FRIDAY
okay, i got to focus, preparing to go to china for a month, beijing, trying to determine
how to get the most out of this month productionwise, i always say i will work on the
plane over but i rarely do, i watch movies and sleep, longhand i can do, put pulling
laptop out just translate as hassle factor to me, id rather folk not even know i have one
so i got about a week, got maintenance stuff to be took care of, i think i will just continue
wading the narrative muck of the hoodoo book of flowers, ive been translating that 800
pages of notes and old drafts, 70% of which is useless, also preachy and teachy and
i need to abandon that for myth magic and mystery, for enigmatic epigrammics
which is the only thing i think that will stand the test of time, be essentialist, my new favorite word
okay, lets comment on the issues of the day, obviously big news is iraq, thats a pickle
hate to help maliki and the shiites do their opression thing thats driven the sunnis to revolt anyway
we left them a roadmap, a sunni awakening roadmap and they betrayed them, left them hanging
i believe the only option left is partition, shiite shouth, kurd north, sunni belt, problem is how to keep
that belt from being the caliphate, how to help the'moderate' sunnis once again drive out the jihadis
to keep any semblemce of identification w/iraq, with major automony goee w/o saying but i dont
know anything at this point that will allow the trust necessary for civil society, specially when the
sectarian killing start up, its going to be a bloodbath i believe and i dont believe for one moment
the jihadis meant to drive on baghdad and the shouthern shrines, i believe that was just to buy
time for them to considate their hold on the sunni belt and rile up the holy warriors because they
want their sunni folk to suffer from a holywar so bad that they sign onto the ISIS vision, its fucked
all this counts as a small reprieve for obama, they had him on the ropes and he still on the ropes
but he got a little breathing room, specially since they captured the benghazi guy, i got to go, just
thought of a thread that might work in the novel, something to show the pressure on him to be
more than just a spokesman for blackpeople, he wants to be a voice of all humanity, but i been
trying to figure out how to dramatize that in the novel, i think maybe thats what i will do, work on
taking the novel to a higher plane of engagement, or deeper plane of engagement with the
human condition, with what he perceives as his mission, spend this last week doing that and it
will be on my mind during the flight, percolating, i believe that to be the most useful use of my time
im gone, im in a really strange space, working that sthort version of my novel for memphis noir
made me realize how thin the oriingal 1st chapter was and the 1st chapter is likely richer than
any other of the new stuff, so i feel good, but at the same time i feel pressed to take it higher
raw manuscript/research w/the hoodoo book of flowers is just frustrating, you work hard you get dreck
but its wading thru the dreck seperate the wannabes from the hardcore
im gone, i got to go, so much work to do and im just rambling
all my love
arf
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THURS
hello world, been awhile, was trying to draft hoodoo book of flowers
from all those notes and such, realized not in draft stage, just way too
much research needed, been spinning my wheels last couple of days
because those unesco history of africa books are stupifyingly boring
i guess i can accept a couple of days off after finishing 20 year project but lets not get
carried away - i cant just research so ima have to systematize this: i got 3 threads:
raw research (alt unesco w/less boring research)
transforming old research notes into text
writing manuscript -
what i want to do is just write manuscript, but its premature as
long as i got the kind of knowledge gaps i got now
leaving for china 2 weeks, what supplemental tasks to be done
taxes and other maintenance paperwork
china lesson plans and presentations
shortstory to memphis noir
okay, monrings for manuscript
evenings for all that other stuff
let me see if i have something to say other than me me me
cantor getting knocked off will reenergize the tea party movement
that surprised even me, your favorite prognosticator, going to make
a cowardly republican party even more cowardly about defying
their yahoo base - but thats not news is it
waht else, maya passed on but everybody know that, fuck it, i cant think
of anything that interest me, maybe during the day i will update this
right now all i can think about is getting some pages done,
ima tell you the truth, dear regulators, i feel like there is nothing on this planet as impo to the future
of humanity and the enhancement of the human condition as me getting my work done, i realize
thats delusional, but i have struggled hard to get to this place of valuing my work as if it were
essential because thats the only way that it has any chance of actually being essential
thats what being a conjureman is about, defining yourself as destinical, then making it so
conduct yourself as you aspire to be and you are, this is the essence of conjuration
this work for everybody, whatever it is you want to do with your life, mine is kinda
ambitious, i want to be a prophet of the hoodoo way, i want to shape generations
im very aware, dear regulators, that im expressing delusions of graduer, or shall
we say, a god complex, but im trying to write a holybook, a sacred text, there is
a certain headset that require, in the realworld i keep that compartmentalized
but on the page i got to let my freak flag fly, i got to be me, conjureman gotta
conjure - on that note i got to go, so much work
to be done, so little time, so very little grace
all my love
MON 6/9
its been so long since ive posted i dont know how long
finished rest for the weary, a read thru takes about 2 days now
that means its clean, there are thin sections, a cuople of muddy ones
but i will do that later in the season, when the manuscript is cold again
have dug in on the hoodoo book of flowers - almost
really chapter 7 of mojo rising revision, an abridged version
without the fictional quest of the conqueror overlay, its like
im doing the bridgework for it, 81 movements, also the
hbof will take me a decade, i will have this abridged version out in case i dont make it
which is likely, unfortunately, but im feeling good because i have a version of rest
i can live with, ie die with, if i check out tomorrow im satisfied, though i believe i
have thought that before, no matter, im dug in on the hoodoo book of flowers
once again wading in the narrative muck, trying to whittle down 800 pages of
dreck into about 100 pages coherent sacred text, which i right now dont know
what its going to look like, im going thru and transforming like pages of historical facts & spiritual speculations
on the longgame & the human condition into couplets of sacred text and trying to be essentialist, what will still
speak to generations hundreds of years hence, what will still be pertinent to them, how
best to express it so, i do not ever want to write stuff thats going to bore the generations
i want them to read my work because they must
not because its been assigned but because it still fires their souls
because it still moves them always to be greater than they are
i have to look at this Work as a hoodoo dialogue w/future generations
i dont mind boring you but i do not ever want to bore the future
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