SUNDAY
so i been working with the son of an old family friend, i was there the night he was born, the boy is family to me, so he approached me as so many sons and daughters of my comrades have, i would like to be a writer,
but unlike many of them he actually followed my advice and wrote a novel, i tell them all, look, just write it, that 1st draft, dont judge it, dont spend months perfecting one sentence or a chapter, just write the whole
damn thing, then we got something to work with, till you get it out of your head and on paper we got nothing to work with & he did it, actually hes written two, 1st one was a little too personal, you know how 1st novels can be
so he wrote another one now what you got to understand is that boy got a real job saving the planet
still making time to write manuscripts, im just as proud of him as i can be, but when i gave him my response to that last one i was very demanding, i always am, folk trying to write and i agree to give them feedback its
like a holy commitment to me, this my religion, the craft and passing it on, i got to give them my best and call them to their best, so i was hard on him, i got to be, i care for him, i dont want him to waste his time/life
floundering around in the wilderness because i didnt give him good guidance, this go for all my students
and folk im training on the blackhandside doubly so, but then i dont hear from him for some months and
im thinking i blew it, im thinking i scared him off, then i get a terse little email - the rewrite is tough tough going -
and im tickled now, because that mean he on it, this what i wrote him:
im just glad to hear you hitting it, you always scare me when i dont hear from you after a response, im always afraid i have scared you off, you know i got to come hard on you because i want you to be primetime, i want you to be the real thing, like sekou say in mandela, you our legacy, we dreamed you, i got faith in you and because you got a real job and dont have time to do the mfa thing we got to give you mfa training on the black hand side, same way we used to do it in the oldschool, if you ever can squeeze out 3 years we need to get you in a mfa program somewhere, get you some real training, if not then we will have to do it oldschool and its my intent that you be competitive with anybody out there, you been trained by flowers and it dont come no stronger than that, you see what im saying - and there is a literary sensibility that we been working with too, i got to make sure you thinking on the highplane, that you going deep, see - we gon do this my brother, the only thing that will keep us from winning this game is if you quit - you got the talent, you got the heart and you obviously got the drive, we gon do this - and rewrite is always hard if you going for higherground, whole damn thing is hard (writing) - buddy of mine once said if it was easy everybody would go down the street and get some, but youve alraedy shown you got the heart, youve done two manuscripts and even mfas a lot of them dont get that far, i been helping folk make books now for 40 years or so, i know when i got a winner on my hands, and that you family makes it even more special, we gon do this
THURSDAY
in case anybody is confused about what this debt struggle is about, trump made it clear the other day:
"Unless Republicans get 100% of what they want -- and that may include getting rid of 'Obamacare,' which is a total disaster -- they should not make a deal other than a minor extension which would take you before the elections which would ensure that Obama doesn't get elected, which would be a great thing. ... The Republicans have the leverage. I don't care about polls. When it comes time to default, they're not going to remember any of the Republicans' names. They are going to remember in history books one name, and that's Obama."
probably the one thing obama wont compromise on - getting reelected,
i say drop the 14th, if default is as much a crises as you say it is
WEDNESDAY
got my first rejection, crushed me, the editor i wanted most to work with - basic reasons, too
strange, not commercial enuf, last book almost 20 years ago, etc etc
it was a dash of cold water, i been thinking the litworld was going to line up for this one - apparently not,
i was hoping i would get some respect this time, now i fear i will continue to be marginal 2nd string writer
when the lineup of the writers of our times are called im not on the list, never invited to anything, books out of
print, i dont get paid, etc etc, i really hope this novel is going to change all that, also it cause me to doubt the
work - its so strange i cant judge it, its either a masterpiece or a farce, im betting masterpiece, but i fear farce
ima have to do what im always telling my students to do - be patient, let the process play out, keep working
FRIDAY manuscript making rounds, pray for me
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