TUESDAY
so, plan was to zoom thru bible in 10 days
i suspect it will take me longer, maybe 20
no mas
i am desperate to close down research
and get back to some text
boy this is one tedious read, fortunately i
was turned on to some bible quote texts
im getting more from them than the text itself
but i figure i still got to actually read/skim
the whole damn (sorry, couldnt help myself, thought to do it, then i
thought ooo thats transgressive, then i thought isnt it though) thing
one of my research texts said its not a book, its a
library, you dont read a library like you do a novel
im hoping just the act of immersement will take
me to higher ground, i see why its been of value
to folk, a lot of good wisdom stuff but all that god
work is problematic, i got to get the power of that
without having to bow to the foolishness
so i came up with this idea while i was home, i realize now it
comes from being forced to wade thru this bible, and i was
looking thru my manuscript and its got a lot of good stuff but
there is no sense of the velocity you get from a novel, no
overarching narrative, then i think to give the narrative to
a mythological john de conqueror, a trope thats already in there but
not systemized, so i start working that out and its kinda
fascinating because ever since i was introduced to journey to the west
that idea of novel as holybook has fascinated me and i thought to make something of
that sort my next novel if ever i do one and now it appears that this night be it if i am
willing to be very flexible about what i call a novel and i dont care what the
industry or the public thinks, or even the generations, im doing it for the
generations but to make that work i got to do it for the artiste in me
this point in life i should have divine confidence in following my muse
unfortunately, by adding this layer i pretty much guarantee added months
of work, may blow out my research leave on this, i would hate to do that
right now im thinking i can split it up, half book of flowers, half rest
not what i wanted but a reasonable shot at moving both projects
so now instead of finished product im looking at a working
draft by the end of the year - bummer, absolute bummer
what is it with me and these forever projects
im feeling a little down for a variety of reasons
that i guess ima keep to myself, i try to avoid
whining in public, i get in trouble with my proteges
in the tradition, they be complaining and i be like
you just buckle down and try harder but i know
that is not acceptable to folk so i dont say it but
thats what im pushing in the hoodoo book of flowers, you
finesse the bullshit by being better than anybody else
and yes it still might not work but its the only thing that will
i aint saying dont agitate, i believe in a multifaceted
strategic posture, what i am saying is that the primary
strategy is shaping our generations, working our souls
empowerment within and without
there have been many racial uplift folk in our history
and they have not made a difference either but for
some reason i think i will, i guess they did too
but they didnt think to write a holybook, by god
and all thats holy i know what im doing (i think)
the photo is by a friend of mine, bob gates
he turned it sideways so you couldnt see
the smiley face, he thought that was too easy
artists
all my love always
rdoc
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