SUN 10/6 6>31 am
hello world
took a minute to focus, been struggling w/the page
try iing to get the book produced been more than a
notion, lot of back and forth, and trying to get into
novel been breaking my spiritual back, what im
doing this draft is focusing on char, just char char
a need more char, my narrative weakness
as part of that been attempting enhancement
of protaganist, who generally reflects whatever
im going thru, losing voice and hands and all
but that was a little too esoteric, too adhoc
so i been thinking what iis his driving demon
been thinking that for all my chars
and its got to be the way of the prophet
i know more about the way of the prophet
than any living body and i need to let that
drive this text, the way of the prophet
that was a bold statement but i stand behind it
cause i been out here trying to manifest real world
and apparently an abject failure at it but all along
i have looked at trying to do it realworld as research
for writing about a prophet in my text
just wrote a would be holybook, from
biblic thru academe and speculative fiction
ive read every text on prophecy there is to
read then took it into the arena and got my
ass handed to me, i got shit to say . . .
(the trembling hands i make more typos these
days and it dont pay me to try to clean them up
in informal text - sorry about that .. . .)
so now its about a string of questions leading to clarity
i think my narr threads out on paper, keeps me focused
this will end up half speculation, have raw text
because as you ponder it you want to try to be
manifesting, putting down speculative beats and
dialogue lines to be worked later
Do you call yourself a prophet
What does that mean
Does it change your life to accept the call,
are you then obligated, obligated to do what
so just what is the arc of the prophet
as it plays out in jubilations life
a first he is in hiding from defeat in life
a finder of lost things in memphis
then the call, how does it manifest
the visions that he sees when sitting on river
how do the visions evolve
vague at first they soliidify as he begins
to assume the role
then he learns to control them??
or rather to ride the lines of the future
to conjure thru destinywork
how far do i get into the whole thing of
shaping generations, dont know that
i can do this at all w/o laying that framework
so have that in his memories of the babajohn
and clarify itself at the grave scene
and mt morris park, that night that
he wiill spend there, okay so he fights
tje call, what role do the boys of frt pilllow
play in accepting the call, what role the
queen mother, angel and man cargo
who is tge adoptive father of the qm i forgot
with a curious rela that i have not pllayed
he the haint annd she the 150 year old
conjurewoman, forgot he is her father
lot of room to play w/that and prob
should play more w/othella her mother
thru that
okay back to jubilation the would be prophet
of the hoodoo way, do i do a historical beat
using when that woman in ark asked me
do you consider yourself a prophet
question thru me, had to think about it
say reluctantly, i guess i do
how has that affected my life, lets say the
question get planted in your youth, affected
by reading epic scific like dune and the last
legends of earth while being trained to shape
generations by the babajohn, though agaunb
never thought of shit in that contex back ibn
my traiinee years,, its only in reflection when
ii ghave withdrawn from the fray taht i realize
all my life i beenn in trainiing for this
(been cleanin up text, hard to leave raggedy
text behinnd, but i wanted to let you see
what i been having to work with, who go time
to clean up shit that aint being published)
and alll you want to do now is get the text done
to slollidfy the vision, and have it be clear the
text im tallkjiingabout is the one in their hands
and does he know that he is destiiniied to
Become a tree, do i ghave the seven sisters
tell hin tghat abd if he believes how does he respond
okay staggerlee and the dead hoodoos
how does that platy into that
why are the haints of fort pilllow involved
because they cant rest until they been launched
iunto the game, until they been launched into legacy
7th heavy coilored artillery, reportiing for duty, siir
okay, stiill stagerlee and the dead hoodoos
whats going on withh that and
how much do i tell reader
how much creative ambiguity
hy is staggerlee doing this to his childhood buddy
trying to give hiim the poliutical ambiguty quickilll
or whatever his name was had in black panther
have him think he is doing the right thing for the
Race in stopping jubiullations attempt to transform
the race into a chosen people, i have them hit
that beat glancingly but i need to make that a
major arc, along with jubilations lack of comfort
with it and feeling like he has to
both of those beats are singletons, not only do i
have to make them arcs i need to make them
drivinng arcs and preeminent demons
okay im kinda clear on that but i got to
make both stag and shine more compelling
decided to have shine disappear into the
griid like llegba in count zero
then i got to fix the future scenrios
which are in truth his visions, last draft
i avioded making it exxplicit that they
have deiified ghim lb the future, in
spite of his admonitiobns not to
and i need to have practirtiiobers of
the hoiodioi way of the future in some
spiritual crises involving impending
transhumanization as we evolve into
a post physical elder race (i know
real the fuck specullative)
okay, ii got the basic thread
just got to start generating
raw manuscript now, go back
thru and start expanding shit
just do internal riffs about being a prophet, realms and reams of it
det what kind of settings / dialogues / beats would be good triggers
feels good to be back in the
saddle, throwing every spare
moment into the text
all my love
rdoc
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