
hello world, im so far ubnderwater
ima just hit the highlights
talking to monte about a will and
setting up flowers foundation
talking to dick nreyer about doing
a documentary of me
finally started working on film
of the night at stax w/the traveling show
finally decided on an approach
gon talk about being the high hoodoo
of memphios and make it a beat of my mythwork
students taking a god awful lot of my time
sometimes whole work days but i love it
oldschool, back to me blact arts movement roots
bringing back power from 20 years working for the man
and i get benefit cross fertilizing with them
reading thru memoir, decided based on convos
with lord monroe to change as m any of my lifebeats
as possible to sufi type wisdom tales
many using the high hoodoo, the babajohn
and sheree as queen motherr memphis
those of you know mw know i want to start a tradition
a wisdom tale tradition akin to that of the sufi and i
will just use the many beats of my life that will fit
that seeker of wisdom quest as 3rd person wisdom tales
dispersed thru out the text - im very extcited
tho afraid cause i have no idea how this is gon work
and if it will make the Work that much more unsaleable
but it is so freeing that i dismiss the industry these day
in the years of my closures iots all about the dialogue
with the generations - speaking of which
so im reading thru and happy to report
that after a year off its reading cleanly
a year of getting cold flaws will be apparent
still doing thi rtesarch griind
forcemarching thru samples
and textbooks
just recently discovered a field called
self determination theory SDT which
is all anout indiv and cult florishing / agency
my cup runnth over, got about 10 textbook sample
resisting 100 price tags on one exquitie one
but by the tiojme ive read 10 samples and their outlines
even if i dont read the books i got reams of raw knowledge
examples of recent extractions from oxf hand of meaning and others
NOTES FROM THE OXFORD HANDBOOK SAMPLE (TOOL EXPENSICE TO BUY BUT I WISH)
distinction between greast meaning and normal meaning
great being change agent, normal being life and living
also a distinction between asupernatrural (need god / soul for meaning)
vs naturalist who say what we have is sufficient wo
the subjective vs the objective
the pointless activities objection to subjective
self propogating goals expand and evolve in phases as we approach achievments
Personal narratives often involve illusion
meaning and importance do not necessarily overlap
a loving family man can be impo but lack greater meaning
to be meaningful must be purposeful and greateer than self interest
folk have to find their FA, determineing what is authentic to your deepest highest self / soul
foklk who feel that meaning is about finding ones place and rolke in the universe
whiuch is the quest for FA
author says that excludes free will, I don’t agree
I will not accept any theory that negates my free will
self control and ego depletion beats fromhandbook of self regulation
that ongoing self control depletes control resources
so ho do you encourage ongioln g control
thru affirmation, thru rest and pacing, thru affirming core values
planning self efficiency and action control to generate positive behavior patterns
depleated ego resources encourages senseof cant win passivity
automaticity are automatic response, low cognition, self replicating,
while controlled process are intentional dependent on cognitive resources
conscious and stoppable
desirte is what you want
temptation is what you want and should not indulge
as counterfactual to successful adaptation
desire strength and cognitive habitualization the more mental resources
contributed to a desire the stronger it becomes, is this for positive reinforcement too
early reaard processing triggers fast instince inpulsive habituated responses
self control isoverrising one action tendency to achiecve a greater goal
self regulation is broader processs. Of self corrective adjustment
emlotional regulation is regulatin affective and emotional res[onse
three avoiding selectiong or altering triggering sitautions/
deplpoyinng attention / focus, cogniitude adjustment, modulating
initiall emotional and behavioral responses
how do folk determine when emotional regulation required
goal oriented emotional reg operates at intermediate ;evels of complexity
and is governed by explicit verbalizable goals
1) have to identity wheter emotional responses fal;l short of goal state
2) determine if and if so how to engage iin emotional regulaitoon
3) enact emotional regulation strategies / shift
three types, he goes from greater to lessor
better lessor to greater
lowcomplexity need based ER: maximize pleasure, minimize pain
midcompllexity person based ER: maintain single emotion
highcomplexity global emotional balance: integrate multiple emotional impulses
today I found that there is an entire field
called self determination theory, downloaded
about 6 textbook samples, will wonders never
cease, I believe
also i have prommised out many conquer roots
which i just dont do anymore
ive gotten allegeric to them, have to wear masks and googles
it was always a shitload of work to do one and now that my hands tremble
its a shitload times three and im more likely to cut myself
even back in the day i would cut myself xacto
knifing those roots and when it happened id rub
the blood into the rooit to activate it but i can do
wo that little touch thank you
the picture above is the only pic i got
ive done dozens and dont remember
who got which, each one is diffn ut
now i owe ones to:
erynn, desmonde, dana, jaime, serena, kayla, rai, hess, roman
need to do one for asheree, (ask, she prob got one)
damon, cequita, gwen, red, who else, let me
stop, full production this will lean into 2023
i make art projects out of them, cowries,
crystals and elekes of the 7 african powers

put 20 roots of my list of things to do
make that 40, i have a small one on my
keyring w/jiuist elekes, all beat up and worn smooth,
many elekes missing but i love it, be nice to give
them a desk root and a keyring root, we will see
i got to go, so many books so little time
every word generated here is words
i coulda been generating for my Texts
be safe
i gotta go
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