FRIDAY MORNING, 1:05 am
well now that ive opened the door
god just walking all over my text
now i find myself looking for
places to do godwork in the text . .
what happened is those prayers were much stronger
than the pedestrian version, i could feel their power
in a way alien to the other version, you aint never
knowed me to turn my back on power
basically this mean i got to recalibrate
i hate recalibrating but you have to follow
the text when it grows you got ot grow along
with it, and follow where it leads, thats where
you get the literary magic going
might be why i didnt do not a lick
of work yesterday - reclibrating
just didnt have it in me, a rainy
breezy warm day, just the kind
i like to lie there in bed reading
w/god throwing rain on my bald head
and basically thats what i did
saw me throw god in there
this an interesting development
guess ima count yesterday as my day off
ma try to make up ground today, just did
34:duty got 2 to go, then do todays 3
if i just maintain my daily 3 and work
sunday i will be caught up
steady does it, rick, you can do this . .
i day off does not the hammer break . ..
THURSDAY ADDENDUM
intersting development, working on 34:duty,
when i write the following line:
I ask help, dear god of all things, universal guidance,
not for myself but those for whom I bear responsibility
appears now that ive broken thru the prayer
barrier i will be addressing god thruout text
instead of just in the chosen spots
as i do with all speculated developments
i try it, see how it works, if it dont work i
accept the diversion, its all process . . .
THURSDAY THE 10TH 6 am
got my 33 but am no longer elated
its just a grind now
i feel like john henry driving steel
or that death scene in amadeus
im running out of steam but i
got to keep pushing thru
exhaustion, the words coming harder
and im accepting a level of raw as done
that i would have sneered at earlier
got a couple of sections they not bad
but they not strong, and i kept going . .
deep im having to do what i have to
tell my students to do, just let it be bad
keep going, get the draft
you dont know what you have
till you got that draft
all my love
rdoc
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