TUESDAY AFTERNOON
just heard from keith gilyard that grace killens died this morning, about 4 am
ms grace was john killens wife and of the two of them she was the militant one
that kept him on point, i knew she was under the gun and i been intending to
get to city to see her and it kept getting put back, feel guilty about that but ms grace wouldnt
hold it against me so im not going to worry about it, guess i will be trekking down to city
im out, let me leave you w/this puppetry piece, i never realized how so very human blinks are
Royal de Luxe - LE RENDEZ-VOUS DE BERLIN, DAS WIEDERSEHEN VON BERLIN from Nina. on Vimeo.
these puppets are so soulful they make me think about what it mean to be human, i enjoy being conscious of humanity and the human condition and all that, thats what literature all about, anything that sensitize me to that, im hungry for that, it make me tingle
Royal de Luxe from Yves Chauvel on Vimeo.
i miss ms grace, as much as i miss john o and my father, life is such a strange journey, i wish her god speed, and sekou and safiya and imogunla et al, all the folk in my life who have passed on, both the living and the dead, and generations to come, gods blessings on us all
all my love
rdoc
hello world, ive been underwater, but it cross my mind i hadnt commented on the healthbill vote
so, giving rickydocs blessings on nancy pelosi, barack obama, anh cao and the strong 220
now the real battle begins, the senate, looking for the strong 60, i dont quite understand how that works i am shamed to say, why cant they just let the republicans filibuster,
seem like in the old civil rights days they filibustered everything and it got thru anyway - now folk so scared of the filibuster they knuckle under beforehand, i must not understand how that works
what else, im sure there is a lot to comment on but im feeling underwater, been doing nothing but ofm for the last week, other folks manuscripts, trying to get thru all these end of the year obligations
and its clear there is another category that i have to learn how to say no to, undergrad mfa submissions - this year ive been inundated with folk wanting me to critique their mfa application submissions
a lot of them folk ive encouraged to go for it, cant honorably say no when they ask me to read their work - but im kinda frustrated now, havent been able to do any of my work this week, buried in ofm
that make me grouchy
i see the answer to this is to say no
just say no rick, cant do it - trying to get my own work done, just cant do it
school obligatories i got to do, but one story beyond my obligatories takes my discretionary time, lets say 3 hours or more per story, that mean that day shot for my work - a novel takes about a week, or a full weekend, more if its a complicated novel,
and so often folk dont follow thru, thats time been wasted
some folk dont really want to become better writers, they just want help being published, mfa entry, etc - you can pretty much tell by how they come to you who want real help and who just using you
got to get ruthless rick, im not doing this again, im much too desperate to give up days - weeks of writing time consistently like this
me and george was talking about this the other day, what i got he got doubled - geo better w/the no than i am, he has to be
couple of days ago this brother aked me to read a manuscripts of shorts for him, god i wanted to say cant do it man, just cant do it, but he a brother back home thats been serious about his literary efforts, ive known him 20 years now and hes always been respectful, had enuf success to keep him in the game, i feel obligated to help him, thats what it boil down to, so many folk helped me when i was knocking at the door
when you quote unquote successful for so many folk you the best or only gateway they know and you feel like you got to be generous because folk was generous with you when you was a desperate young cub
i guess you might as well quit whining rick, you just wasting time you could be getting thru these manuscripts,
ive already obligated myself for these and i try to live by my word
but in the future, folk gone get a lot more no from me, just cant do it, just cant
had one person send me her work and give me a deadline to get back to her, it was something like 3 days and i could only be amused, okay, what about the 15 folk thats in front of you, some of whom been waiting a year or so to hear back from me, what im suppose to do about them
but mr niceguy say cant do it in 3 days, i will try in next week or so, cause i know she trying to get her mfa application off, but its not going to happen, these mfa apps they not likely to be done before end of month
my goal right now is get through these novel manuscripts, so this month look like
between schoolhouse and manuscriptwork (and evan) nothing for flowers
i really felt for my gradstudents when teaching start cutting into their production time, but i couldnt let them
stay in that space, every writer i know teach, you make it work - i bought pizza and beer last class to
knda apologize for jacking them up week before, i know i know, the beer was pushing it
(was just thinking if i put mfa folk off to the end of month that doesnt give them much rewrite time before those apps start going out dec 1st, might have to push them further up the line, big sigh)
i think when i finish this manuscript im on ima take the weekend for my own before i dig into next one
that might take some of this pressure off my soul, take some of this grouch up off of me
im gone, day feels half gone already, got a string of meetings w/students (about their manuscripts)
starting in about 30 minutes, running late again rick - got to get on my pony and ride
(pony a metaphor, actually im about to get in the volvo and ride)
im out
rdoc
okay, let me see, cant hold back, my boy alex yates got a deal, its still in negotiation so i cant go into detail yet but he sold his novel, me and alex been close since he got here, always came to me w/respect, came up in here talking novel, alex one of my special ones - im just as tickled as if i had sold my own
wish i could claim credit for him but alex so good he woulda sold no matter who he was working with, book was on the market all of 8 days before the bids start coming in
well, i still got bragging rights and thats what count
that photo, tulsi sent me that, from the jaipur literary festival performance, did that month long state dept goodwill tour of india, photo brought back the glorydays, they treated me like i was some kind of literary guru, bowing, touching my feet, the little halfcircle asking about the meaning of life, amazing sets and astounding offers, it mess w/my head a little bit i have to say, but i could get used to that - it was interesting the way folk responded to the spiritual component of my work in a way ive not experienced elsewhere in my travels
washout on the elections yesterday, i was hoping corzine would pull thru, we would have actually been better off to lose the 23rd up in newyork, that would have emboldened the wingnut right of the republican party to drag it even further to the right and kick out more moderates before the 2010 midterm elections
instead the model will be the virginia guy who hid his rightwing inclinations until elected, id rather have the rightwing in full bray myself
apparently publishers weekly just did a listing, 10 best books 2009, that did not include any women, imagine that - some folk are clueless, pw is not clueless, a conscious decision was made, some penalty should be paid for thinking they could get away w/it
okay, what else, had a productive weekend, im in that strange end of semester space, i got to step up my game for november, do backupped feedbacks, get manuscripts off my plates, hold overdue conferences w/students, overdue lunch obligations, i got to give them my all this month because come dec 1st im thru
i dont accept manuscripts or set up conferences that last couple of weeks of school because they will wait until the last week to give me a slew of drafts, so after school is done im still buried, that dont fly
otherday i jacked up my grad workshop, they were turning in raw fragments and i said this is not your A game, raw i can take, but not fragments, you not getting full benefit of workshop experience,
they made some good cases about struggling w/new stuff, but i think im right on this one, bring your best effort to workshop, but if im asking them for their A game, i got to give them mine, which mean focus, rick
one month, full court press focus, i can handle that
what was cutting into their production was this teaching, which will cut any writers production if you let it,
you learn how to modulate it, cant give it 100%, just cant, you learn to cut any corner that can be cut
and these manuscript, by god in heaven im getting them off my plate too, this week will be 2 down, 3 to go
i can already smell freedom to focus on my own work, maybe a month, minus family xmas time, the temptation is to shut down shop right now, that i have to fight, problem with teaching is that my heart is in it
i like doing well, i like giving my students what they need, (not necessarily what they want)
so i have to resist the pull to pull out early, but its almost time to send my traveling spirit out, thats when the real me is home working while the traveling spirit is out there dealing with people, they think they dealing w/me but its just a facade
what else, my numbers been dropping, cause my posting spotty and self referenced, so be it
did some work on my holybook this week, that was cool, finished off a gil scott heron piece for oxford and
thought if im going to be doing nonfiction i might as well do some that really mean something to me
so i pulled out my holybook, the hoodoo book of flowers, the great black book of generations, plan was to put the novel down (gasp) for nov, while im dug into the schoolhouse crunch anyway, and work on HBOF
but that didnt work, ima have to do both, there is no such thing as put the novel down
okay, im gone, i want to do commentary but its all me me me, maybe later
congrats again to alex, man that felt as good as selling my own
i love teaching young writers and i love even more when i can help them navigate the industry
alex was easy, but i get bragging rights anyway, feels good, real real good
damn every industry gatekeeper that ever was, we coming thru
all my love
rdoc
finally, the sun is rising,
i been sitting here at the sacred desk trying to write for a couple of hours now and nothing happening, i feel so beat up wore out tired i just cant get my groove on,
just sitting here watching the sun rise, watching the sky turn
saw keith gilyard today, adam brought him on campus, keith and safiya the ones brought me to syracuse, me and keith go all the way back, his bio on my mentor, john oliver killens, is due out in april, from univ of georgia press, i cant wait
keith know all the secrets, he was telling me stuff about john i had no idea, i had read earlier drafts of bio but its evolved so far beyond what it was, he was telling me juicy stuff the lawyers wouldnt let him include because it was telling secrets on mainstream literary icons, who fucked whose wife, who still holding ideological grudges after all these years,
literary wars they never cease
so many secrets that i want to tell you, as you know dear regulators, secrets are my business, the hoodoo coin in trade, but for once i think i will let discretion be the better part of valor, im out
the sky is beginning to streak with light, its really pretty, today might be a chill out day, a lick my wounds day
a day for watching the sun rise, licking my wounds, soldiering on
rdoc
nina shope got this from some group call boldprogressives or something like that
now i dont usually sign online petitions and other such tactics of the weak
but for joe lieberman i will make an exception, anything rachel madow (and nina) approve of
i approve of too
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Nina,
You may have heard the news. Sen. Joe Lieberman (I-CT) is threatening
to help Republicans block a vote on health care reform if the bill
includes a public health insurance option.
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"Oh, God no."
What's our answer? Hell yeah!
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