru

i should be more disappointed about the election

but its no more than i expected, a luta continua

rdoc

 

TUESDAY

just voted, had to stand in line (okay just two people but still that was encouraging regards turnout today
but this is an academic district, i expected no less, if the academics dont understand how important this

election is we're doomed, doomed i tell you