7:51 the cusem, im in, im rolling, ok more like
im limping along, the key is can i sustain it
hello world, 1/26//25 9:05am the cuse
bluesman on a sun run, 360%. - AI word by rdoc
okay hopefully about to climb into the saddle again
havent written on novel all month, if one of my students
told me they havent written in a month id chastize
them severely, i been afraid i just dont have it in me
and this is my last shot to get it write, to leave
my masterpiece behind
what i got to do is give up any expectation of
what it should do and accept whatever i get
my two big influences right now are alexis de veauxs
jesus deviil, which is giving me permission to narr in
the broken lines im drawn to (as you may notice here)
ok,, thhe other influence of moment is nnedi
novel death of the writer, when i read all the
accoladess about how she redefining storytelling
i was like i gotta read this and i was afraid that
she had written the book i been trying to write
some 30 years now (god ii been telling folk 20
30 sounds so much worse) i was afraid she
had made my work obsolete or that folk
would claim my work is derivative
but the more i read it the more i am
assured that my story is still fresh
i have been haunted some years now by the
editor who said in rejection that its more
about stories than it is itself a story
that like to broke my spirit
but the more i read it the more assured
i am that my bookmade future building
is different enuf im still good, if i
can execute, i been afraid, afraid
i wont get the years i will need . .
tick tock
afraid i have lost my chops
tick tock
afraid i never had any chops ever
20 years i been getting rejection on this novel
20 years make even the stoutest heart wonder
only recently decided to abandon literary and
go magical / fantastical on an entirely new
level - same as writer in her book
i was like has this woman written
the book i been trying to write
and getting the acclaim and wonderment
i been expecting to reap - okay so
reading it now - im good
still i assume she gon give me
insight into how to pull it off &
provide insight on storytelling, my
thing as delta griot but whew, we
got two different novels
she wrote hers
i gotta write mine
push the fear to the side
and dig in, word by word,
sentence by sentence
two pages a day this week rick,
i can do two pages in my sleep
fuck that, 5 pages a day
lets see whats what . . .
lets separate the writers
from the dilettantes
be safe be well
be ready
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