WED, JAN 8
well dear regulators, im cutting out pretty much everything written during last 3 weeks or
so that i been struggling with woodshed productivity, even i find it tedious to wade thru
once again you have been privy to process, me struggling w/my
demons, but all we will leave for the record is pristine product
latest is that ive woven HAINT into REST and so far its got potential, scary potential because
im taking a butcher knife to my text but at the same time its exciting because its forcing
me to look at it with new eyes - what happened is 1) my hoodoo det novel was still literary, still my
voice, just felt like it was part of REST, and 2) i still want to be one of the great novelists of all time
thats all i ever wanted to be, and its all still on REST, my wouldbe masterpiece, to do that, i dont
care about making money, never did, i make a living, im satisfied, i just want to be a great novelist
so this just means one more chance to make that novel the best that it can be
ive woven the two texts and now im working out the glitches
got about 5 days before schoolhouse takes me under, so im in a state of quiet
desperation, clocking pages now that its do or die, earlier i was coasting, why is
it always thus - on that note i got to go
will extract most of what ive done here lately and leave fragments that seem to have signficance
and value, which probably wont make sense cause they fragments but such is life
then again it will reflect the flash essentialism im looking for in this draft of REST
the trick to generating words of power is ruthlessly cutting the inessential
keep that in mind rick, this draft of REST
and everything
MONDAY
i hear baba john watusi branch, poet and founder of the afrikan poetry theatre in queens, has passed on
feel like legends falling on every hand, dont know if i should be please or not, that they all budies of mine
SATURDAY
be nice to get some respect for my work in my lifetime but at
this point i dont expect any breaks, other writers get breaks
i do not, my concern is that this reflects a lack of craft but i prefer to
think that the gods of literature love me too much to give me breaks
they want to keep me hungry, make sure i dont coast in this my artistic prime
problem is all my projects megaprojects, requiring an investment of decades or so
but in each case im the one chose the hard road, no sense whining when it
come time to pay the freight
FRIDAY THE 27
going to combine them, REST & HAINT, folk telling me stick w/HAINT but REST is my heart
all along i knew REST was off the reservation, plan was to make it so strong it could not be denied
3 years of denial mean i got to recalibrate, ima have to step out of my comfort zone, ima have to be bold
still got the old draft if this one doesnt work,
finished unesco vol 1, decided to get this restructured REST
manuscript done before schoolhouse so i put HBOF down
once again im under water,
words come at a premium these days, the key when you do produce words is
to produce words of value, for anybody aspiring to literary longgame
im giving them a road map
THURS
so me and miriam decosta willis was engaged in a dialogue on facebook, ima stash it here
she was talking about the death of one of her mentors, said she was of his line, i replied:
if he was an inspiration to you then i consider myself of his line as i do myself of yours
to which she replied: Arthur, although I never taught you, your words of tribute and encouragement through the years have meant so much to me, and your work has certainly been an inspiration to me."
to which i reply: "you have been a mentor and model of the committed black intellectual to my generation of memphis black artists and intellectuals, it was because of you that we realized that being committed race men and women was still an option as we started reaping the rewards of the civil rights movement, hopefully we have passed on what you and your generation passed on to us,"
to which gregory siggers added: 'amen"
and miriam replied: Arthur, both of us stand on the shoulders of writer and race man John Killens, and I always remember what he said about the need for long distance runners. Maxine, A. W., Jesse, Russ, Lorene, Ben, and so many other Memphians were truly long distance runners. I don't count myself among them, because I switched fields and became the preserver/recorder of the Movement, but, as I told Russ, humorously, I intend to be the Last (Wo)Man Standing (smile)."
to which i reply: "but thats exactly the reason you became so impo to us, because you were the model of how you could be a committed intellectual, an armchair revolutionary, a term i use w/the greatest of respect, that you didn't have to be just an activist, or a soldier, to be committed, that long distance running included thinking too, (& chronicling, understanding the power of being the one who tells the story/shapes destiny) babajohn taught us to be visionaries and you were our first model, for my memphis generation, of how it was done, and how to sustain it over the period of our lives, how to be long distance runners - you need to go ahead and do that memoir, you owe us that"
ima leave it there, i think i made my point, finished reading vol 2, transposing notes now, focus . . .
XMAS WED
cast your vision young hoodoo, as far as you can see, determine the
challenges the tribe will face, prepare the tribal soul to meet them
de geas of rickydoc: 3rd movement
okay rick, lets do an end of the year throw
a divination if you please
decided ima work it out here over the next week or so
you dear regulators once again get to see the process
asuming dear regulators that you are there and
not merely a figment of my desperation
first the toss: (to be done later)
what will be the structure be
two options: geographic and subject
geographic: or should I say demographic
african american cullture
america
africa
the world
issue based would be what
global politics
human rights
quality of life
conflict resolution
human destiny
okay, looks like a good hoodoo 9 (all projects
structure in 9s, a solid hoodoo number)
destiny has to be a component of them all
its all about destiny with me
so lets do them all (o hell i need to get personals in there somewhere
but that means something has to go to keep my hoodoo 9 , . . .)
i got to find my destiny string and repair it (its in disrepair)
then i have to throw, but right now i need to focus - unesco, 100 pages to go . .
later for this . . .
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