FRIDAY
typing w/my thumb brace on, one hand trembles so i cant
use it, the other has no working thumb - the new normal
and the reason i need to be real serious about production
im falling apart
in memphis, traveling, helping sister move & still
1st day of kicking it clocked 5 movements, this
is encouraging, we will see if i can maintain
at this rate i will have a draft in 20 days or so
lets be reasonable and say a month, there is
no way i can maintain this kind of schedule
unless i hit the zone, wherein all things are possible
its cleaner than i feared, i just need to be ruthlessly
focused, went by local spiritual store yesterday hoping
they had some decent highjohn roots, they did not
all you can get these days are little ones, i used
to be able to get decent sized ones, the supply
must be drying up, i did get a nice bodhidharma
figure for my alter and this hbof push,
myth claims he a founder of meditation and kung fu
but thats mostly mythwork, (not that i got anything
against good mythwork) what spoke to me is
that he is from tamil nadu and since my journey
to chennai im very conscious of tamil nadus
blackness, everybody was black
and the figurine just spoke to me, bald head with locks
and full beard and staff, i identify and whenever i falter
in next month ima draw inspiration from it/him
talking about inspiration i just went online to see if there is anything
about Ras Hui I there - no there is not, i use one of his quotes as epigram
in all my spiritual works and he needs to be chronicled on the internet:
“thats what love, cooperation and unity are in a society, a comforter,
im a comforter for my people, so I have great dominion and power,
glory and authority, but I use my discretion and my people love I,
because I heal their afflictions” ras hui i
WEDNESDAY
finished incorporating notes yesterday
been working on the arc of the conqueror
have changed all my movement titles from
one word divination titles to arc titles, have
done a couple of raw storyline beats for
about half my movements - progress
looking over my biblic extractions i seem
to have gotten more than i realized, i guess
it was all that wordage i had to wade thru
that soured me, going thru rest should be
easier because im not going to engage
all the repetitious beats at this point
arc of the conquer seems to be working
hard to judge at this point, but im putting
in the hours, im clocking the pages
cant ask for more than that
trying to get as much as possible done
before incorporating into the text today
then im done with all my prep and can
get busy, 2 movements a day, maybe 3
was suppose to start nov 1st, im about three
weeks behind schedule, i can live w/that
i had critical research goals, still need to finish bible
but ive gotten the gist of it, i can move forward
now that im free of the schoolhouse
my production is going up, already
im in the zone, all my love
rdoc
MONDAY
so im at a birthday party for colleague bruce smith
when the women (incl bonnie) start talking about how
they all going to some million women march in dc
and im like what million women march?
and they say its been all over facebook and im
like I know nothing, I aint been monitoring fb
and it's a bummer because I like keeping my
finger on the pulse but the election of trump diff folk
have responded diff and the primary reason I come on
fb is to drop knowledge, drop a little so call science
but all the knowledge I be dropping on fb it didn't
stop trump or what he represent, my holybook will
(can, will, decisions decisions, I went w/will)
so ive had to go into the wilderness on you,
and when I come back ima come back packing
power, so help me god and all that's holy I will
its time, im 66, im on research leave & at the top
of my game - who knows how long that will last,
been working this text on and off some 30 years now, could
easily spend another 10 but no longer have discretionary 10s to
give, and its like ok rick, either you got this or you aint got this
o I got this, aint no question I got this, aint
gon be what it could be but it is what it is
the hoodoo book of flowers: the
great black book of generations
an african american text
an african american way
focus, rick
its time like these separate the
writers from the wannabes
showtime . . .
SUNDAY ADDENDUM
so i actually finished it, now i got to
work all these notes into the text
and there is this santeria text i
want to maybe do tomorrow if
i am up to speed, i got about
40 pages of notes and all those one liners
probably take all day, but ima start now . . .
BIBLIC EXTRACTIONS (up to dan)
Be friuitful and multiply
I will make of thee a great nation
I will fix those who deny you
I will exalt you and the like of you
I will provide laws for you & yours
I will make a way
I will fill you with wisdom and
Compassion and all things
I will bring rain in its season
I will make for you a jubilee
Ask and ye shall receive
to every thing there is a season
this one I want vut its so well known
have to make it man
a time for every purpose under teheaven
a time to be born a time to die
a time to plant a time to sow
a time to kill ad time to heal
a time to create a time to destroy
a time of war a time of peace
a time to move, a time to stay silent
I have been sent to comfort those in need etc etc
of making many books there is no end
of study a weariness of the flesh
hear me o heavens and give ear
come let us reason together
deep just how little im getting from
bible once I cut it down to essential
keep silent and I will give you wisdom
anger is a sin, anger is a crime, againt yourself
how long lord will you deny me
dear lord deliver me
cleanse me lord of my impurities
my rock my sanctuary
show me the way,
my hopes are in you
the lord is my salvation, why should i be afraid
mine enemies surround me, why should i be afraid
be still and know that i am god
sing a song of gods grace
I turn to you lord
I stand in awe of your wonders
may god bless our days
as long as your tribe serves I will exalt you
serve the good and I will exalt you and all your tribes
I have come to defend the poor and the needy
and bring them power to be more than they are
why do the wicked prosper as do the good
listen to my instruction, open your heart to my words
champion the oppressed and the weak in my name
hinder the oppressor, shape the generations in my name
bring justice for the exploited, sew righteousness
with your ever thought word and deed
hear my prayer, listen to my cry
let no evil near me
I will protect those who trust in my name
when you call on me I will answer
I will be with you in times of trouble
And I will celebrate the good ones
I will thank your grace with good living good
good thoughts, good deeds
don't give up on me
I will not forget your word
how good and pleasant it is when folk live
together in peace and love and harmony
believe in me and I will confound your enemies
serve thru me and you will always know victory
every generation will sing your song
these words are designed to speak to the soul
donot withhold good you have to give
be magnanimous in all things
seek wisdom all the days of your life
examine every thing for its wisdom value
understand when wisdom is plain common sense
correct the wicked and they will resent you
correct the wise and they will thank you
correct the wise one time only, same same
the wicked, once will do, or it wont
living well will extend your life
and enhance its days
when pride has been stripped
away, wisdom remains
gray hair is a crown of glory that has
been earned with the coin of experience
interesting here, took biblic phrase, gray hair is a
crown of glory, then added a beat, can I do that
and consider it mine
children, parents and grands
a 3 way dynamic of caring
parents and grands guide children
children respect parents & grands
parents and children respect elders
elders provide support and wisdom
love and tolerance, an expectation of
nobility, these things shape family
good planning, hard work and pride
of product will bless every endeavor
prudence anticipates adversity and positions
accordingly, expect to win, prepare to lose
to argue with a fool demeans you
tell them once if they ready to listen
don't bother if they are not
don't expect guidance to take immediately
assume it will need to stew and root itself
‘to increase knowledge increases sorrow’
neither pleasure nor wisdom will suffice
only serenity and grace will do
eat drink and be merry when you can, for
life is unrelenting struggle and you must
appreciate the fleeting moments of grace
the day you die should be one of celebration, you have
experienced life in its fullest, you have gotten your work
done, and now its time to move on and make room for
what is to come, a good death waters any legacy
‘better to be criticized by the wise than to be praised by a fool’
both good times and bad are part of gods grace
there is no such thing as a person w/o sin
we are all capable of transgression, of bowing to our particular demons
it is the nature of a demon to be shaped to your particular passion
I have thought deeply on this matter
This message came to me
the lord sent me to
No one can no everything there is to know
no one knows if god will protect the saint
The wicked can prosper where the wise suffer
and the best does not always win
legba is the god of chance and the random factor
legba can turn on you in the space of a heartbeat
It is in your youth that you must take control of your life, the
sooner you become conscious the more likely a rewarding life
you must trust me in this matter, consciousness of yourself as a self
guiding entity in constant evolution shaped by thoughts and deeds
this is what makes you an adult and can happen at any age
I have seen all there is to see and I have seen my role in it
And the vision has taken my breath away
Isiah: I do not need your sacrifices, no burnt rams
will replace the need for good deeds, fight
The good fight and wash yourselves clean
though you offer many prayers I will not
listen, your hands are covered in blood
the only sacrifice worth giving is your own
only when the cause is greater than your own
‘learn to do good, seek justice, help the oppressed
defend the cause of orphans, fight for the widow’
who shall I send, who will speak for me
send me, here I am
yes, go and say this to the people, listen carefully
all the prophecies about israel rebuilding over and over
have come into fruition, lot of the prophetics are written
after the fact to maximize prophetic but the state of israel
is its own reality, as are the jewish contributions to the
common good, amazing what good mythwork will do
‘let us feast and drink
for tomorrow we die’
you are a refuge in the storm
strong nations will defer to you
I am the rock upon which you stand
write down these words and they will stand the test of time
they will be a witness
what use a prophet that only tells you what you want to know
comfort my people
‘I will give power to the weak
They will run and not grow weary
They will walk and not be faint’
I would justice prevail upon this earth
You will be a light unto nations
You will open eyes of the blind
And free the slave
Do not be afraid, I am with you
Who can undo what I have done
What I have said I will do I will do
I will level mountains for you, I will drain the seas
Do my bidding and share my love
Who will bring charges against me now
I will re build you with precious stones
And you will live under a government fair and strong
And all your enemies will be confounded
All that attack you will be defeated
I have spoken I will deliver
No weapon turned against you will succeed
King nebucadnezzer of Babylon cracked their bones
Standup son of man, do not fear their anger, their words
Do not be dismayed, give them my message whether they would listen or not
To ibntervene in someones life to change their destiny (some Hebrew word)
Those confident in the universe can endure with patience
Prophetic call narrative starts the prophetic to est authenticity
Ezekial called to be a watchman
SUNDAY
these are the notes extracted from the kemetic text
raw as they can be, mostly my words as i try to make
them mine when i extract them but still in need of repurposing
ie rephrasing in such a way as to make them mine instead of stolen
i basically use their beats to generate my own riffs, and
in process enhance their profundity (theoretically)
sometimes i am dismayed when a whole book gives me about a page of notes
which is about par and sometimes pages and pages and early in this process
i wasted time on books that werent really profound but its all been part of the
process of refining my search, i regret nothing
ive decided i got to finish the bible
or at least get thru new testament jesus parts
im skimming so hard now i know im missing stuff
but such is life when making many books, ima trust
the gods to ensure i get the essence of the thing
to get what i need, ive got a groove on extractions
this kemetic text i felt its speculations on words of power provocative
at least for my purposes here and in rest with its words/book of power
motif, speculations im actually trying to put into practice w/this text
o such a twisty web we weave
so this what ima do today:
extractions from bible to date (up to dan)
work those extractions into the text
work whatever i got of the arc of the conqueror into text
(ive changed my whole outline phrasing, reworking bloodless divination
beats like 1 consciousness, 2 will, 3 action, etc into arc storyilne
beats, 1 the conquerors call to consciousness, 2 will of the conqueror, etc,
again, dont know if its going to work but at this stage, shit comes
to me, i try it, see if it works, if it dont work i step back and rebeat)
if i try to make extractions mine like i do it will take all day that one phase
i got to get three phases i need to get thru today, i got about 40 pages of
extractions like the ones below (not counting what ima get today from bible)
i cant leave all that knowledge just lying fallow on the table, got to work it into text
more or less just stick them in text somewhere and do that
next move when i got to do it to whole text anyway
whole process this phase im sticking shit in the text
where i think it will roughly fit and most of it will have
to be moved as i focus closer but its part of process
i got to do whatever i got to do to keep moving process
today im looking for speed/efficiency, getting this phase done
so monday i can start working straight up text
im going to go for 3 a day
1 a day would i think be easy
long as i dont look for perfection
2 a day i think would be doable
3 a day is unlikely, kinda impossible
so thats where ima start and if i cant
hack it i will cut back, but ima go for the
zone wherein all things are possible
then if i do my impossible 3 a day
(in 30 days i will have a text) then
i can do research et al without guilt
even if i do 2 a day and am too burntout 4 3
i can decompress w/a little research. .
but if i dont do but 1 a day then im
not ahead of the game and will keep
grinding my wheels, which produces
neither work nor rest . . .
2 movements a day, going for 3
starting monday, 2 movements a
day, reaching for 3
so you need to get busy rick
close down the old blog, i got
to clock a lot of pages today
its showtime . . .
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KEMETIC EXTRACTIONS
every human is on a psycho spiritual journey
an attempt to find happiness and fulfillment
the goal of which is understanding the infinite
bliss that is our birthright, have to evolve spiritually
in your time on the planet, to evolve and make a
significant contribution as a result of the evolution
affilliation with the divine, the absolute
to encompass the rhythms of the nile the Egyptians
valued the cosmic order of maat, divine justice and
reciprocity, if actions are in conjunction with
the natural rhythms then prosperity will result
the processions of the equinox in 12 movments
each great year consisted of about 26,000 years
(has that kind of longgame focus I want, do my own)
words of power are incantations that when understood
transform the mind, expand the consciousness
medtu neter divine speech, writings of djehuti
egyptian god of the divine word
memphis also called hetkaptah
the gods are in time and space, god transcends them
the attunement of divine serenity and contentment as perfection
but it because we are imperfect, because wemust strive, that makes
us human and in some ways greater than the gods
ra came into creation and begin sailing the boat of a million years
this is the action that put the universe into motion
anything that does not abide is not an
absolute reality, reality is indelibly fluid
this is a power the conjuror learns to ride
the mojo represent human potential, the fa
of every human being, which is identification
with the divine, and spreading blessings thruout
the contribution only you can give, your fa
when ani the initiate gained control of his body
his 1st words were my soul will not be imprisoned
medhu is a herogylphic that means staff walking stick speech, that
which sustains the divine in time and space, wisdom that grounds us
it is thru ritual & meditation that one trains the soul
so that's ones actions instinctively reach for the divine
every thought every deed
religion can be practiced on one of two levels
the mundane which focuses on the rituals and the mythologies
that divide us and the first principles which focus on that
which unites us, the golden core of every viable way
when the word is used as an instrument of the great mojo
it leaves power, enlightenment, grace in its wake
when the superior personality finds peace in
silence and contemplation a special serenity
emerges that is transcends affliction
this is the mojo upon which we reflect
the goal of the spirit is to know finally who am i
why am I here, what is my purpose, my fa
what contribution am I to make to the
enhancement of the human condition
it is to understand the meaning of life and
embrace infinity, eternity, the longgame
within the constraints of our mortality
first one embraces the mojo
then one becomes the mojo
deep how im just saying any old bullshit that
comes to my head, I will cut out what aint prime
time but right now ima just let my head run free
this require me to trust myself in spite of
any and all evidence to the contrary
basically what I do is use their riffs to generate
my own, I start where they leave off . . .
they already half mine but Ima make them fully mine
consciousness require attention, focus, study
embracing the spirit and pursuing illumination
different folk embrace the spiritual differently
with different % of commitment at different
points in their life
gathering together in peace and harmony
in search of higherground, holyground
which is where we stand for purpose of
seeking our greater selves in our everyday
life, for figuring out how best to make our
contributions, establish our immortality
asar is the eternal soul, aset is wisdom and intuition
set is ego, nebthet is mortality and heru ur is king of the earth
the default of humanity is action, even when
still the mind is racing, you must slow it down
so that it can partake of a higher consciousness
‘a ritual discipline of practice, purification, meditation
and philosophical introspection’ unlocks the mysteries
wherein your every action becomes ritual practice
the goal is to reach for your greater self, your fa
to transcend time space and reality, mystical aspiration
and the ability to see beyond the surface of things to
the reality below, to pierce the veil of illusion
to believe that enlightenment is a possibility
SATURDAY
i am in a state of chaos and confusion
i do not know what to do, i have gotten
thru maybe a 5th of the bible, i need to incorp
those notes, i got a couple other books i got so
far into and i need to incorp those notes and there
have been developments on arc of the conqueror
that i need to continue working and incorporating
but all i want to do is text, i will give sunday to extractions
and whatever ima do on the arc (but by monday
i want to be done, ima put it all down
forget continuing to research, forget that, i got
to make a clean break, i got the knowledge now
i got to focus on a text
problem is doing biblic and other holybook extractions
is a tiring process, wears the mind and the soul
doing this khemetic text now thats twisting my head
ohwell, quit whining, this why
you on the planet, to do what
nobody else could
sunday is my last day of freedom
monday im straight up clocking it
rdoc
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