the 2nd reconstruction

SATURDAY

damn, i didnt win, what a revolting development this is - i guess world hunger is going to have to
wait a couple of years till i figure out a better plan - i guess the his & hers learjets are out too

im really really disappointed, i was hoping the gods would come thru for me as they so often have

probably for the best anyway, imagine all the folk i would have had to tell
no, i do not have any money for you - all i have is enuf for my basic needs

 those learjets are killing me

 

 

THURSDAY

 

hello world, dont know where im going w/that yet, the 2nd reconstruction,

but i was thinking about the way folk twisting themselves up on news comment sites to say that the video supports zimmermans story, when clearly it doesnt and the headset is frightening, then im thinking about

all these wild west gun laws and how the yahoos are packing these days, and im thinking that going south
as im about to do in a couple of days, feels like taking your life into your hands, kinda like the old days

if i was in tenn i probably would be carrying too, because i got to assume the yahoos are packing and
itching to take me down, but as a visitor from newyork i feel quite vulnerable going home to visit

its the wild wild west down there, out there, everywhere

and i dont see a way out, not in the foreseeable future, the rightwing is in ascendency, the supreme court
is against us, congress is against us, the local governments are against us, and apparently the people against us,

thats the problem, so many americans have bought into the rightwing okaydoke, and when i say against us im not just talking blackpeople, im talking the american people, those of us who care, those of us trying to make a better society, we on the run, they boring out the fundaments of social society on us

and our own folk trying to bring down obama, i dont understand it buffalo solder, i dont get it man
we under mortal assault & obama pretty much the only thing standing between us and armageddon,

romney is like the manchurian candidate, a windup ken doll that will be a figleaf for the ryan budget run amuck, the reign of the nra & the kochbrothers, more conservative supreme justices, wars w/iran, syria and whoever else they want to throw into the pot, ressessive taxes designed to drown america in the bathtub,

hell they winning all this w/o controlling the presidency, this is no longer discretionary, we under mortal assault, 1st thing we got to do is reelect obama, just to get some breathing room, then we got to start

working on the next generation, move them from this yahoo mentality, step by step and inch by inch

what i generally do and will probably do here is work harder on my own work, thats what i do gnerally when the world start getting really crazy on me i focus harder on my personal work, (1) because thats really the only thing i can control and (2) because i sincerly believe my work is important, its designed to be important,

and i accept that mean it has a harder row to hoe, i accept that

this trouble im having getting my novel sold, i accept that, fuck it, i accept that

its a damn good novel, and it reeks of power - thats worth any price to me,

somebody will buy it eventually, it will exist if i have to publish it myself - i accept that,
dont necessarily like it but i accept it

when you trying to move a people, a society, an ear, you got to go longgame
literature is my chosen instrument, or it chose me, mystical literature

and i believe my work has the power, far more potential than anything i could do in an activist mode, finishing my novel and my holybook are my best shots at destinic influence, but in this case im really feeling like i need to take a hand in the game

literature is a very nebulous power and of neglible influence in current events, even if you a big name
which i unfortunately am not

maybe i can work thru that publishing company i got in mind, even though publishing is longgame influence
maybe leverage it into a thinktank mode, engage the dialogue through works, conferences and such

thats about the shortest game im capable of - other than sending obama money, which still kind of amazes
me, that i would send a politician money on a regular basis, you have no idea how deep that is

i got to go, i got so much work to do, im desperate to get as much done during my little sabbatical as i can
i can see ima do something significant with this brer rabbit material, ima make it work

im gone, all my love

Comments

[BuffaloSoldier]

THEY WERE TIRED, OH SO TIRED, OF THE MISERY BuffaloSoldier salutes BillyHoliday. Here's the huge advantage of being 1619 GetbackBlack. Having a liniage here means I can answer your don't get it question. It's 2012, right? And we're up against it. We were more up against one hundred years ago. 1912. It was just the Titanic that was sinking. How do I know? I wasn't here yet. But my family was. Mom was 14, Dad was 16, and GrandMom was 31. Every church Sunday, they heard the preachings of a coming armaggedon. They didn't have a LionKing then. They had themselves and themselves alone. How do I know? Because they always prefaced everything by saying, "you think you have it bad now. But if you had been in my day..." I draw strength from them. As King did. As Malcolm did. I'm sorry, but we have to be made of the same stuff our folks were. We can't panic in the face of "rightwing acdencies" I'm not completely sold on it, by the way. After all, we're hearing all of this rightwing stuff because the circus is in town and the clowns are piling out of the tiny cars. If this was baseball, they're having a good inning. But we haven't come up to bat yet. And remember The WarHero lost by a landslide even though all of his ducks, Limbaugh/Hannity/Beck/, were lined in a row. So, yes, I stand by GetBackBlack. Our people right here in BlackAmerica took all of the blows, did all of the suffering, and it would have been symmetric, if one of that number had become the "all-important" FirstBlackPresident. Someone walking into the whitehouse whose actual ancestors had built it. I'm the BuffaloSoldier. On another note, I have the info on the Man we discussed and you'll have everything tomorrow.