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sat 7/6 4:47  vancouver ca

hello world, it may not surprise you to lknow that
i am still buried into rest, what can i say, wojo iis
doing the layout but im doung it soo as to learn

iin design and its been real frustrating but one
does what one has to do

hhave gotten deeply into bonsai
overdid it like i do,must have about
10 plants now including two baobab trees
can you imagine, who knew you could have
a bonsai baobab, i like the idea of tree art

in vancouver for the summer indian fest
hiut last night and i nailed it, i got this
whole new tech i call hands flyiing and it
went magical last night, standing ovation

an of course since im still working on
the hoodoo book o9f flowers still doi ng
research, these are the raw notes from
person, divinity and nature by chukwunyere kamalu:

Change mmulatressa to maat

The goddess maat is the eptian god of justice who weighs souls against a feather, I they are blameless and their sins lighter than the feather they are allowed to pass, if not they are consumed, her focus on justice, on law and regulation was part of eypts attempt to regulate the liifegiving nile, to master its rhythm

His position iis that many of the folk of west Africa migrated fromm the nile val=ley

Collapse of oyo and the death of king awole in 1796 sl avery flourished
yourba were no longer able to defend themselves

Queen Nzinga declared her territory free and any slave who made it there was free

Ritual connects the matteriall world with the spiritual, the visible with the invisible

The jome soul as the coordinator of the multiple selves we are
the intrigy of the person ammpngst a;l; the pulls on them
the one that organizes all the selves into a viable char, preferably illuminated

So is it the traveling spirit that he is saying is responsible for living out your destiinmy

Sound like hr saying its thr traveling spirit, don't knonw if thaht works for me
I have been thinking as the hohjme spirit guarding the intrity of the individual, defense

An the traveling spirit as the one thaht

Where did I get idea tht nommo means power of the word to forge new realities

The 266 signs of amma forged the world thru the word, the nommo ogo tried to usurp ammas power by stealing the word that creates and amma removed his tongue so he was not able to say it

Im doing the same thing the sabiny ellders did, studyingthe tradition to see what tradiitions need updating, which need to be abandoned as not suitable for current life and which need to be reshaped

He talks about all the mu;tiiple personalities that contend within the individual and it's the home soul that provides the iin triigy, the soul, the spirit, the soul felt right just now, the spirit did not

He says the ‘destiny sellf’ coordindates

Destiny binds,legba unbinds

Figuring out legba and destiny but what about destiny and the conjuror

More than just disrupting orderm, iuts got to be somettbihng proactive

The whole thing of chopopsing and living out your berst destiny

The traveling spirit as cosmic guide to oneness with the great mojio

Igbo practitioner is a diajiba

Lady preseshet, 4^th dynasty, 1^st recrded female phyisian

 Traveling spiuriit as guardian spirit, the aggressor manifesting in to the world

On learns to istgen to the voice of fa

The highest calling of life is to manifest your destiny, to have

Agency, to use your agencyto mmake a better world, to enhance the human condition

The ancestral guardian, that which has been transmiutted generation to generation

Unconscious dreams, lucid dreams and out of body dreams

When jubilation sends huis traveling soul on the destiny path
cast your vision young hoiiodoo as far as you can see

The home soul organizes all the manyselves into the greatet self

Without this the delicate balance falls apart, wo the great mojo

Oral incantation effects autosuggestion

Good and evil can only be judged in relation to others

Rplace mulatressa w/maat

Detibny is an unknown, how do youio manimfest it,makje it explicit

As you llearn yourself you lerarn yyour deswtiny

Badluck as the ancetors ;’lettrig their protec tioon slip’

The pedestal of ptah, upon this rock I stand

;I made a foundation in my heart by means of my own will’  papyrus of nesi amsu

Ptah hotep  the ioldest book. The pprisse papyrus
the crossrioad,m where decisions are life changing

Life witghouto chance would be barren

To build I must 1^st break

Everybody is gifted w/fa but most squander it

Bambabaraland lifeforce is zo-nyame and the vibration for ‘transwmissionn  of the word is yereyereli

Home as knowb orediictable, world as no

All the aloof high goopds made mad by the womabn with the pedasal and leaves soo not thre liue the abrahami gods

Thanking the land when extracting resources is pantheism, everytign has a spirit

Have jubilation sending out his traveling spiruit into the future scenarios searching for the one that will bring about the future he wants, do a series of those to be refined

 

 

sun 6/23/19



hello world, i am in the zone, dug in, the hardest
part is its just a drudge, hour after hour of focus
and wanting to do anything else other than wrestle
with the page but i love that the work is growing

so im inputting redpen into text now, should be
done by tonight sometime but if not i will def be
done by tiime i meet up w/wojo at 12 tomorrow

have incorporated all my raw notes, this is an
example of how raw notes become text:

GATHERING
the conch horn should only be blown in times of greatest need, when survival of the tribe or slavery is at stake, the importance of the conch must be instilled generation after generation thru story and ritual so when the conch does call it stirs the soul, a gathering of the tribes, bring shield, bring spear 

(note became this text, got placed in crossroads, not gathering . . )

4: when the french finally captured macandal the slaves were commanded to watch their wanga man die at the stake, where is his power now, the french taunted, but when the flames were lit, macandal screamed and leapt from the pyre, the french swore they threw him back in but the slaves knew better & all that night conch horns echoed thruout the mountains - macandal is free - the conch should only be blown in times of greatest need, when survival of the tribe or its enslavement is at stake, hopefully you do not hear the haunting refrain of the conch in your lifetime but still you must know its power, the importance of the conch must be instilled generation after generation thru story and ritual so when the conch does call it stirs the soul - a gathering of the tribes, bring shield, bring spear, battle has come to us,

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''battle has come to us' is a battle cry of black farmers of
the sudan fighting off arab slave raiders, somewhere

i have it in its original language, ima find it and use it
and again be accused of being too twisty / obscure

but im very proud of the fact that almost every beat
even the most mythical, is historically and culturally
based, came from historical and cultural sources

when folk challenge me and start breaking my shit down
they will find they cant go deep enuf to out-authority me
(all that damn research i been whining about)

the hoodoo way is to know what history knows
what history dont  know is where i get to play

basically my work wont fully come to life
until scholars start breaking it down for folk

im gone, got a lot of work to get thru today
one of the hardest roadblocks is not knowing
if my vision is true and if im leading the people
wrong, for instance i am uncomfortable anytime
i bring up the conflict between blacks and arabs
but there are some things need to be said

and thruout the text i use shield and spear as
a metaphor for war but i fear its questionable
romanticizing archaic africa or something

but the image speaks to me, ima keep usiing
it and accept the charge if somebody lays it

almost every decision ive made in this
text i have twisted msyelf in what if knots
these 2 are relatively minor quandrys

what if im wrong making it a black
text instead of a universal one

what if i should have gone religious instead of magical
should i have put more of me in or less of me in it
what if im wrong about the nature of god, etc etc

final analysis you got to jjust trust yourself, trust the
process, i got to go, i got so much work to do

there is no rest for the weary

thats my backyard bottletrees, storm took one
a sacrifice to the gods of literature, to ensure
that my work serve many generations

im so gone, all my llove

rdoc

frid 6/21/19

for awhile there i was panicking, finiished research push
sat down to do last revision and just could not get into it, had
like 6 days to do 9 segments, dooable, no slack but doable

1st day i struggled w/that 1st segment, was not into it,
had to strugglle to stay focused, was discouraged by
the so so quality of the new imputs and the work itself

basicall im just burnt the fuck out on it, do not feel like
reading it again, 2nd segment i just put it down halfway
spent two days just spinning my wheels on otger stuff

and being afraid that i was just burnt out and ready
to call it a day but today im back in the saddle, ive
done two segss today, i tell my students all the time
schedule days off or you will take them anyway and
feel bad and that is apparently whata happened

i needed a couple of days off
on segment 5 now, looks like i
i will have this done by monday
to give to wojo after all -

supreme good fortune

tues 6/18/19



hello world, finished the winnowing
could continue but im in a ruthless
State of mind, about to start weaving
still raw but what can i do, will keep
cleaning, also when im worn out will
read the god book and the wisdom
book - be a good headset to be in

so this is what ive wiinnowed from all taht trash
still trash, still wiinnowing but at least itss coherent
and ive noted which section to weave into
ima try to fiinsh this today and get started
on reall mmanuscript thiis evening

take care

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TIME

past, the present and the future are all contained in the timeless instant of eternity - and the word that enables it – demoja - it is thru art that we can grip eternity and hold it in the palm of our hand, clock time is our attempt to master time, to put it to work, mind time is times defiance of mastery, mind time can stretch an hour into eternity, encompass eternity in an instant, but even clock time is relative, folk experiencing it different at different heights and speeds, when we reach for the stars we will be on diiff clocks than the planetbound, common sense says time is the same for everybody but generally speaking whenever common sense and science go head up science generally wins

 

FA
if the universe is a conscious entity, god, what would the point be, what is its goal, clearly this is raw speculation but id say harmony maybe where all the universal pieces are working well together and that the song it sings is sweet, folk doing astrology are like trying to attune themselves to the dane of the stars, trying to be part of the celestial harmony

To known Fa is to remember that no matter the adversity, you have  the power to choose how you will deal with it, the hammer is always a crossroads, an invitation to grace


TRANSGRESSION
it is a survival trait that cause humans to cooperate with each other and sanction those that dont, social taboos are inoculations against disease and disorder


SCIENCE
sciences perception is that every event must have a preceding causal event according to natural law as we currently perceive it

science should and must be driven by a desire to enhance the human condition and a relentlless obsession with the truth of things, in spite of its legendary elusiveness,


CROADS
crossroad points are temporal points that open up certain destinic possibilities while closing down others, the future is an infinite array of possibilities with various %s of potentiality, crossroad points remix the array, set up new paths to desired realities / futures, solidify them,


ILLUMINATION
both theistic and nontheistic system try to orient the practitioner with a more illuminated reality, be it deity or a way, as in tao, zen or the mojo

the human mind / imagination is designed to be subject to illusion, one of its strengths and also its weaknesses, you know it's a delusion / illusion when it does not have causal effect in the world, when the only one it affects is you this, is the case even with art and other individualistic pursuits like magic, or prophecy, you got to be able to bring that power back to the world in a usable form

 

PURPOSE
on a cosmic scale human life is the barest blink of an eye, the minute you born the clock is ticking and you falling behind - become conscious quck as you can, settle yourself, choose your path, articulate a contribution to the enhancement of the human condition, devote your life to it, and the care of loved ones, die easy, satisfied, I done good, short time I was here, I done good,

if we were to wipe ourselves out or fall prey to a random asteroid, the immensity of the universe would not even notice our passing – but if we do survive, expand, get off the planet spread out amongst the stars and continue to shape our environments we are likely to be true force in the universe, (though when you see what we done to our current planet this might not be such a good thing) – transhumanization might allow us to finesse the end of time / universe theories, transit before the big brake / crunch / freeze / lurch / rip / singularity / whimper / whatever,

same way we have evolved from early organisms crawling in the mud thru apes,  cro-magnons and such, this is not the final stage, in iain banks culture when folk die their consciousness is loaded into the collective, in the novel aristos the elites are capable of conjuring entire solar systems in their collective reality, domains over which they rule as gods, quirky, crazed or benevolent, one physicist speculate being uploaded into magnetic intelligences that can exist in the nothingness of space, that might be able to create new universes, new big bangs, quien sabe –but this I do know, we are still, if we don't get wiped out, in the early stages of our evolution and future folk will wonder how we had enuf sense to come in out of the rain, they will consider us crudely formed savages, some of them will insist that they couldnt possibly be related to us -

 

TRANSGRESSION
free will and agency means that sometimes humanity is not at its best, sowing death doom and destruction in its wake - its like a trade off

 

GOD
if part of the legacy of science and the scientifc approach is the dehtroniing of spirits as causal actors why does this not apply to the greatest spirit of all


SPIRIT
The soul is where the individual converges with the universal, the divinity

 

CONSCIOUSNESS
The soul can only be consciousness, what else can it be, weak at birth it becomes stronger as we become more self aware, more self guided, its evolution the measure of your growth

If the soul is consciousness, and I believe it is, then what role the immensity of the unconscious mind, perhaps it is the unconscious mind that links us to the universe, the divinity, the great mojo, which would account for its turbulences, the times it gets away from us

 

RDX
Know me in your heart and I will know you in mine


HONOR
The need for integrity of the homesoul, every loss of integrity leaves your soul damaged

 

BLUES
blues gospel according to ray charles: Ive fooled around the way blacks have been doing for years, playing the blues to different rhythms. that style requires pure heart singing. Later on they would call it soul music.

 

TRIAL & TRIB
wrestling with your demons is the only way the soul defines itself, a journey fraught with peril but well worth the risks, It is only by digging deep into your sufferings and your fears and anxieties rthat you will become soulful, by gaining perspective on them, by paying the freight, the shadowy depths of the unconscious,

 

MOJO
a hunter brought home a strange looking kill, an animal they had never seen before, do not eat it his grandmother said, it is a soul eater, a demon, you think you consuming it but in truth it is consuming you, we must burn it but eldest son was adamant, it is a meal he said, only a meal, and so he ate it, no one else in the family would, the next morning he was dead but he did not rot and grandmother would not let him be buried undead, the ancestors will not accept him, his soul is in torment - on the new moon grandfather told youngest brother to prepare for a hunt, my eyes are weak, my hand trembles, you must be my vision, my strong right arm, bring the palm wine juju - and so they went into the bush and stayed until they found an animal much like the other, trapped it with the juju and crushed its head, burn it, said grandfather and so they did, and when they returned to the village they found older brother with his head crushed and truly dead, they buried him with full ancestral honors,

the loss of mojo often entails the shattering of your faith in yourself, the vision of who you are is no longer tenable, you must find a new you - you can tell when you got your mojo back and you moving thru the world with confidence again, alive again - when you lose your mojo accept a period of fallowness while your batteries recharge, patiently focus, you will know when it returns, I got my mojo working is the best song ever,

 

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there is a man walking around downtown memphis carrying a satchel filled with contracts and 50 dollar bills, if you sign over your soul he will give you $50 dollars, for some reason he give some folk $100, nobody knows why he think some souls worth more than others,

 

WISDOM
I aspired so fiercely to be a wise old soul without actually being old (too late)

For many years I aspired to be wise and then when I finally achieved wisdom I gave it all to pride

 

JOURNEY
What the hero brings back from the heros journey is generally just a story, a baby myth

There are many roads but only one path, the roads are all hard ones, beset with trial and tribulation you must surely bear, when the hammer fall you must remember your calling, you are hoodoo bound and in trouble you only grow strong,

 

SONGHAY ATTACH
it was the end of an era when wagadu fell to the moroccans, their shields and spears as useless against the guns of the Moroccans as they were later generations against the british msxims, the irony is that the wakauri elites of songhay turned down a chance to buy readily available guns they could have easily afforded with their gold wealth, the scribes of Timbuktu will tell you it was because of the botched sacrifice of a goat, because loss of nyama between warring brothers left it vulnerable to conquest but they never mention the guns, diff folk judge power different I guess, and so they were destroyed, many wakuri executed, legendary scholars like ahmad baba al massuli al tiimbuktu, exiled and, ljke ansar dine, years later, the moroccans tried to destroy the books of timbuku, destroy its legacy – and yet the gods refused to let the glory of the songhay die and every morning the city of gao floats into the clouds , the bullets of the moroccans always fall short and  it escapes unscathed, to rise again the next morning, and the next, unto eternity, look, that glow you see inm the middle of the sun, thats gao the eternal, rising, do not gaze upon her long, it will blind you,

the bella and the taureg, the hal-pulaar and the beydanes, if we can free the slaves what good are we, the sons and daughters of slaves, the same sense of privelge responsible for the destruction of the Songhay was also responsible for azawad and the rape of Darfur, the rise of the ______ and the Janjaweed, Ansar dine instrunment of arab natioinalilsm, the peulhh, the black arabs, identify arab and are true believers who often jihad often against each other, eleohants that trample the black farmers between them, Iyad ag ghalis arabist claim to blood rule of the blacks, The Ansar diine tried to smash the tomb of sidi yahia but all they destroyed was the building

 

BLUES
when salif keita joined the rail band in Bamako the keitas, of the line of Sundiata keitas, disowned this turn fromn noble too nyamakala, griot, servant,

 

SPIRIT
the self, the home soul and grades of consciousness
effecting a multitude of personalities depending

 

CONJURATION
African American culture still values magic, still believes in hoodoo even when they sneer at it, magic works because the culture believes it does, blackfolk want to believe in hoodoo, and hoodoo magicians, blackfolk actually quiete proud of their conjurors, when folk realize im retooling hoodoo for the 21^st century they are eager to partake of the power,

a successful conjuration (reality bend) entails 1^st the disruption of the current reality, the questioning, then successful small group agreement on the new paradigm, alternative states of consciousness, it become a way, a few folk valuate the conjuration, other folk see it work for them enhancing their lives, manifesting power, significance, serenity, agency, other folk sign up and the conjuration becomes a cultural thread that either evolve or devolve,

 

MAGIC
magical word packets can be prescriptive wish magic, saying it is so makes it so (so let it be) and/or performative, actually affecting current reality (this I vow,)

GRACE
acts of grace can lifechanging for both the giver and the givee, it's the small curtsies that folk remember, amiri once did me a solid that he probably didnt remember but it meant so much to me and I will always love him for seeing what other folk didn't - wise advice may or may not linger but kindness is never forgotten, everyone in life is fighting hard to survive a kind word or deed is a hoodoo blessing by the grace of god and the power in you, the generosity of spirit that defines you, be kind, the greatest blessings are those that cannot be repaid

grace is what you find when every thing else abandons you, grace transcends, grace overcomes all obstacles, grace is what you find at the crossroads where your mundane daily grind meet the divine

let us identify daily moments of grace, like the time you did not correct a mistake or did bot insist on privilege, slid somebody unexpected slack, did not take offense personal, times when you repaid injury with hoodooed blessings, when you found yourself greater than you are

you struggle and you struggle for grace then the testing comes and you fail the test
and once again proven you not there yet you can pass it many times but you only
have to fail it once to wonder if you will ever truly know grace or be forever slave
to the appearance thereof – be patient, be steady

 

BLUES
everybody gets the blues sometimes, but if you hold on there is always the 3^rd line

 

HONOR
cede the insignificant points, build up credit for when it counts

ILLUMINATION
if its not essential its illusion, anything that's not of the spirit, the eternal, the essential, is a fleeting illusion, fleeting - soul fevers like hate, insecurity, pettiness, jealousy, envy, anger et all, are distractions, therefore illusion - illusion as focusing on anything that's not truly significant, thats not eternal and of the spirit, anything that aint gathering up mojo, being caught up in illusion is shedding mojo, it is the ongoing quest for significance that prioritize  the eternal over the transient

BLESSINGS
when you have been given great blessings would you cheapen it by demanding more, be thankful annd do not stand on privilege,

it was dzugudini, granddaughter of the monomatapa, had a son with no father, when her own father attempted to punish her, her mother stole his rain charms and taught her daughter how to use them, this power saved her and reunited the warring family under the auspices of mudjadiji, ruler of the day, rain queen of the lovedu and embodiment of the rain goddess, khifidola maru a daja, transformer of clouds and guarantor of seasonal regularity, at the turn of the 21^st century, makhobo, 6^th of the line, was chosen, and on that day blessings rained down upon all the people with divine abandon and great abundance,

SANCTIFICATION
rituualization sanctifies

 

GODWORK
Me and god got a understanding. 

me and god got a complicated relationship. My understanding is that science has freed us from the rule of spirits, no longer do we believe spirits have casual primacy, science dedicates itself to searching for casual chains but if we have been freed from the rule of spirits, why not the greatest spirit of all, god as a conscious watchful consciousness is not really viable, humans like their gods in their own image, folk you can talk to . . . .ima work with you, im not going to try to take away your gods, ima take the multitudinous gods of global africa and wrap them all up in the great mojo,

 

6: come listen to the conchhorn sing the great prayer of africa –

you divinity, come, come ogotemmeli, come speak, we listen, grandfather nyikang I spread the palm of my hands in prayer, adroa, transcendent,  oloddumare, come to me, kwoth, come to me, imana, all praises, wele, grant me serenity in the storm, and haragakiza, every day to thee I pray, tilo, hear me, en-kai, lead me, tamukujen, own me, owo, bless me, ruwa, hear me, wondrous, chieng, though all stand against me I shall not fear, come asis, come ankore, and mutalabala the eternal, and lord ngewo, deliver me, kurumasaba, sanctify me, chuku, I call on you, mbamba kiara, grant us rain, and you deng great ancient one of surpassing greatness, do not forsake me, o imanna, if only you would help me, khmvoun, hear our call, merciful nhialic, turn your eyes on life, let blessings abound

in your name leza, nyame, hear this call, nzambi and yataa, and unkulunkulu of the zulu, come come, mwene nyaga, come, soko, come, kyala, come, oyigiyigi, please come, ota aiku  the mighty immovable rock that never dies, nana of the akan, seweth the heavens like kente, winnamof the mossi, mungu, let me be a healing, ptah, who thought the world and said it in a word, come down apedemak, wargod of de nubians, come down from jebal barkals, peak attend me abesami, she who grows in power, asobe, I stand before you, nzambI, there is sighing & difficulty, abuk, patron of women and gardens, where are you, and you, androa of the lugbara, transcendent beyond experience and knowledge, mawu-lisa, move me,

nhialac remove the pain of all creature great and small, tomukujen, behold my victories, it is well, my enemies are scattered, it is well, lenana I pray this be a good day, o earth, dear earth, be gentle with me and I will be gentle in my turn, murungu, let the great ones gather, hello morning, let us gather up the mojo, this is yours, kazooba, this is yours, ruhanga, this is yours, rugaba, accept my offering, ruwa, take me by the hand, epilipili, hear my plea, o engai, grant us life, it is you, nyankonpon, who alone is great, to nzambi the glory, what you have made is good, I sing omarari, I cry omari, let thy wrath cease, akongo come, mokango, bring aid, mokango, bring help, makango, jouk, judge me worthy, asobe, wash away todays sins, let me begin again,

mokanga, the great elder, the great mantle which covers us all, anna, , in your care I cannot fail, will not fail, domfe say I, thy will; thy way, o ruwa,, protect me, meketa of the kono, I am  pure, asis,  mutulabala the eternal, kanu,  beat the drums, huveane, alouroua of the baule, let the souls of the people cool, bilikonda the everlasting eternal one, dear mercifull imana, I am in distress, where will I go, what will I do, where is there room for me

olodummare, rise up in me, ruhanga, , see me, see me, godfather were, know me know me, kalumba, kanu, nyame sees everything, nyambe, ala & chuku, let me be thy instrument, woyengi, asa of the akamba, protect me, modimo, remove all evil from my path, abassi and atai, chiuta, bring rain, mbongo, bring rain, thixo of the xhosa, dongo, thundergod of the sonhay, wuni, come, nommo of the dogon, come, tsui-goab, shape shifting thunderer and most high enlai of the masai and nzame of the bantu, supplier of many cattle, njambi, are you there, faro of the bambara, are you there, tilo, all praises, qamata, all praises, njambi, all praises, mwari, take your praise, listen makongo, I come to praise, nasilele, we praise, lozi ngewo-wa, blesxings abound, nyalitch, in your grace, ditaolane, are you there,

huveane, kalumba, most high ngai of the kikuju, come down from kilimanjaros seat, enekpe, rugaba, shilluk, kaang, kwoth of the nuer  mysterious god of unknown things, mbere,  bantumodimo of the tswana, mboko the great mother, mukuru, the old one, legba, oshun, and de conqueror, jah rastafari

 

6: come listen to the conchhorn sing the great prayer of africa –

mon 6/17/19 7:21 pm

hello world, finished research phase, last of my raw notes
now i got to go thru and wnnow this mess down to essence
about two pages of still random passages to be worked into text

winnow them down and poetize them into usable text
ive got about a month of raw speculations, provocative insights
most of which i will have to leave on the cutting floori
what i keep wil; be rougher than more polished beats
but such is life, at some point you have to close down shop
and move to next phase, i could do research / gain knowledge

foorever

Basically what im doing with this blog is giving you access to my creative process
if you want to walk my path, do what I do, just do what I do

Also you will note that some of these speculationns
are what ima do with jubilation in rest, its him trying
To shape the future that I got to work this draft

Im not sure what that entail but I got some provocative
speculations from this movement which lets me know
how eager I am to get to that novel

And likely it will not be done in the month or so I got left
damn I hate HBOF ate up my woodshed but I had to follow
the creative fire and the fire was saying HBOF. You don't
Fight the fire, you ride it  -  okay back to work

Notes triggered by eternity, god, new physics
which was disappointing, too little eternity too much physics
same same the biig questions and dude was kinda retrograde
and full of himself but they took me on an interesting rides,

hate I gave a month of my woodshed to this, to firm up weak
beats and  hopefully achieve some numinous quality I feel is
lacking a holybook that's not numinous somehow is a failure

I need some awe and wonder

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Eternity, a timeless space that includes past present and future in the same space/time, time is complicated, its not stable, its relative, different folk experience it differently, not only mind time, which can stretch an instant for hours or encompass eternity in an instant but realtime which is different for folk experiencing it at different heights and speeds, when we do get off the planet the time factor complicates everything, common sense says time is the same for everybody but generally speaking whenever common sense and science go head up science generally wins

If we can experience the past present and the future in the instant it blows open our perception of reality, the timeless ground of eternity is where god is found, herein lies the great mojo

Time is complicated

In the immensity of the universe, if we were to wiper ourselves out or fall prey to a random asteroid, the immensity of the universe would not even notice our passing

But if we do survive, expand, get off the planet spread out amongst the stars and transhumanize and continue to shape our environments we are likely to be true force in the universe, though when you see what we done to our current planet this might not be such a good thing

In the same way we have evolved from early organism crawling in the mud thru apes thru crogmagnums and such, this is not ther final stage, we are still, if we don't get wiped, in the early stages of our evolutiion annd future folk willl wonder how we had enuf sense to come in out of the rain, they will consider us crudely formed savages, sonme of them will insist that they couldn't possiblty be related to us

The god of the gaps

In rest I have them about to transcend but I don't say how other thanb the new planet or the ship or something maybe they will talk about the possiblity of being uploaded into the collective when they die and at some point when they are gypsys she will contact douthet, her 1^st gypsy ancestor, she does tell folk she is a descendent of one of the founders for fear she will be tempted by the beenies it brings, the sense of privilege

This text says they would be downloaded into magnetiic fields, cloud intelligences that could survive in the nothing of interstellar space, something like what happens with the polity in Iains work, which models the kinds of advanced societies im speculating, when folk die their consciousness is loaded into the collectiive, big questions postulates an cosmic intelljgence capable of forging new universes, new realitiies, a new god and its big bang domains perhaps, aristos is one of my favorite texts, each individual in its world, a lteast the elites, capable of conjuring entiure planets and solar systems in their conjured collective reality untiil somebody (the founder) puts in a virus

If the universe has a goal what would that goal be, id say harmony maybe
where all the parts are working well and jelling to be greater in the whole
and that the song it sings is sweet, or the note is sweet, I don't know but ima
go with harmony, soo if you are trying to attune yourself to the celestial
song of the stars (astrology) you are attempting to be part of that harmony

‘humans cooperate and sanction those that don't
taboos are proof against disease and diisorder

The past, the present and the future of humanity are contained in the timless instant of eternity and in the word that enables it, demoja

Sciences perception is that every event must have a preceding causal event according to natural law as we currently perceive it

On one hand tinme is loss annd decay, on the other hand its innovation and creation, newness, transformmation

No such thing as ultimate truth or final answer
everybody historically that's ever claimed such
has been proven wrong, best not go there

Sciece should be driiven by a desire to enhance the human condition and an obsessiopn with finding the truth of things iu spiite opf itselusiveess

Religion has lost the way when it uses morality as a weapon

Crossroad points are temporal points that open up certaiin destinic possibilities while closing down others
the future is an infinite array of possibilities with various %a of potentiality, crossroad points remix the array, set up new paths to desired realities / futures

Both theistic annd nontheistics system try to orient the practitioner with a more illuminated reality, being it deity or a way, as in tao, zen or the mojo

The fruit of struggle is always sweeter to the the taste
rewards that have not been earned are not as satisfying

‘the long silent darkness in which the last star has ceased to be’

human liife is short in the great cosmic eternal, billions and trillions of years, stars, galaxies, universes and we get our little 100 or so, give or take, the barest blink of an eye, there is no discretionary time, become conscious, settle yourself, articulate a contribution to the enhancement of the human condition, devote your life to it, and the care of loved ones, die easy, satisfied, I done good, short time I was here, I done good,

religions are founded on acts of spiritual / deific causality
you know it's a delusion / illusion when it does not have
causal effect in the world, when the only one it affects is you
this is the case even with art and other individualistic pursuits
like magic, or prophecy

we were once the stuff of stars, our current existence a demotion
in our meditations and in our lives, we strive to return to the
starlight way, the illuminated children of the sun

the human mind is designed to be subject to illusion
one of its strengths and also its weaknesses

free will and agency means that sometimes
humanity is not at its best, sowing death doom
and destruction in its wake - its like a trade off

if part of the legacy of science and the scientifc approach is the dehtroniing of spirits as causal actors why does this not apply to the greatest spirit of all

humes defines miracles as transgressions of the laws of nature by spiritual forces including deity
but then are we always certain thaht our reading of the natural laws must be stable

there was a time that natural law said man would not fly (on planes or anything else)

“the truly creative word has not yet been pronounced’
this plays off the holybook somehow

‘eternity is the domain of god, the realm of souls’

 

 

sat 6/15/19   6:40 am

okay, finishhed soul,

The soul book actually wasn't bad
good triggers, decided instead of
keeping my strongest triggers to last

would do them 1^st because at a certain
point will have to shutdown shop and want
to have done my criticals before then

these are my soul notes, raw as fuck
got some decent riffs, to be wiinnoowed
downn to a couple of paras reekiing of
significance,

im gone,, got to get thru the biig question
and maybe the eternity book, and definii
got but whatever is not done by monday
morning just dont get done, got to dig out

all my love

rdoc

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The soul can only be consciousness, what else can it be, weak at birth it becomes stronger as we become more self aware, more self guided, its evolution the measure of your growth

Know me iin your heart and I will know you in mine

The need for integrity of the homesoul, every loss of integrity leaves your soul damaged

The soul is where the individual converges with the universal, the divinity

He had interesting categoriies, the fall of soul into time, the seat of the soul,, heart and soul, soul crises, soul work, the world soul, soul and destiny, he diidnt do a lot with them but they are provocstiive categories, his tiitles for diff entries would often be more illuminatiing than the entry, because it was tight over wordy

mind time can stretch an hour into eternity, encompass eternity in an instant

blues gospel according to ray charles: Ive fooled around the way blacks have been doing for years, playing the blues to different rhythms. that style requires pure heart singing. Later on they would call it soul music.

Souls are like the roots, the trunk your life, branches your actions in the world, leaves your aesthetics, flowers and fruits your legacy

What happens when your soul meets a kindred soul and without asking your permission makes itself known

For what shall it profit a man if he should gain the world and lose his soul
be nice to rewrite that one

‘trrully one only llearns thru sorrow, it is a terrible education the soul gets’

The blues as soul loss, soul in crises, the blues then can be said to be a soul retrieval device, a soul renewal device  ???

It is only by digging deep into your sufferings and your fears and anxieties rthat you will become soulful, by gaining perspective on them, by paying the freight

‘the shattering of ones beliefs about oneself’ as what happened when cocaine proved stronger than me

A hunter brought home a strange looking kill, an animal they had never seen before, do not eat it his grandmother said, it is a soul eater, we must burn it but the son was adamant, it is a meal he said and ate it, tho no one else in the family would, the next morning he was dead but he did not rot, grandmother would not let him be buried undead, the ancestors will not accept him, and still he did not rot until the next new moon grandfather and his son and younger brother went into the bush and stayed until they found an animal like the other and crushed its head, leave it there, said grandfather and so they did, and when they returned to the village they fond older brother with his head crushed and truly dead, they buried him with full ancestral honors

Wrestling with your demons is the only way the soul defines itself, a journey fraught with peril but well worth the risks, the shadowy depths of the unconsciious

You can tell when youor got your mojo back and you again move with confidence thru the world, you are alive again, when you lose your mojo accept a period of fallowness while your batteries recharge, you know when when it returns, I got my mojo working is the best song ever

A man walking around memohis with a satchel filled with contracts and 50 dollar biills, if you sign over your soul he will give you $50 dollars, 2 iif for some reason he thinks youo worth a 100, npobody knows how and why he judged it so

Our lives are our offerings to our art / the divinity, our sacrifice

One works the soul like one tends to a garden, planting and weeding, and shaping and nurturing, enjoying the flowers and partaking of the fruits

I aspired so fiercely to be a wise old soul
without actually being old (too late)

For many years I aspired to be wise
and then when I finally achieved wisdom
ii gave it all to pride

The soul is not engaged by default
the soul iit must be trained to grace
its must be fashioned brick by brick
in tbe silence of the universal spheres

What the hero brings back from the heros journey is generally just a story, a baby myth

Joyce ‘anytinng deeply regarded is gateway to the soul

Places of wonder as gateways to the soul of the divine which
speaks to the part of the divine in the soul entrusted to you

My version of a poem by Antonio machado

The wind one day called to my soul with the aroma of jasmine
and said I wil;l give youo this for rooses from your garden
I have no roses, my flowers are dead, and then said the wind
I will take dried stems and dead petals and then I wept and said
to my soul what have you done w/the garden given to you

Soul and destiny

‘Arise soul arise, ascend to your ancestral home’   ginza ii

If the soul is consciousness, and I believe it is, then what role the immensity of the unconscious mind, perhaps it is the unconscious mind that linjks us to bhe universe, the divinity, the great mojo, which would account for its turbulences, the times it gets away from us

It seems I am, of late, in part because of immersion in this text, aspiring to be a holyman, this manifests itself in conduct, a certain illuminated carriage, an attempt to be a font of hoodoo blessings

The eyes are not only a window to the soul; they are also a window to the universe the soul represents and is part of

I have, of late, been generous to beggars, this is radically
not me, im more inclined to mutter ‘get a job’

Its hard to believe that humanity matters, that what we do matters, our struggles, our dreams and our fearx, as step by step we have been decenteralized in  t universe that we are the nost infitesimal blip of consciooness of a fly speck planet around a so so sun in a galaxy of suns in billions oof galaxies if not trillions and god knows what else, its hard to believe the universe ‘cares’ about us, we must do what we can to survive as a species and evolve beyond the material, which is basically mastering the transference of consciousness

Mind time and clock time, clock time is our attempt to master time, to put it to work, mind time is times defiance of mastery

sat 6/15/19   2:57am

hello world, let me see if i can catch you up riight quick
Stil in research, was going thru my cosmology texts, settled on
two, eterniity, and the biig questions is sxcience and religion
as critical reads, problem is i found about 3 other
critical reads, pne an anthology called 'souls'

thats all hhistorical luminaries writing avout
soull and most often their souls

and another eternal quest, quotes of
folking seeking god, lot of folk, lot of
categories, ie a lot of triiggers . . .

so my big thing is to still the right frame
of mind when i dig in, at 1st i thought i
would closure on soul, that that would
put me in that numinous state of miind

i want to be in, but soul has been a dissappointment
abot 30% useful, the rest wordage, could have done
quotes instead of mini essays, wanted to bulk out his
pageage i guess, but im having too wade thru slush

then i thought the cosmology would work,
put me in a cosmic state of mind - but no i believe
ima bet on god, which is curious since i have
a conflicted relationship with the concept

so many holyfolk say you cant deify the
universal all, its too impersonal, god has
to be a somebody, but i didnt agree
the lijliehood that god is a person iis
too negative, iima go withh god the
universal all; and i want my work to
be an attempt w/oneness and i want
it to be numinous, so the deal is

finish soul and the big questions
and dig in on god (its a big book)

spend today skimming thru these two
tomorrow converting notes to text

monday we start final read thru, well
at least last before giving to layout

ima immerse mysellf in the god quest for last
run and hope it translates into the numinous

okay, you caught up, i
got to get back to worrk

all my love

arf

 

 

fri 6/7 7:02 am

the magic text is a disappointment
about pg 200 he ran out of steam but
at least i was able to forcemarch thru it

so i have put all my african gods in format,
now i got to go thru and prune it of repeats,
weak beats, anything questionable

originally every god had their tribe identified
but i got to cut cut cut, this still raw, just
blocked it out like it will be in text, be nice
to prune it by 1/2 or 2/3rd even and

hopefully make it numinous

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come ogotemmeli, come speak, we listen, grandfather nyikang I spread the palm of my hands in prayer, adroa, transcendent,  oloddumare, come to me, kwoth, come to me, imana, all praises, wele, haragakiza, and tilo, hear me, en-kaI, lead me, tamukujen, own me, owo, ruwa and chieng, though all stand against me I shall not fear, come asis, ankore, and mutalabala the eternal, lord ngewo, deliver me, kurumasaba, olorun, chuku, once again I call on you,

leza, mawu, nyame, hear me,nzambi, yataa, and unkulunkulu, come come, mwene nyaga, soko, kyala, oyigiyigi, ota aiku  the mighty immovable rock that never dies, nana of the akan, winnamof the mossi, mungu, in this healing let me be an instrument,, ptah apedemak, wargod of de Nubians, and abesami, she who grows in power, come down from jebal barkals peak, and asobe, I stand before you, nzambI, there is sighing & difficulty, abuk, patron goddess of women and gardens, androa of the lugbara, transcendent beyond experience and knowledge

you divinity, remove the pain of all peoples, tomukujen, behold my vicories, my enemies are scattered, it is well, lenana I pray this is the day, o earth, dear earth, be gentle with me and I will be gentle in my turn, murungu, attend to me, hear my words, let the great ones gather,, attend my plea, our pleas, hello morning, may this be a good day, one strong in grace, let us gather up the mojo

ui, thank you nhialac,we have refused death thid day, be gracious, hear my speech, wuuuu, my words are done, I sing omarari, let thy wrath cease, I cry omarari, let thy wrath cease, akongo come, mokango, bring aid, mokango, bring help, makango, the great elder, the great mantle which covers us all, hear my constant prayer, everyday I pray, with every word and deed, want and need i pray I pray and pray and pray, may the years enndmeet u, may we live to be old at this end of this road my we sit again, jouk, judge me worthy, asobe, take away my pain, see me safely home, wash away todays sins, lt me begin again this morning will be a day of good mojo, give me serenity in the storm, dear deng, do not forsake me, do not abandon me when i am most in need of grace, in your care I cannot fail, will not fail

adroa, akongo, mokanga, anna, mokanga, deng, great ancient one, waaqa, and wele, domfe of the karumba, thy will; thy way, o ruwa,, protect me, sound the chords upon the meketa of the kono also tata, I am  pure man a spirit against which there is no accusation, asis, see me,  mutulabala the eternal, kanu,  drums who seweth the heavens like kente, huveane, alouroua of the baule, let the souls of the people cool, bilikonda the everlasting eternal one, dear mercifull imana, I am in distress, where will I go, what will I do, where is there room for me

olodummare, rise up in me, ruhanga, ngewo-wa, nyalitch, juok, see me, ditaolane, see me, godfather were, kalumba, kanu, nyame sees everything, nyambe, ajok, rain on me, ala & chuku, woyengi, asa of the akamba, protect me, modimo, protect me, remove all evil from my path, abassi and atai, chiuta, raingod of the tunbuka, mbongo of the bushongo, thixo of the xhosa, dongo, thundergod of the sonhay, wuni, come, nommo of the dogon, come, tsui-goab, shape shifting thunderer and most high enlai of the masai and nzame of the bantu, supplier of many cattle, njambi  herero, faro of the bambara, tilo of the tongan, qamata of the xhosa

huveane, kalumba, most high ngai of the kikuju, come down from kilimanjaros seat, enekpe, rugaba, shilluk, kaang creator god of the botswana bushmen, kwoth of the nuer  mysterious god of unknown things, mbere,  bantumodimo of the tswana, mboko, minona of the fon, african divination goddess,maybe mother of mawu-lisa and fa, mukuru, the old one, njambi, mwari, nasilele,  lozi, legba, oshun and de conqueror, jah rastafari

 

 

back in the game

thurs 5/6 4:40 am

fuck research, ima give this text one more day, ruthless skim
one day to incorporate new beats, thenn last read thru

this just information, what i know about magic will
have to suffice if option is being off schedule

force march, do or die
lets separate the writers
from the dilettantes

rdx

 

 

wed 6/5 10:04 pm

dug in on stolen lightning, about 100 pages in
got to pick up speed, cannt afford to give this
more than 2 max 3 days, problem is it keeps
catching me up, saying stuff i have to contemplate

grace and god i was just riffing, i know them
just need help articulating essentialist beats
give me triggers and i will get to riffing

but magic i clearly dont understand on level
ithought i was on, i keep running up on
provocative beats that make me think, section im
readiing now talking about oral nature of magic
for instance says there are 4 magical word packets:

expressive: magical wordage , abracadadabra, boil and bubble (what about once upon a time . . . )
propositions: statements grounded in mythology, it is wriitten .  .the gods demand . .
prescriptions: wish magic, saying it is so to make it to - defy me and your generations will suffer
performative 'statements that by themselves create a new reality' i vow .  .  i name thee . . .

what he also calls 'power prescriptions' (ima simplify his academey categories)
who knew, knowledge like this will influence the narratory of my novel
beats like this i have to digest them, adjust my magical paradigms

which i love and why i have judged this an essential
text, im growing as a high magician / novelist and
thats always wonderful, but j christ who got time

got to go

500 more pages to wade thru
god give me strength. . .

pattern is deeper ijn more i get his salient points
and the more ruthless the skim, already he lagging

i gpt to go, of reading many
books there is no end

rdx

 

 

wed 6/5 9:32 am

hello world, appears my typepad is working again
im caught up in a creative bind

supposed to be working on novel but im supposed
to turn HBOF into layout guy on the 17th and there
were a couple of sectiions i needed to address, this
great prayer of afriica beat, and the section on grace

and i knew i had texts for both so i dug in, made god notes
and im getting thru 2nd book of grace but now that im
researching there are a couple others i consider critical

stolen lightning, the social theory of magic, 600 page
academic tome on magic i been intending to read
since i was a baby magician, ima skim the pedagogy

but its making me think about magic, which is my life
and how its going to work in both texts

another one is 'spiritual guidance across traditions"
an anthology of practitioners from diff traditions
talking about how their traditions do spiritual gui9dance

critiical knowledge for what i do
for the path i want to forge

then one 'sorcery, totem and jihad in african philosophy'
about the conflictual dynamics of ATR and Islam iin the sahel

and i got about 3 books on cosmology id liike to get thru
actually i got about 8 on the shelf, ima choose two i
consider critical, ii want to be in that state of mind when
ii abandon research, i want to be a cosmic thiinker

so iima have to abandon research on about 11th, that will
give me a week to incorporate new material and refine

thiis is an example of my raw notes, from god and grace,, im
dug in on magic now, what i do is read the text and do notes
by letting stuff trigger riffs, to be cleaned up next round, quote
marks on it means it not my riff yet, means it needs processing

these are raw notes, will wean them down and ruthlessly refine
i havent started processing magic and cosmic notes yet
i desperately dont want to be doing the drudge of research
but i got to take this last opp to fill in the weak beats

i cant be weak on grace
or magic, or god

this is what i had for grace, i only have 7 beats per segment
did this to force discipline on the text, if i cant fiit what i got to
say in 7 i do 9, but my grace 7 were weak, damn near filler
now that i got better beats i will replace the weak ones &n refine
if im not going to have but 7 beats they have to be strong, essential

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9:61: hoodoo grace
o bonnie angel, lead me to thy grace

1: I see grace as divine presence in your life, grace can mean many things, for some folk grace is gods unearned mercy, for some it is a certain dignity, for some style, smooth and seamless, not a move wasted, a rightness in the world, all tings irie, I recall a story wherein the priest arrives late to the death bed and is challenged for his tardy grace, what does it matter, he reply, grace is everywhere, 

2: I assume god the uninverse is not, as we perceive it, conscious of us - I choose to believe that the cosmos is essentially beneficient and rewards evolutionary survival behavior - within that context I too want the confidence that god / the universe will come thru for me in times of great need, people have always found god at the limits of their own strength and I too wish to face my troubles with the invincible confidence of gods grace

3: I know that life is unrelenting struggle, I know you have to appreciate the fleeting moments of grace and be at peace with yourself and your world, its all good is how jimmy carter responded when he was diagnosed with cancer, said he has lived a good life and expressed his satisfaction that the carter foundation had helped almost eradicate the guinea worm, I just want, he said, the last guinea worm to die before I do - to achieve grace is to be capable of greeting all gods messengers, good and bad, with equal acceptance / equanimity / finesse,

4:  grace is a gift, those times when you do not correct an innocent mistake, or take umbrage at a slight, extract revenge for a wrong, grace is when you let it slide, best way to get grace is to give it, freely, the debt erased and, if necessary, taken upon your own shoulders, the quality of your graces will evolve as you do, what good is grace given only to those who are worthy, giving grace is for your benefit, no theirs, giving grace moves you closer to godhead, it is divinity in action,

5: grace that comes when needed is healing grace, a divine blessing that accepts us all as flawed seekers in an ongoing act of creation, the godhead that transcends adversity, time and space - people want grace, need grace, desperate for grace, awaken the sleeper to the possibility of grace that grows in the consciousness of grace, in acts of grace that become habits of grace, in habits of grace that become a life of grace culminating in a graceful death,

6: you struggle and you struggle for grace, then the testiing comes and you fail the test, you can pass it many times but you onlyhave to fail it once to wonder if you will ever truly know grace or are you to be forever bound with just be the appearance thereof - but I am told not even the just are just always, if you give your all, god will give the rest

7: the babajohn was the face of the operation but it was ms grace carried the weight, it was ms grace once told me you wont find what you want until you can bear what you need, to call down ms grace only good deeds will do, random acts of grace - consider the gift of grace: one act of grace a week, one a day if you are particularly devout, a great heartedness capable of divinity, watch them grow,

grace is what you fiind at the crossroads
where your daily grind meet the divine,

shalabongo, shalabongo, o
how grace becomes thee

demoja

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fucking pablum, grace escapes me

its not as bad as it was, you cann see ive already
switched out some of the weak beats

just got back from cuba, major experience
they love me in cuba, did opening with nancy norejon
all praises, threw down, bells and all, made the news

next day in auction square, old havana, museum attendant
gets excited, rapid spanish, folk translate, she saw you on tv
poetica, she tells her friends, poetiica, then she starts
busting out my moves

near end of conference they gave me a little proclamation
i thanked them in my un poco spnaish and started to sit down
when the crowd started chanting - sing hoodooman, sing

so i sang, i sang my fucking heart out
trying to give back the love they was giiving

sing hoodooman, sing - i sang

im gone, all my love

rdx

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Grace is what you find when every thing else abandons you

Acts of grace are lifechanging for both the giver and rhe givee
it's the small curtesies thtat folk remember, amirii once did me a

Soluid that he probably didn't remmebmber but it meant sp much

Tio me,

Wise advice is soon forgotten, kindness never

everyone in life is fighting hard to survive
a kind word or deed is a hoodoo blessing by
the grace of god and the power in you, the
genorsity of spirit that defines you, be kind

You are always in a state of grace
so,etime you don't acknowledge it
event as it delivers you from pain

grace is being a tad kinder than called for
just a touch of compassion breeds grace

kindness sanctifies

the greatest blessings are those that cannot be repaid

‘never bite when a simple growl will do

Hemmingways grace under pressure

To live in grace as as living in mojo harmony

‘The ready concessipon of minor points’ as essential at
attidude in both pursuit of grace and serenity, don't sweat
the small stuff, the insignificant,, if its not essential its

Illusion

This whole concept of illusion fascinates me, anything
that's not of the spirit, the eternal, the essential

Most material things are fleeting

Soul fevers are distractions, therefore illusion

Illusion as focusing on anything that's not truly significant

That's not eternal and of the spirit,, this is gaining mojo

Being caught up in illusion is shedding mojo

Fa is to remember that no matter the adversity you have
the power to choose how you will deal with it, the
hammer is always a crossroads, an invitation to grace

it was dzugudini, granddaughter of the monomatapa, had a son with no father, when her own father attempted to punish her, her mother stole his rain charms and taught her daughter how to use them, this power saved her and reunited the warring family under the auspices of mudjadiji, ruler of the day, rain queen of the lovedu and embodiment of the rain goddess, khifidola maru a daja, transformer of clouds and guarantor of seasonal regularity, at the turn of the 21^st century, makhobo, 6^th of the line, was chosen, and on that day blessings rained down upon all the people with divine abandon,

when i address god for the common good i am
the galactic custodian of the universal destiny

‘the priest of the universe’

in this healing let me be an instrument of the great mojo

so he will move from resistance to accepting

himself as an instrument of the great mojo

tomukujen, behold my vicories, my enemies are scattered, it is well

i pray that this is day

lenana i pray

o earth, dear earth,, be gentle
and i will be gentle in my turn

the search for significance prioritizes
the eternal over the transient illusion

you divinity, i give me what i need
remove the pain of all peoples

be nice if i could dramatize his evolution

into the cosmic griot

rituualization sanctifies

murungu, attend to me, hear my words

let the great ones gather,, attend my plea, our pleas

thank you nhialac,we have refused death thid day
be gracious, hear my speech, wuuuu

my words are done

i sing omarari, let thy wrath cease

i cry omarari, let thy wrath ceas

akongo come, mokango
bring aid, mokango
bring help, makango

culture heros, kunda of the ngombe

nyikang of the shiluk, garang of the dinka

the great elder, the great mantle which covers us all

hear my constant prayer, everyday i pray
with every word and deed, want and need
i pray i pray and pray and pray

may the years enndmeet u, may we live to be old
at this end of this road my we sit agaiin

jouk, judge me worthy

asobe, take away my pain
see me safely home

wash away todays sins, lt me begin again
this morning will be a day of good mojo

hello morning, may this be a good day, one
strong in grace, let us gather up the mojo

give me serenity in the storm

dear deng, do not forsake me
do not abandon me when
i am most in need of grace

in your care i cannot fail, will not fail

the role of grace in the creative process
it only comes when you have achieved zone

‘the truly creative word has not yet been pronounced
thiis is nommo, the word of power that ugo could \not
pronounce the world into being, jubilation is try to
conjure a new world into being, to sayy the right word
to conjure, im lost but there is something there

i am  nothing without you

this is yours, kazooba
this is yours, ruhanga
this is yours, rugaba

you divinity, accept my offering

I have harmed no one with intent
I gave only blessings before me

Ruwa, take me by the hand
Fortify my arms     

Epilipili, be still

‘We don't eat till everybvody free

And we dont sleep till everybody eat’

O engai, grant us life, he wiil grant us, grant us grade, she wiil grant it

A hoodoo death is a generous death, let go of your regrets andd resaentmnents appreiate the experience of a fully lived life

Nhialic, be merciful

‘you spirit, you must leave this body, you must leave this person alone, you must leave this village, come with me now, I command you, I will restore your grace, we have come to drive you away, you are not respected here,

nyankonpon, who alone is great

nzambi, what you have made is good

There are many roads but only one path, the roads are all hard ones, beset with trial and tribulation you must surely bear, when the hammer fall you must remember your calling, you are hoodoo bound and in trouble you only grow strong,

Let us rededicate ourselves to life

Mbamba kkiara, grant us rain

Deng of surpassing greatness
do niot forsake me

O imanna, if only you would help me

Khmvoun, hear our call

Bless this tree, make it grow, let it be entirely a blessing without any evil, let blessings abound

I call upon grandfather nyikang, I spread
the palms of my hands in prayer

O merciful nhialic, turn your eyes on life

Everyday to thee I pray

grace transcends, grace overcomes all obstaces

Deng, great ancient one,

Thy will; thy way,, llet the souls of the people cool
remove all evil from my path

O ruwa,, protect me

Sound the chords upon the drums
who seweth the heavens like kente

meketa is trad name for god mong the kono but tataa more common now
holyfolk are begene, a pure man a spirit against which there is no accusation

Asis, see me

Mutulabala the eternal

May your travels be many, your friends be true

Bilikonda the everlasting eternal one

dear mercifull imana, i am in distress, where will
i go, what will i do, where is there room for me

chance is not necessarily chaos, it can
also be the opening of new paths

grace is what you find at the crossroads where
your mundane daily grind meet the divine

the human project of grace mutt be
guided by the primacy of benevolence

grace appreciates the spirit of the law over the letter of it
it is grace that informs the creative process, grace is the zone

grace as a generosity of spirit
that always begins w/benefit of
the doubt, in itself conjurational

if we are in a constant state of growth, one that expands
on itself as we move into closure then its only at the end
that we will be fully who we are, that we will attain fa

there are those moments of grace, when you
did not correct a mistake or did bot insist on
privilege, slide somebody unexpected slack,
did not take offense personal, times when you
repaid injury with hoodooed blessings, when
you found yourself greater than you are

you struggle and you struggle for grace
then the testing comes and you fail the test
and once again proven you not there yet
you can pass it many times but you only
have to fail it once to wonder if you will
ever truly know grace or be forever slave
to the appearance thereof

‘not all the deeds of the just are just’

if you give your all, god will give the rest

abassi of the effik and his wife atai
adroa of the
akongo of the ngombe
ajok, of the lotuko, rain god, resurrection
ala of the ibo, earthmother, wife to chuku
alouroua of the baule, creator god, mystery
anna, sky god of the dogon
chiuta, raingod of the tunbuka
deng of

hanging in there

wed 5/222:02pm

Hello all, been off the grid because of some glitch in my laptop
so im doing this post from desktop in office, until I figure out
Typepad laptop glitch I will come into office once a week & do this

Im so afraid, I have finished my holybook
supposed to give it to layout guy in two weeks

Two sections need work, one in which I name
all these African high gods, I gotta fact check that
got them mostly from mbetis prayers of African gods
read it years ago,, just ordered it so I can fact check

ima trust mbeti, and this website god check, was useful
I just know this whole text is riddled w/cultural errors,

and I fear it is not really moving, inspirational
I wish it could have all been obscure parables
but I have to directly speak on what I think
should be programmed into the culture

And in the final analyses what I got is what I got
ima trust my creative vision, if this is where it

Led me this is where I am, this book will
exist before the end of the summer, im done

other than the god segment and the section on grace
which im not yet happy with, grace still escapes me
but I got two weeks to work on it, grace will be there

so I finished the draft yesterday, got some maintenance
stuff need doing, left over rec for student, etc but now
I got to dig into novel serious, may is gone, I got to get
on it, this is a very vulnerable time, you look at the
text and all you can see is what need to be done

 

and you wonder if you can possibly do it this time
after having failed to do it right for the last 20 years

what makes you think this time will be any diff

 

but fuck it, win or lose, this what I do

and summer woodshed is when I do it

I work in sequences, ive pulled out the most problematic
Sequence, jubilation as prophet, the one that most has to work
And currently is not working as I need it, I read thru the

segment and all I hear is weak discordant notes, its depressing
But you have to just wade in and fucking hope, this what I do

struggle w/the page, I know folk want to be writers
but they aint willing to struggle w/the page

but this is it, im done, showtime - whatever don't work this
time just don't work, so I am afraid this might be it

the final failure, or, even worse,

I am afraid I am fooling myself and that this is not the final run
but that I will keep on repeating this beat unto eternity

Constantly checking myself unto eternity

Unto eternity, eternity

 

 

 

 

the hoodoo boopk of flowers: 1st movement

fri mar 29 6:01am chaingmai thailand

hello all, as you know ive decided to just do the
hoodoo book of flowers myself, im tired of begging
i see all thhe pablum out here and i cant get the
time of day, ima put a tease up, plan is to have it
out there by this summer, 81 moovements, this
is the 1st one

1st movement
hoodoo initiation

open mine eyes, that I might see
open my heart that I might be

 

1:01:hoodoo consciousness

lord legba, open this gate, in the name of the conqueror let this work be done

1: welcome o traveler, let us begin with I am, consciousness - know thyself - the greatest struggle, the greatest  power - who am i? why am I here? what is the point? - a pilgrim once come upon the babajohn and said I seek the babajohn, the babajohn replied, so do I,

2: initiation of the soul is not a given, we, all of us, start life ignorant & asleep, as we mature our understanding of real increases, we conduct ourselves accordingly, our lives become more harmonious, we are initiated, the spiritual life doesnt just happen, it is an active choice, nurturance of the soul is the goal of this Work - open your eyes, young conjure, a step every soul must take, look deep and tell me, what do you see, what is consciousness & who knows, when the only thing certain is we are surely blind & wisdom must be won again and again and again,

3: in the beginning was the mojo, then bang there was the great mojo and all that is begin to be and the cosmos begin to manifest entity / eternity, desperately seeking Fa and spewing seeds of stellar dust that become one big great thing, planets, galaxies, suns, peoples, we is the universe, the universe is us – and the great mojo called it good,

4: then in the fullness of time here come humanity, leap frogging from the primal muck to stand upright, tools in hand, eyes on the stars, ever questing to be greater than we are - it is consciousness allows you to shape your life, only then can you master your own destiny instead of being tossed about by the winds of circumstance, subject to the whims of others,

5: 1^st let us call on mother lucy the monkey doctor, first of the monkey people to stand on two feet, I believe, she told them, if we stand on our hind legs that our tribe and all our generations will flourish, I believe we can be more than we are, like this, she say, and then she stand, and o my god, she say, if only you could see what I see, from here I can see forever, from here I can see the stars, at which point the monkey folk scoff, why on earth, they say, would we want to do that, what can we possibly do on 2 feet that we cannot do better on 4, why, o fool of a dreamer, would the great monkey god give us 4 feet if not to use them, but mambo lucy, she persist, listen, she say, many years I have birthed, taught and tended you, all for this one time I must be heard, Fa has come to us, a journey like nothing this world has seen, the long march of the firstborn has begun, and there, she point at the stars in the sky, is where it will end,

6: safer perhaps to begin w/lord legba, lord of the crossroads & keeper of the gates, opener of doors between this world and de spirit world, messenger of de gods and de random factors, he who must be petitioned at the beginning of any spiritwork, legba flourished in the Americas, in dahomey he is an outlaw, a trickster, a profane flouter of tradition, in dahomey he lacks moral fiber and makes his own rules, in dahomey he is mawu-lisa’s linguist, custodian of the crossroads and divine writ, when the realms of human custodianship were divided amongst the loa, legba, the youngest loa, found himself with nothing to do, and so he was given the space between realms, the keeper of the gates, now whenever you attempt spiritwork you must 1^st ask legba to open the gate,

7: for it is in the beginning of things that paths are laid, destinies shaped, most folk go thru life asleep, zombies walking, but this moment is a conscious one, another sleeper has awakened, a better you has been born, Fa awaits,

Fa is upon you, o traveler, embrace it
w/a hoodoo passion for life

this is the text
this is the way

demoja

 

da 5 bloods, brotherme brotherblood brotherblack

hello all, in thailand working as consultant on spike lee film,
da 5 bloods, im  supopssed to be telling them what it was
like being a black soldier in vietnam, ima just put my last
three facebook posts up in reverse sequence

 

fri mar 22

well, catching a freedom bird to thailand in the morning,
spike lee shooting a movie about black soldiers in vietnam,
da 5 bloods, because of de mojo blues, the trash of my youth,
I been asked to be a consultant, run the blackinization experience
down for them, brotherme, brotherblood, brotherblack,
school the actors on what it was really like – there it is

 

 

 

mon mar 23

first thing spike tries to talk sports, I have to tell him
I don’t even know what season it is, today I’m supposed to
explain to chat . . how do you spell his name, the black panther -
how to run his kingdom, well, at least how to be a child of the 60s
soldiering on the black hand side, brotherme brotherblood brotherblack

 

 

tues mar 26

https://timeline.com/the-militarys-war-against-free-speech-4a639e72d0d6?fbclid=IwAR22gflAa_gD8OtiSWb3nopVGs1dKSTDGo0nskon2KdUtS3CgWRjj5hXejg

had a meeting today w/spike and cast principals so moving
it made a believer of me, i have had a certain reserve in this
process cause i don't really do the celebrity thing, i agree
w/nietzsche, why should i be in awe of other folk if they not
in awe of me, but everybody been really cool, real folk, and
my presentation today on black exp in nam i rollercoastered
them from teary eyed grace to chest pounding solidarity and
back again talking about how conscious we were of being a
colonial levy and the redemption we called blackinization, a
culture of defiance that shapes me to this day, 3 times i got
courtmartialed, 3 times they told me cut your afro, 3 times i
told them kiss my axe, what you gon do, send me to vietnam -
it got so emotional and cathartic up in there today i feel like
we actually was on the battleground together, me and my
brothers in struggle, all for one, one for all, i pride myself on
my cynicism but today they made a believer of me

 

 

hanging in there spring 2019

TUES 3/12 2:26pm

done deal, ima crash out for a minute then start
reading thru novel, im both elated and afraid, ive
glanced at it a couple of times, appears to still be
reading smooth, we will see what a close read says

 

 

TUES 3/12 5:50am

hello all

i been off the grid, schoolhouse got me humping
and i been pouring all my discretionary time into
latest revision of the hoodoo book of flowers

thought it would be a read thru, turned out to be
a real revision and im like is this thing eternally
gon be lacking, have contracted w/adero to edit
it in april, i figure two more read thrus and ima
let it be, i could otherwise do this forever, doing
poetry drafts now and could spend like a week
on each para if i allowed it, now that ive decided
to do it myself i got to make sure its as
professional as humanly possible

and as much as its got me grindhousing &
as discouraged as i am, thinking how ive
invested decades of hard grind work and
the industry ignores me, the literary world
(my readers) have shrugged it and im here
still plugging away, spending my life up on
it because no matter what i believe in it

it is designed to Work the african american soul
and by god and all thats holy its designed well

doiing poetry draft where you have to be
real precise with your wordage and there is an
elation i cannot convey when the absolute right
word comes to me, reeking of power, and i am
once again infused with the power of the word

and a project i believe will actually change things
i got no beefs, im just glad im still here to crunch it, that
i have once again made it a better more precise text

sometimes when my text grows like this im glad the
industry did not take earlier versions, same same rest
i dont really mind the obscurity any more

ive gotten used to it and it has facilitated production
cause it piss me off and its like i will show you all

and i have gotten back into daily practice w/my mbira
was crunched with schoolhouse and gigs last months
and every discretionary musical mnoment was in studio
and had to revise manuscript repeatedly for studio but that
mean i been crunching it and the text has grown exponentially

and i listened to the 9 fucking hours of tape
and its not bad, not what i want yet but i got
the raw material, and if im still functional i will
do it again next year, every year i will record

or re-record a text and when im gone surely one
will be viable, speaking of gone im out of here

im on the 7th movement now, will be done w/this
draft today, then start reading rest to start programming
that revision in my head, do kimberlys text, do taxes,
then start VT text and i will have had a productive
spring break woodshed, im gone

picked up stephanie rose birds 365 days of hoodoo
have interacted w/her in past, she was respectful

i acknowledge her to real thing, need to give her
some play in HBOF, and i saw she had the hoodoo
calendar/almanac idea too, instead of having to
do it again each year though she did it generic
maximal impact, minimal maintenance

also i note how traditional it is
she modernizes the folk magic
but im in radically new territory
w/the high magic focus, i like
what im doing, i will have to
make it happen on them, 70
years old and have to go guerilla
on them, i believe i got one more
good campaign in me, lets do this

all my love
rdoc

its been a while

SUN 2/10 1 AM

hello world, old boy is under the gun
have decided to publish HBOF myself
tired of twisting it all out of shape trying
to give industry something it can live with

i put the blackness back in it but w/a
lighter touch, still universalized

listened to the tape of oral version
today and its sounding good, last
session this thurs, finally realized

its not giong to be a perfect reading
and just accept mistakes, get it done
started over 4 times before realized
just get it done, get it off my plate

heard from ellen, she say hit it again
such is life in the literary lane

god help me, god help
me to persevere

one more summer
thats it, im done

fairfax got to go, w/the quickness
nordham i will giive a pass to
if the option is giving virginia
to the republicans, i expect
policy penance of some sort

all my love

rdoc

 

 

done deal

FRI 01/19 8:08 am

on my way to studio in about an hour
time to finish this HBOF oral project
been down w/mucus but im tired of waiting

snowing heavy of course, such is life
major revision from last push, it will never
be done, i spent weeks taking out the blackness
trying to make it saleable to industry but now
that its clear industry doesnt care for it no matter

what i do im putting the blackness back in but
much tighter so it doesnt become rhetoric again

decided ima do like ive done my lit hoodoo class
im being much looser than i have in the past, im
basically training them to be word magicians

last class we talked about magic, about what
makes a text magical and they were on

told them magic is making real into the world what was not
told them you create the image in your mind of the alternate
reality you want to conjure then pour all your magical energy
into it until it becomes real in the world, asked them what
other process does that - told then art

told them a text is magical when it changes the reader as it is read
what it changes the world as it unscrolls itself, ima go deep on them

also im going in studio today for the 4th take
the 1st 3 were toss aways, now i think i got it

and i was thinking ima approach it differently
before i was very formal, thinking this is for
posterity its got to be perfect, but now ima
be more laid back, more personal, more
conversational, now im thinking ot if
as a chance to hold a dialogue with the
future,  ima try to make this endurance
run fun, its three 5 hours shifts and by the
end of a shift im wore out and drifting

but ima get this done
ima get it off my plate

photos are of baobabs im south africa that climate issues
are killing after some have lasted 1000s of years of climate
challenges and i thought about once i read that griots were
buried standing up in the hollow heart of baobabs, that

appeals to me, im gone, i got to read apps
i got to read manuscirptx and do all kinds of
schoolhouse paperwork, im gone

all my love

rdoc

 

TUES 01/08 5:50am

hello world

sent off my novel and my holybook
now i got to put them out of my mind
when you been invested like i been invested
hard to step back, this last read was hardcore
thoroughly sick of it, have lost faith in it but at
this point all you can do is fall forward

now i got to full court press schoolhouse
i got folks manuscripts and this is my only
slot, once schoolhouse starts its a grind
but this morning bereft of a major project
i swtarted thinking about mojo rising but

ima restrain myself, i got so much need
to be done, already i know of some novel
issues, i saw a sequence glitch, should
fix it before i seque out, erven if ive sent
it off, at least fix it in the draft i have

im gone, all my love

rdoc

 

anytime somebody tell you dont vote assume you being played

my apologies to the new york times 12/17 for stashing this but this is critiical info to me
you know i dont like it when blackfolk get played, i want a race of playas not fools
ima use this and the report to do something, i dont know what but ima stash it here

i will not have them fucking w/my culture like this, i will not have it
the full new knowledge report is here

in the book of flowers this is a game changer

Russian 2016 Influence Operation Targeted African-Americans on Social Media

The Russian influence campaign on social media in the 2016 election made an extraordinary effort to target African-Americans, used an array of tactics to try to suppress turnout among Democratic voters and unleashed a blizzard of activity on Instagram that rivaled or exceeded its posts on Facebook, according to a report produced for the Senate Intelligence Committee.

The report adds new details to the portrait that has emerged over the last two years of the energy and imagination of the Russian effort to sway American opinion and divide the country, which the authors said continues to this day.

“Active and ongoing interference operations remain on several platforms,” says the report, produced by New Knowledge, a cybersecurity company based in Austin, Texas, along with researchers at Columbia University and Canfield Research LLC. One continuing Russian campaign, for instance, seeks to influence opinion on Syria by promoting Bashar al-Assad, the Syrian president and a Russian ally in the brutal conflict there.

The New Knowledge report, which was obtained by The New York Times in advance of its scheduled release on Monday, is one of two commissioned by the Senate committee on a bipartisan basis. They are based largely on data about the Russian operations provided to the Senate by Facebook, Twitter and the other companies whose platforms were used.

[Read the report here.]

The second report was written by the Computational Propaganda Project at Oxford University along with Graphika, a company that specializes in analyzing social media. The Washington Post first reported on the Oxford report on Sunday.

The Russian influence campaign in 2016 was run by a St. Petersburg company called the Internet Research Agency, owned by a businessman, Yevgeny V. Prigozhin, who is a close ally of President Vladimir V. Putin of Russia. Mr. Prigozhin and a dozen of the company’s employees were indicted last February as part of the investigation of Russian interference by Robert S. Mueller III, the special counsel.

Both reports stress that the Internet Research Agency created social media accounts under fake names on virtually every available platform. A major goal was to support Donald Trump, first against his Republican rivals in the presidential race, then in the general election, and as president since his inauguration.

Creating accounts designed to pass as belonging to Americans, the Internet Research Agency spread its messages not only via Facebook, Instagram and Twitter, which have drawn the most attention, but also on YouTube, Reddit, Tumblr, Pinterest, Vine and Google+, among other platforms. Its attack on the United States used almost exclusively high-tech tools created by American companies.

The New Knowledge researchers discovered many examples of the Russian operators building an audience with one theme and then shifting to another, often more provocative, set of messages. For instance, an Instagram account called @army_of_jesus_ first posted in January 2015 images from The Muppet Show, then shifted to The Simpsons and by early 2016 became Jesus-focused. Multiple memes associated Jesus with Mr. Trump’s campaign and Satan with Mrs. Clinton’s.

The Russian campaign was the subject of Senate hearings last year and has been widely scrutinized by academic experts. The new reports largely confirm earlier findings: that the campaign was designed to attack Hillary Clinton, boost Mr. Trump and exacerbate existing divisions in American society.

But the New Knowledge report gives particular attention to the Russians’ focus on African-Americans, which is evident to anyone who examines collections of their memes and messages.

“The most prolific I.R.A. efforts on Facebook and Instagram specifically targeted black American communities and appear to have been focused on developing black audiences and recruiting black Americans as assets,” the report says. Using Gmail accounts with American-sounding names, the Russians recruited and sometimes paid unwitting American activists of all races to stage rallies and spread content, but there was a disproportionate pursuit of African-Americans, it concludes.

The report says that while “other distinct ethnic and religious groups were the focus of one or two Facebook Pages or Instagram accounts, the black community was targeted extensively with dozens.” In some cases, Facebook ads were targeted at users who had shown interest in particular topics, including black history, the Black Panther Party and Malcolm X. The most popular of the Russian Instagram accounts was @blackstagram, with 303,663 followers.

The Internet Research Agency also created a dozen websites disguised as African-American in origin, with names like blackmattersus.com, blacktivist.info, blacktolive.org and blacksoul.us. On YouTube, the largest share of Russian material covered the Black Lives Matter movement and police brutality, with channels called “Don’t Shoot” and “BlackToLive.”

The report does not seek to explain the heavy focus on African Americans. But the Internet Research Agency’s tactics echo Soviet propaganda efforts from decades ago that often highlighted racism and racial conflict in the United States, as well as recent Russian influence operations in other countries that sought to stir ethnic strife.

Renee DiResta, one of the report’s authors and director of research at New Knowledge, said the Internet Research Agency “leveraged pre-existing, legitimate grievances wherever they could.” As the election effort geared up, the Black Lives Matter movement was at the center of national attention in the United States, so the Russian operation took advantage of it, she said — and added “Blue Lives Matter” material when a pro-police pushback emerged

Very real racial tensions and feelings of alienation exist in America, and have for decades,” Ms. DiResta said. “The I.R.A. didn’t create them. It exploits them.”

Of 81 Facebook pages created by the Internet Research Agency in the Senate’s data, 30 targeted African-American audiences, amassing 1.2 million followers, the report finds. By comparison, 25 pages targeted the political right and drew 1.4 million followers. Just seven pages focused on the political left, drawing 689,045 followers.

While the right-wing pages promoted Mr. Trump’s candidacy, the left-wing pages scorned Mrs. Clinton while promoting Senator Bernie Sanders of Vermont and Jill Stein, the Green Party candidate. The voter suppression effort was focused particularly on Sanders supporters and African-Americans, urging them to shun Mrs. Clinton in the general election and either vote for Ms. Stein or stay home.

Whether such efforts had a significant effect is difficult to judge. Black voter turnout declined in 2016 for the first time in 20 years in a presidential election, but it is impossible to determine whether that was the result of the Russian campaign.

The New Knowledge report argues that the Internet Research Agency’s presence on Instagram has been underestimated and may have been as effective or more effective than its Facebook effort. The report says there were 187 million engagements on Instagram — users “liking” or sharing the content created in Russia — compared 76.5 million engagements on Facebook.

In 2017, as the American news media focused on the Russian operations on Facebook and Twitter, the Russian effort shifted strongly to Instagram, the report says.

The New Knowledge report criticizes social media companies for misleading the public.

“Regrettably, it appears that the platforms may have misrepresented or evaded in some of their statements to Congress,” the report says, noting what it calls one false claim that specific population groups were not targeted by the influence operation and another that the campaign did not seek to discourage voting.

“It is unclear whether these answers were the result of faulty or lacking analysis, or a more deliberate evasion,” the report says.

The report suggests a grudging respect for the scale and creativity of Russian influence operations. But the Russians were not eager to take credit for their own efforts.

After the election, the report says, the Internet Research Agency put up some 70 posts on Facebook and Instagram that mocked the claims that Russia had interfered in the election.

“You’ve lost and don’t know what to do?” said one such post. “Just blame it on Russian hackers.”