done deal

FRI 01/19 8:08 am

on my way to studio in about an hour
time to finish this HBOF oral project
been down w/mucus but im tired of waiting

snowing heavy of course, such is life
major revision from last push, it will never
be done, i spent weeks taking out the blackness
trying to make it saleable to industry but now
that its clear industry doesnt care for it no matter

what i do im putting the blackness back in but
much tighter so it doesnt become rhetoric again

decided ima do like ive done my lit hoodoo class
im being much looser than i have in the past, im
basically training them to be word magicians

last class we talked about magic, about what
makes a text magical and they were on

told them magic is making real into the world what was not
told them you create the image in your mind of the alternate
reality you want to conjure then pour all your magical energy
into it until it becomes real in the world, asked them what
other process does that - told then art

told them a text is magical when it changes the reader as it is read
what it changes the world as it unscrolls itself, ima go deep on them

also im going in studio today for the 4th take
the 1st 3 were toss aways, now i think i got it

and i was thinking ima approach it differently
before i was very formal, thinking this is for
posterity its got to be perfect, but now ima
be more laid back, more personal, more
conversational, now im thinking ot if
as a chance to hold a dialogue with the
future,  ima try to make this endurance
run fun, its three 5 hours shifts and by the
end of a shift im wore out and drifting

but ima get this done
ima get it off my plate

photos are of baobabs im south africa that climate issues
are killing after some have lasted 1000s of years of climate
challenges and i thought about once i read that griots were
buried standing up in the hollow heart of baobabs, that

appeals to me, im gone, i got to read apps
i got to read manuscirptx and do all kinds of
schoolhouse paperwork, im gone

all my love

rdoc

 

TUES 01/08 5:50am

hello world

sent off my novel and my holybook
now i got to put them out of my mind
when you been invested like i been invested
hard to step back, this last read was hardcore
thoroughly sick of it, have lost faith in it but at
this point all you can do is fall forward

now i got to full court press schoolhouse
i got folks manuscripts and this is my only
slot, once schoolhouse starts its a grind
but this morning bereft of a major project
i swtarted thinking about mojo rising but

ima restrain myself, i got so much need
to be done, already i know of some novel
issues, i saw a sequence glitch, should
fix it before i seque out, erven if ive sent
it off, at least fix it in the draft i have

im gone, all my love

rdoc