on the nature of the longgame

TUESDAY 6:35 AM:  90:84 of 115  at 84 only one page behind but starting day 5 pgs in hole, need 90 by days end

so actually 6 in the hole, so be it, step by step, word by word, its trench warfare seperate the writers from the dilletantes

gingrich is frightening aint he, he plays those base resentment codes much too well but i
still think he best foil for obama, i cant imagine him winning, romney i can - problem

of course is that you can never underestimate the american publics capacity for self destruction

i got to go, i got 6 pages need doing, only reason i stopped rolling at 84 was i hit a wall - thats still waiting
sometime when you get up in the morming and look at a wall fresh its not as bad as you feared, or you

lower your standards - my standards are getting a little more flexible everyday, im not going to miss my deadline

i man do not play that, a week or two behind i still count that as deadline, often thats when i get serious/ie
desperate -  a week or two i will accept, no mas - i do not miss deadlines, ima professional thru & thru

SUNDAY:  85:71 OF 115

ok, back in the saddle, clocked 11 pages yesterday, actually one day does not back in the saddle make
but im thinking positive, also coming into play is my system, thats partly why i have those 2 days a week off

for catch up purposes, falling behind ocassionally is unfortunately part of the deal when you daily deadlining
3 sentences, (or is that 4) ohwell, bes like that sometime -

also something i came up w/yesterday i have to play with, clarify and gain mastery over it , so i can
use it systematically in my texts, because i like to do it adhoc & making adhoc explicit is always good:

cascading trickeration - incongruent narrative conjunctions that make for intuitive revelation, back to back & breathless, every phrase, every word blowing the readers mind, expanding it relentless w/layers of speculative meaning, & understanding, o wow

found these two musicians when nyt had review of olatuja, and on one cut he was singing w/eska, so i hunted her down too, they both been added to rickydocs cosmic playlist, give you olatuja tomorrow - its all about pacing

you know one of the things i love about obama, he go against the blackfolk as loud and huffy puffy w/no followtru trope
as you know dear regulators de old spiritdoctor been trying to work the black soul/psyche - culture for the more pedestrian inclined - transform its weaknesses into strength

obama is a good example of the new blackfolk that im trying to forge:  he quiet, he deadly,
serious about his longgame, serious about taking care of business, a new model of blackness

for our youngsters, thats what im talking about 

 

 

 

SATURDAY  85:62 of 115

 hello world, as you may have noticed ive been in an unproductive funk last week or so, so it may
have been the best time, depending on how i respond to it, to receive the following 'fan' email:

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uh, mr hoodoo man,

it's been a very long time since i've visited your rootsblog website. to be honest, i really got tired of waiting for you to finish your book. pardon me if a little bit of my frustration, really anger, are reflected in my words. but, Mojo Rising: Confessions of a 21st Century Conjureman, 1 used on amazon.com for $150? WTF! W...T...F?

i really want to give u the benefit of the doubt, because i can't conjure up a reasonable explanation for the above situation. do u have a book publishing or book distribution problem? really, in the digital age of 2012? uh, ebook, Kindle book, or even old school paperback in your longgame?

how are you going to influence a generation of black folks with 1 used on amazon.com for $150? any other hidden back alleys where i may purchase your priceless tome?

and i won't even get started on De Mojo Blues. one of the best books i ever read. let's see, hmm, that was back around 1986. a story left unfinished, no muthaf..k..g sequel yet? 2012? shit, you could have made a harry potter-like series out of that. yea, u really hurt my spirit on that one mr hoodoo man. i still haven't recovered.

again, pardon my words, i must be a vessel dem bones are speaking through. cuz, what they're telling me is that your longgame is now a shortgame,

shake, shake...

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ok, where do i start - one, aint nobody more frustrated than me that this novel not done - so thats that

two, i try to keep production commentary down to 1st two sentences per post, then move on to commentary

so hopefully there is a little more substance to the ride than me me me, but in the final analysis
im all about constructing an artistic online avatar/traveling spirit & deep me is all about production

a struggle every wouldbe writer must engage and win

im just trying to make the ride interesting, the old enjoy the journey bit -  trying to shape the
production commentary so it will be useful guidance for any youngster struggling w/production

but ima have to tell you, like wolfie in amadeus, ultimately this is not for you, its for future generations
who hopefully will want to study and understand my process, the struggle of I man working out my legacy

as for distribution issues, just dont have time to fuck with it, every discretionary moment goes into novel

when i finish (and sell) this manuscript, hopefully this woodshed, then i will have time/focus to do a lot of

backed up stuff, including digitizing (as in cuttingedge hypertext) RFTW, but i just got to be patient,

fact that all my books out of print fuck w/my head a lot more than it fuck with his

got to stick to my longgame not matter what it look like to the public,
folk got to trust me, and if you dont trust me, fuck you too

i have to say this missive rocked me some - its value depends on how i use it, do i use it to get back in the saddle or do

i let it depress me further  -  its got to be the saddle, full of righteous i will show you fury - start slow rick, 3 hours a day

ok, is that it - o no, 1 copy of mojo rising: $150 dollars, i think thats kinda cute actually, 1 because that book is
dated and i actually rather folk not read it, it embarrasses me, i plan to update it this break - patience puppy

then publish it myself, that one ima keep as mine, full control - im not giving that one to the industry

two i like having a book thats so rare and valued its an investment opportunity, i kinda like that, since its
not apparently ever going to be a best seller (or even in print?) might as well go with the red door

and as for speaking to future generations who cant afford $150, or even $5, what the hell do you think im doing here

wasting time i could be working on RFTW is what, of which this post has used more than 2 sentences

hopefully i will be able to add some commentary later, for right now i got to get back to work - frustration?
man you dont know the meaning of the word frustration, had to work on my cv today, thought about how

ive given the last decade of my life to this novel, (really two but we not going there) had to take c.v. into the
office today and a colleague said hey arthur, i hear you having trouble letting that novel go, whats wrong

insert big sigh here 

(i also experiment w/narrative licks here that end up in novel basically, like that little lick just then, ima use that one - insert big sigh here - o that was smooth rick, god i do so love to play - whoa, i believe that was another lick, rick, a boom shaka laka of cascading trickeration - how deep can you go, rick, how many layers can you put in a text, a word, thats what i want to know, just how good are you, i mean really . . .)

i been working on this novel fullcourt for a decade now, folk starting to look at me like my name is ellison
i remember my 1st novel, 13 years, folk took to calling it, the phantom - hey art, how is the phantom coming

ha ha

fuck it, i got to get back to work, just put the world out of your mind rick, remember what babajohn said:
future generations will not care about the pressures on you, they will not care about bills, tenure, or your ego

all they will have is the work, make it count, do your best

as for the fan i will tell him thanks for the kick in the ass, tell him to send me a mailing address
and i will send him a copy of mojo rising, they are all up in my attic, boxes and boxes of them,

the publisher was going to trash them, they werent selling, they were just taking up her space,
i trekked down to the city, packed them in the car, put them up into the attic, all i can do

i got to go, got to work that cascading trickeration riff into the novel some where

big sigh here, really big sigh

all my love

FRIDAY 85:62 of 115

hello world, im in a very complicated space
o well, let me maintain

my girl etta james, queenmother of the blues, graduated today, may your work serve many generations

also momentus, trebor setag came out of his cave to bring this newsweek article to my
attention on fb, he must have thought it was important, so do i, andrew sullivan showing

appreciation for obamas longgame - a must read for all the hardleft purist whining about obama
doing this, obama aint done that, so you get a feel for how the longgame is played

and even sullivan dont see the full length of the game, some guy on huffpost was saying do we cripple the most progressive president weve had in a generation, just cause we not totally satisfied w/the way hes wove his game, and will we get a more progressive or less progressive (read romney or gingrich here) one to replace him,

and i might add have you really thought thru what a republican victory will entail, they have to be thoroughly
repudiated at the polls or this political cancer of their irresponsible worldview represents will just grow stronger

i been sending obma money regular (which is very new for me) & when i went home i found
sheree thomas doing precinct work, i was very impressed, i got to step up my game

obama strike me as a rightuous (as in want to do right) brother in a complicated spot

aint letting that brother go down without a fight

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[Buffalosoldier]

FROM PRISON CAMPS AND SLAVERY THIS BLACK MAN CAME TO BE. BuffaloSoldier salutes EttaJames. Whew. I watched the address last night and a friend from the 60s was with me. He asked me why do I insist on calling the President The LionKing. Fair enough. It's about recognizing the narration. The narrative was getting away from Disney. Disney being this SillySeasonal dance we do every four years. It's a worldwide narration, though. It involves the sweep of history. Talk about a longgame. The Berlin Wall coming down, Apartheid falling...Hell, Black Quarterbacks and Black Coaches bursting through, winning superbowls. That sweep of history was blowing this way fast. And when Colin Powell coyly played with the idea of playing presidential politics, it was time for Disney to step in and get in front of the narration once again. My friend told me he didn't get a job because he couldn't survive the "background" check. BlackAmerica, the 1619ers, can't survive the background check. Disney had to make sure the background was right. Enter the LionKing. Someone not of Chicago's SouthSide, NorthPhiladelphia, or straight out of Compton. Put him in front of the BlackMasses, let him win a SillySeason contest, make him electable and Disney curves the narration in a proper directions. BlackAmerica is not just TheRealHousewivesOfAtlanta, although that's the narration we're conditioned to believe. We're the StuntDouble, taking all of the blows, while the good looking Hero That Sings get the position we've earned. This ends part 1. I'm BuffaloSoldier and I approve this message.