SATURDAY
be nice to do some commentary beyond me me me, time to
do another rickydocs state of the world annual report,
lets start putting that together
w/9 global crises points:
fundamentalism in the middle east
fundamentalism in the united states (breeding idiots like the ones in photo)
african conflicts
the human condition (hunger, disease, oppression, et al)
authoritarianism
ok, im being a little broad, but if i start getting specific the list will become endless
what about the conflicts most likely blowup or to cause the most suffering in the world
syria, teaparty repubs, somalia, korea, congo, pakistan, . . .
finaize later, what issues in play: fundamentalism, authoritarianism, exploitation, jihad . . .
might be easier to do it geographically
north america, south america, europe, africa, middle east, far east, pacifica, carribean, afroamerican
9 is always my structural number, its a hoodoo thing, but what about the ussr, im thinking far east but
im not sure that really work, again, will ahve to figure this all out later, just dont have real time right now
clear this is going to be complicated and what do i bring to the table that
thinktanks and institutes with their staff and resources cant do better
got to lean on my lyrical chops, strategic posture poetry by rickydoc trickmaster
and the african american condition, thats got to be a category of its own
and how do i ensure this topical work stands the test of time & significance
do i have time for all this, and still get my Work done in a timely manner
and what exactly would a assessment of afroam stategic posture entail
goals, players, institutions, games in play . . .
stop, full stop:
i just dont have time for this, god i want influence in the world today
but when i think what has the most potential for true enhancement
of the human condition, at this late stage in my life, clearly its my Work
when i was young i was susceptible to artistic guilt, in this my maturity not at all
soulplayers about changing human attitudes,
working the soul, anything else is piecework
plenty piecework to go around but for us ideological orchestrator types
its a waste of time on the planet, a waste of power
notice how geo uses his newfound cultural power to push his kindness thing
thats what players do
to be greater than they are - which i already do
i gotta go, i gotta get back to the hoodoo book of flowers, the
world might treat my work casually but that dont mean i should
in my world ima a man of power, a player
in the realworld im more like a footnote
no problem, i know my game is on, fuck who dont
see it, thats what make a visionary a visionary
just got to stay focused
ima follow thru on this because it will inform my Works
but influence in my lifetime is not my priority, aint no civilian
im here to play
rdoc
MONDAY
i guess my chilling days are over, schoolhouse meetings all week, students next week, and so on it goes, also i realize ima i have to do a roughdraft instead of a clean one, trying to do a polished draft got me crawling & wheelspinning w/a lot of frustration
go rough and i can do a movement a day, still about 90 days but i can have a 'draft' by end of year, then go thru and clean it up during my dec mini woodshed, will be in kenya but i recall kenya as high production activity, looking forward to a week in lamu
really bummed out about my novel not getting sold, trash walks & I cant get no play, mcbride got great review in nyt book review for new john brown novel, i found myself being petty and jealous of him
has it come to that rick
you got to focus rick
i fear my life has been in vain
silly fear i know, but who says fears have to be logical
arf
FRIDAY
strategic posture: a freefloating strategic readiness alert to hidden agendas, positioning itself to finesse both challenges and opportunities whilst calibrating a multifaceted tactical mix - some moves bold and strong, some hidden in shadows, some waiting silently in the wings - masters of the longgame
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at this point got to wonder if the generals of egypt ever actually conceded
power or was letting morsi in for a year merely a tactical move,
and as for that 1.3 billion in annual aid thats strictly payoff for egypts peace treaty
w/israel - thats not egyptian aid, thats israeli aid and its not going anywhere
clock: 2 days wheelspinning, been working this morning, hopefully this day will be productive
stepping away from the page to make this post (& facebook/twitter) counts as diversion
and in the longgame diversion dont count - focus rick, focus . . .
THURSDAY
i am seriously bummed out - one, i know this draft of the hoodoo book of flowers is going
to take a year or so, and thats just the 1st draft, should hold off publishing mojo rising
until i finish it, but i dont know i can do that, i need a victory, i really really do, can i tough out
my expulsion from literary circles another year or so, of course i can but i dont want to
the other issue, journey to the west has begun to intimidate me, been reading the abridgement by yu
the reknown asian lit scholar, it became very clear that this is so much a history of the 3 religions
of china, daoism, buddhism and confusianism, and its amazing what it does w/that material
so i ordered yu's full 4 vol set to get the full experience and not miss anything that might be
inspirational and just reading the academic forward w/its accounts of how many centuries these
stories perculated in the culture and how many artists stabbed at it before wu cheng''en who may
or may not have been the author of current text, and how pretty much each line is an intertextual riff on
centuries of chinese lit, religion and culture and i think about how i want my own work to do that and how
eager i am to get to that next novel and just how few productive years i can count on and i got to
step away from the blues, just refuse to go there
much as i want to i cant just put the divination structure down, you do these works and you
dont know which one (if any) will actually catch the attention of the generations, just might
be the one you consider a throw off, im willing to gamble a year to see what that manuscript looks like
if that decision has been made i need to quit whining about it, quit agonizing over it, just do it
what i need to do is be working out the outline of the novel using the fictional riffs im working out in HBOF
constantly recalibrating production plans based on ongoing monitoring of health and durability
the novel i will probably have to make the traveler a full character, hbof he just a metaphor
i suspect im looking at another decade of full court press, minimum
focus rick, so much work to do, so few years . .
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