TUES 3/12 2:26pm
done deal, ima crash out for a minute then start
reading thru novel, im both elated and afraid, ive
glanced at it a couple of times, appears to still be
reading smooth, we will see what a close read says
TUES 3/12 5:50am
hello all
i been off the grid, schoolhouse got me humping
and i been pouring all my discretionary time into
latest revision of the hoodoo book of flowers
thought it would be a read thru, turned out to be
a real revision and im like is this thing eternally
gon be lacking, have contracted w/adero to edit
it in april, i figure two more read thrus and ima
let it be, i could otherwise do this forever, doing
poetry drafts now and could spend like a week
on each para if i allowed it, now that ive decided
to do it myself i got to make sure its as
professional as humanly possible
and as much as its got me grindhousing &
as discouraged as i am, thinking how ive
invested decades of hard grind work and
the industry ignores me, the literary world
(my readers) have shrugged it and im here
still plugging away, spending my life up on
it because no matter what i believe in it
it is designed to Work the african american soul
and by god and all thats holy its designed well
doiing poetry draft where you have to be
real precise with your wordage and there is an
elation i cannot convey when the absolute right
word comes to me, reeking of power, and i am
once again infused with the power of the word
and a project i believe will actually change things
i got no beefs, im just glad im still here to crunch it, that
i have once again made it a better more precise text
sometimes when my text grows like this im glad the
industry did not take earlier versions, same same rest
i dont really mind the obscurity any more
ive gotten used to it and it has facilitated production
cause it piss me off and its like i will show you all
and i have gotten back into daily practice w/my mbira
was crunched with schoolhouse and gigs last months
and every discretionary musical mnoment was in studio
and had to revise manuscript repeatedly for studio but that
mean i been crunching it and the text has grown exponentially
and i listened to the 9 fucking hours of tape
and its not bad, not what i want yet but i got
the raw material, and if im still functional i will
do it again next year, every year i will record
or re-record a text and when im gone surely one
will be viable, speaking of gone im out of here
im on the 7th movement now, will be done w/this
draft today, then start reading rest to start programming
that revision in my head, do kimberlys text, do taxes,
then start VT text and i will have had a productive
spring break woodshed, im gone
picked up stephanie rose birds 365 days of hoodoo
have interacted w/her in past, she was respectful
i acknowledge her to real thing, need to give her
some play in HBOF, and i saw she had the hoodoo
calendar/almanac idea too, instead of having to
do it again each year though she did it generic
maximal impact, minimal maintenance
also i note how traditional it is
she modernizes the folk magic
but im in radically new territory
w/the high magic focus, i like
what im doing, i will have to
make it happen on them, 70
years old and have to go guerilla
on them, i believe i got one more
good campaign in me, lets do this
all my love
rdoc
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