not sure what to do w/myself

THURS 11/11/21 

hello world, been off the grid, did last revision
of memoir before sending off to ellen

deep into a  hoodoo almanac as book
that ijve asked james and casey to
be part of and their contribution has
made it special, an inbtergenerational
dialogue, chelsea is ronnies daughter
im training them in the art of making
books, trying to set up flowers, inc.

will have 1st draft done by weekend
and im eager to get back to novel

gon hit it again, what can i say
i am who i am, thinking this time
the meta approach isnt working
ima try straight up fantasy
before wanted to show folk
what a real hoodoo do but now
that ive done that in geas i can
let that novel serve its own
master whatever that mean

im gone, wont make that t weekend
cut unless i stay on the gun, i read this
article say 60 to 80 are your most
productive years, ima try to find
the link, dont know about the
quality but Im seriously
clocking pages

couldnt fid a link, facebook info
ima believe it cause i choose to

 

Diane Zeitlin Gefter Dinkmeyer

October 20 at 11:27 AM  ·

 

An extensive study in the U.S.A found that the most productive age in human life is between 60-70 years of age.

The 2nd. most productive stage of the human being is from 70 to 80 years of age.

The 3rd. most productive stage is from 50 to 60 years of age.

The average age of NOBEL PRIZE winners is 62 years old.

The average age of the presidents of prominent companies in the world is 63 years.

The average age of the pastors of the 100 largest churches in the U.S.A. is 71.

The average age of the Popes is 76 years.

This tells us in a way that it has been determined, that the best years of your life are between 60 and 80 years.

A study published in NEW ENGLAND JOURNAL OF MEDICINE found that at age 60, you reach the TOP of your potential and this continues into your 80s.

Therefore, if you are between 60 -70 or 70-80 you are in the BEST and 2nd. level of your life.

SOURCE: N.Engl.J .Med. 70,389 (2018) ..

 

PS: i was just reading over this post and i
see that same old exceptionalism, i try to be
humble, to accept my lot but seem unable
to do so, i still feel chosen - (if you cant shake
it rick, at least keep it to yourself)

monday 9/26/21   11:44 am

third realm @alexistsegba

hello world, i been off the grid, im in a strange space
sent memoir off, who knew they were so diffricult

got to find balance between exposure and restraint
that 1st draft was everyhting i could remember, full
of fluff and i thought the memoir aesthetic was be
ruthlessly honest and tell your secrets, the responses
convinced me no, you have to shape it

i embarrassed myself for naught but i guess its all process
who knew memoirs were so difficull, mary karr been helping
me navigate, she said i told yall, yall thought i was skating,
well now i know, i thougtht it woulde be an easy kill

the other trip is that i have somehow talked myself into a
different space, i am no longer driven as i have been in the

past, gon do another draft of novel and since i used so
many of my meta beats in memoir ima just let novel
do whatever it wants to do - thats how hbof came to life
when i stopped trying to please the industry and at this point
what do i have to lose,

im thinking booklength poem, quasidimensional lyricals
if it dont work i still got prev, what the hell, lets go for it

free rick

hopefully i dont obsess on it once i dig in
memoir still growing but otherwise im chilling
doing some small projects, some art, novel
might suck me back in but right now im coasting

right now i feel like ive done what
i was sent here to do, the rest

is gravy

be sale, i remain your
brudda in de Craft